Life takes a turn...

Life takes a turn
ice is what you feel
frozen are the feeling
words just cry
silence not speaking
tears just dry
sun sets never to rise
moon awake albeit all tries
birds stop singing
eyes stop blinking
trees just barren
no laugh no terrain

Life takes a turn
warmth in hands
feelings flying high
words never stop
as silence will speak
tears are happy
sun holding its charm
moon smiling shyly
birds with fun
dreams in eyes
love all around
world is mine
-Tushar

...hoon chala

Kuch khawab ki taabir dhoondhta hoon chala
nayi rahein nayi manzeloon ko paane hoon chala

jiya hoon tere saath, tere bina jeene hoon chala
us yaad ko samaan bana saath liye hoon chala

bahoot mara hoon teri yaad main,teri khusi paane hoon chala
tere lafz teri haansi se muskurata hoon chala

kaun saath hai kaun nahi, sab bhoolta hoon chala
to nahi to zamane ko thukrata hoon chala

dil roota hai, usse manata hoon chala
apne kal ko pyaar se sulaata hoon chala

khoya tha tujhme, khud se milne hoon chala
waqt ke mod pe bas kadam badata hoon chala

Kuch khawab ki taabir dhoondhta hoon chala
nayi rahein nayi manzeloon ko paane hoon chala
-Tushar

Can I ? Yes, I can...

Can I fly?
With no wings
Just a wish
That is too high

Can I sing?
With no words
But a bumping orchestra
Beating with heart

Can I dance?
With no steps
Just shaking legs
With joy and fun

Can I laugh?
With no jokes
Just mirror in front
Making faces as clown

Yes I can
Yes I can fly, sing, dance and laugh
With dreams in eyes and power inside
All can be done
All will be fine
With determination insight
With no inner fight
Smile on face
Bidding fear goodbye
I can, yes I can...
-Tushar

Losing ...

Lie down I
With wide open eyes
Roll down are dreams
Within silence screams
all hope just tear
loneliness only and all near
staring in vacuum
searching a thing to succumb
ahead is a road long
no steps nothing to long
rose and leaves are dry
desert heat left to cry
all night awake is moon
sun waiting for cloudless boon
land is brittle and broken
love has left and pain sunken
past is dead but talking
present is still but walking
future is distant not moving
threesome moment all but weeping

calling from far is the only one
dying inside is me, the left one
-Tushar

Who I am ?

Who I am ?
What I am ?
Is it what mirror says, or
Is it what world plays;
Is it holding one's flute, or
Is it dancing on theirs tune;
Is it what I write, or
Is it what they recite;
Is it what I set free, or
Is it what rules they agree;
Is it the sweet pink smile, or
Is it loads of burden that pile;
Is it the first drop of rain, or
Is it standing in shower in pain ;
Is it making dream come true, or
Is it living in world, virtually true;
Is it what I feel, or
Is it what they steal;
Is it who live moment slow, or
Is it who accelerate for a show;
Is it what I love, or
Is it what I am made to love ;

Who I am , What I am ?
as ME, which is I,
as ME, in world's eyes;
A puppet just shaking,
all strings tied and world mocking;
A wish lights,
to break the links,
making me, the I
with my own definition
neglecting all world's consideration
fly high as ME
as high as it can be
on a journey
to find I
on a journey
to meet ME;
-Tushar

La pila se saakiya ... a fav gazal by pankaj udhas

See every coulpet...they are so deep...
Patti Patti gulab ho jati har kali meharkhwab ho jati
tune dali na mehfisha nazaren varna shabanam sharab ho jati

Patti Patti gulab kya hogi har kali meharkhwab ho jati
Jisane laakhon haseen dekhen ho usaki niyat kharaab kya hoti

La pila de saakiya - 2 paimana paimane ke baad
hosh ki baate karunga - 2 hosh me aane ke baad
La pila de saakiya

Dil mera lene ki khaatir minnate kya kya na ki - 2
Kaise nazaren pher li - 2 matlab nikal jaane ke baad

Waqt saari zindaji me dohi guzare hai kathin - 2
ek tere aane se pahele - 2 ek tere jaane ke baad

Surkh suru hota hai insaan thokare khaane ke baad - 2
rang lati hai heena - 2 patthar pe pis jane ke baad

bakhwaas ...

bas pehlu hai zeevan ke
badalte waqt ki taabir hi hai ;
woh jo lamhe rukhte nahin the unke saath,
saath waqt unke ab katta nahin ;
un baatoon ka aaina ,
jo hardam hasta tha bas;
un chehroo ke hoone se ,
dard ab ghatta nahin ab ;
bina seer-pair kee baithak ,
thahake bas khaali lafzoo pe;
dimaag se samjhte hai,
dil se ubharte nahin;
kyon sab bune kahani,
bas lagti "bakhwaas" se hai ;;
-Tushar

pal...kal

samay ko gale mat lagao
bada nagawar hai yeh
bulbula pani ka samjho isse
kabhie badta ,kabhi bahta
kabhi thahrta ,kabhi bahkta
par hamesha choot-tta
jo paas nahin woh kal hai
jo gujar gaya woh pal hai
aaj bhi kahin jee ke
soo jayega aagan main man ke
phir aayega kal ek aur pal ban ke
phir jayega pal ek aur kal ban ke
kuch nahin pakad payoge
tum bhi bas bahte jaoyge
kabhi ek pal main
kabhi bete kal main
saath na hoga kuch
zeevan hoga ek pul sa kuch
kal se pal tak
pal se kal tak
-Tushar

zindagi aur tum ...

Sooraj dhal raha hai sindoori rang se shaam ban ke
zindagi ban raha hai chehra tera kuch haans kuch muskura ke
shama rooshan hai phighalkar andhere mahka ke
raaste manzil hai saath chalkar tere haath thaam ke
dhalte badal hai boondh se bhini dharti se mil ke
sapne haqueqat hai teri palkoo se chal meri akhoon main baske ke
chandni humaari hai taaro ke jhoole jhul chand ke phelu se nikal ke
lafz dastaan hai tere laboo ke meri sooch ke
-Tushar

Baarish --- Mausam

sanware raang se raancha rasta mausam
dhoodhlata aur boondon se kaapta mausam
patto se bhigota hawa sa ithlata mausam
chatree se bachta sadak pe bheegta mausam
pakhudi pe tharta oos sa muskutata mausam
ghaas par ghirta ehsasoon ko jagata mausam
koyal ki kook aarmaan sa udhta mausam
bijle ke dahak laboo se lipat-tta mausam
badal ke sawan dharti pe jharnoon ka mausam
aanchal udata palkeein jhukata sharir mausam
takraati boondh gharmaati saansoon ka mausam
haath thaame humaare roomaani rahoon ka mausam
baarish hai aur ghazab unke saath ka mausam
-Tushar

On occasion of Rohit's wedding with "Mehak"....

Chale hoo saath too zindagi tumhaari hai
khaaboo khayaalo ki haqueeqat tumhari hai

chandni main nahate pal
bhoor se sajte kal
kangan ki chahak
payal si "mahak" tumhaari hai

sawan ki baarish
mausam ki saajish
choodi ki khanak
phoolo ki "mahak" tumhaari hai

humsafar mile hai to badti raahe tumhaari hai
khusiyoon se jhoomti kilkaari tumhaari hai

dharti aasmaan phoolo ke "mahak" tumhaari hai
hum hai aur humhaari saari duyaaien tumhaari hai
-Tushar

Leaving Gb-Team

Change is the only constant
Living with them is Present
Looking apprehensively at advent of future
Admiring the footsteps marked as past
Yesterday was an experience
Tomorrow is just reflections
Today is a bridge, A tunnel, a context
Whose QoS needs to be negotiated?
The flow of past
This routing area update is
Just a transfer to
Lossless High speed future
Some contacts to be reset
Some to be provisioned
Few names as critical to be kept
To be deleted
Meeting together may be suspended
But sitting will soon be resumed
World is a router
So packet will again collide
As IP address are there
Eye contact just blocked, not down dear
Smile is inevitable, a static memory
Moving with loving contexts
Dumping all the leaks behind
‘Am on a journey
Just changing cell, just TLLI’s
Not the IMSI

U all have entered in memory’s Rb-tree
Your search will be a return, GPRS_SUCCESS always
As some tunnels are not just created, but stays
Keeping Life’s Stack UP running with them
Always GREEN LIGHT ON
Always as FUN
-Tushar

woh hai to...

woh khooye aapne main hi bas rahte hai
humaare paas hoone ke ehsaas se bhi bekhabar rahte hai

hum aapni kya kahe

woh saath humaare nahin, aisa to hoota nahin
kabhie saamne baithe rahte hai
kabhie hum unke khaayaaloo main rahte hai

paloo main mahkte hai ,
ehsaaso koo bahkate hai
hum unke saath jeete hai
hum unhi pe marte hai
patoo ke saath lahraate hai
gulmohar humare ban jate hai
unhi ke saath chalte hai
zindagi woh humaari thamte hai
peele saarsoo se chahkte hai
basanti shaam se bahte hai
woh hai to aandhere jagmagate hai
woh nahin to taare humare saathi ban jaate hai

Woh hai to hum hai
humaari sooch, humaari haqueqat hai
humaari saanse, humaari aahe hai

wohi to hai jo humme

Ek roh se utha
Ek jaan bana jaate hai

woh saath humaare nahin, aisa to hoota nahin
kabhie saamne baithe rahte hai
kabhie hum unke khaayaaloo main rahte hai
-Tushar

chehre...

Zindagi ke chehre maut ke saath yoon robaroo hoonge
khawab humaare un chehroo se takra bas bhikhre hoonge
soocha na tha un mukhootoo ke bheed main yoon tanha hoonge
aapni laash par phele aansoo bhi roodaali ke hoonge
-Tushar

Kuch baatein ...

Humaari ashko ki nami ataa unki hai
samjhe aab unhe chaana khata humari hai

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Dard chubhta nahi duniya ke safed sawaloo se
sharmshaar hai unke likhe jawaboo ki shahayai se

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phighaltee nahi laboo par thahrti maayush hansi se
jalte hai beraang nazar ke darpan se

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aapni dastaan tanhaayioon ki zabaan sunate nahin
mausamoo main agar unki yaadoon ke sawan hoote nahin

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sawari hai zindagi doostoon ne hi kuch aise
begaanoo main bhi chehre aapnoo ke khiltee hoo jaise

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Thahr paate ye badte raastee manzil tak pahuchke
tham lete humme woh bas thoda badke bas thoda muskurake
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-Tushar

Lata ji

I had a collection of songs, a pack of 5 cassettes, for Lata ji.IN that there were lot many persons who said something abt Lataji after which the songs followed.Here is one of them
Smita patil
Didi ki main bhakt hoon, har waqt unki Awaaz sunti hoon to mere Rongte khade ho jate hain.Didi ko main un Logon mein se Manti hoon jinhone is Duniya mein bahut bade kam kiye hain. Jinki awaaz ne is duniya ke logon ko dukh ke Mauken per Shanti di hai. Didi ke samne bus yahi kah sakhti hoon ki jahan Devatv ki Prachti hoti hain Uske Samne sirf apne Haath judte hain.
The song which followed this was "Saware ke raan ranchi rana ji" , a bhajan by Meerabai...still in serach of this song again

NARGIS DUTT (actress):
Lata kisi tareef ki nahin, balki parastish ke kabil hain. Unki awaaz sunne ke baad kuch aisa aalam-tari ho jata hai jise bayaan karna bada mushkil hain. Yun samajhiye jaise koi dargah ya mandir main jaye, to vahan pahunch kar ibadat ke liye khud-ba-khud sar jhuk jaata hain aur aankhon se besakhta aasoon behne lagte hain.

NOORJEHAN (singer/actress):
Log kahte hain ki Lataji tumhe Itna Manti hain, Lataji tumhe Ustad samjhti hain, tumhe Pyar karti hain. Yeh sab Main samajhti hoon unka Badapan hain kyonki Lata to Lata hain. Lataji ki tarah meri nazar mein to koi aaj tak Paida nahin hua.,
Lataji ko Allah ne awaaz di hain, Ilm unhe unke Wallid Saab se mila, Khuda ki taraf se unpar Karam hain.

REKHA (actress)
Lata Mangeshkar ek Ehsaas hain jo Mehsoos kiya jata hain Baiyan nahi.Yeh ek Naam hain jisse Sun kar mere Man mein Sukoon aur Chehre par Muskurahat aa jati hain. To me she is etherial someone from another world, larger than life, no less than a Godess a 'Devi'.
This one Name evokes a million feelings inside me. I have cold feet, weak knees, a knot in my stomach, a smile on my lips & tears in my eyes. In other words I feel 'Alive' when I hear this name Lata Mangeshkar.

For Priyanka's Wedding site

Woh saath chale to zindagi humari hai
khawaish khwaboo ki haqueqat humari hai ...
-Tushar

Intezaar...

woh saath hai to waqt ki raftaar mano thamte nahin
woh pass nahin to pal mano jaise badte hi nahin
intezaar ke lamhoon main sapney hai haqueet nahin
ab zindagi khawahish ke khaboo main katte nahin
-Tushar

Aadat-2 ...

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
kabhi saaath jeene ki aadat thi
aaj khawaboo main milne ki aadat hai

Aadat bhi ajab hai
roop badal peeghalti-peeghlaati hai
kabhi haansti, kabhi roothti manati hai

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
kabhie saath kadam badane ki aadat thi
aaj un nisaanoo ko thaamne ki aadat hai

aadat bhi ghajab hai
laboo ke ghulab aakhoon ki nami hai
palkoon par khelti, roolati satati hai
kabhi yoon hi muskuraati hai

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
Kabhi har lamha tujhe paane aadat thi
aaj har pal tujhe khoone ki aadat hai

Aadat bhi aadat hai
kabhi banati kabhi bigadti hai
har saans se ban jaate hai meri
par yaad teri kahlati hai

aadat to aadat hai
dil ki dhakan main meri bajti hai
par dhun teri sunate hai
haathoon ki lakeroon main to sajti nahin
aur taqdeer meri kahlati hai

Aadat to aadat hai
aakhoon se chalakti hai meri
par tanhaayee teri ban jaati hai


Aadat to bas aadat hai
mujhe aadat ki aadat hai
aadat jo meri hai
aadat jo tujhe mera banate hai

aadat bas aadat hai
Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
-Tushar

aadat-1 ...

Kitne mere woh hai kareeb
ehsaas jaane se unke yeh eise hua
rukhsat hoote bheege lamhoon se bas itna kaha
"humme aapki AADAT se hoon gaye hai"
-Tushar