Kyon...

Jinse milne ki hi ek aarzoo se
zindagi ka har pal jiya hai
jinhe ek aapni manzil maan
aapne raastoon ka safar buna hai
kyon aaj unse mulakat
sirf ek aur lamhe se hai
kyon usse pa ke,dil khamosh sa hai
kahi kuch mahka nahin
sard mausam main hawa ka rukh bahka nahin
kyon aaj "hum" "main" nahin
kyon aaj woh beete waqt se thahre nahin
aarzoo woh poori to hui hai
saath hum tum hai, par tanha nahin
khade hai saat beete woh saare pal
jinse humne har saans se kuch kaha hai
jo en badte faasloo main
tumne kabhi suna nahin
daayre tay kuch aise hai kiye
ki humaare lafzoo main ab
aapni hi kahani nahin
-Tushar

khayaal...

1. Unka khayaal hi kya kam qatil tha
Rukhsaar se parda bhi jo dhalka diya

2. Woh kahte hai hum bekhaayal rehta hai
Koi unhe bataiye hum unhi ke khaayalo main khoye rahte hai

-Tushar

...raang...pehlu...

zindagi ke kuch rang aise hai dekhe
kuch gulaabi saath gujari shaam thi
baki teri ankahe din beete hai
baki meri ansuni raatein kati hai

chaand-suraj saath pehlu main kam hai dekhe
kuch mahke kohre ki woh chaadar hi thi
baki jaith main jalti dharti teri hai
baki tushar se pheghalti zameen meri hai

indradhanush ke saat chehre haanste hai dekhe
kuch oos ki kirnoo ke mel se thi
baki saawan ki baarish teri hai
baki pathjhad ke mausam mere hai

wahan door aasmaan-zammen milte hai dekhe
kuch unki mohabat ki tamanaa se thi
baki bhaagte woh raatse tere hai
baki thartee yee raahein meri hai

pyaar ke kuch pehlu aise hai dekhe
kuch humaari wafa ki chaav se thi
baki meri bewafai teri hai
baki tere gunaah mere hai
-Tushar

...Kya

Pooch rahe hai mehfil main woh mohabat hai kya
humne tera naam liya aur hum phir kehte kya
Jaan rahe hai yoon aaina ibaadat hai kya
aapni rooh main paya tujhe aur hum isse batate kya

band aakhon se khuli palkoon tak ek chah hai kya
dedar-e-chehra bas warna yoon aashiq kahlate kya
har pal har ghadi har lamha har saans se kahte hai kya
intezaar main jeete hai tere yoon hi rooswa hum hoote kya

baatoon-baatoon main har baat ka bas roop hai kya
tere naam se shuru mere khayaloo se gujarata hai kya
saath hai chalte to raastoon ka raahi hai kya
chand lafz tere kuch haansi meri , mausam hai aur kya

sindoori sham main fiza yoon gungunati hai kya
sooch hai yaa tum sapne dharti par laye hoon kya

tum paas hoo itne saansoo ki agan jalati hai kya
UFF !! agar ye haqueqat hai to phir khawaab hai kya
-Tushar

Memoirs of GEISHA....

Wonderful lines from the movie "Memoirs of GEISHA"

The heart dies a slow death,
Shedding all hopes like leaves,
Until one day there are none,
No hopes
Nothing remains
She paints her face to hide her face
It is not for a Geisha to want
It is not for a Geisha to feel
Geisha is an artist of a flaunting world
She dances, she sings, she entertains you
What ever you want
And rest is secret
rest is SHADOWS...

A story like mine should never be told
For my world is as bitten as it is fragile
I certainly was not born to the life of a GEISHA
But as so much in my strange world
I was carried there by the current …


Remember Chiyo Geisha’s are not goddess
We are not wives
We sell our skill not our body
We create another secret world
Of beauty only
The very word Geisha means “artist”
And to be a Geisha is to be judged as moving work of art
….
Beatty and agony, for us, lives side by side
Your feet will suffer
Your fingers will bleed
Even sitting and sleeping will be pain

Ashkoo ke dastaan …

tere jaane se zindagi ka kinara kuch aise khooya hai
ashko ke saillab ne saahil humara doboya hai
bichoo ke us bebas agan ko bhujaana chahte hai
par dekho aakhoon ke moti chehra tera hi dikhate hai
-Tushar

on Chakresh's B'day ( 30th nov 2006)

Din aa rahe hai ,mahine jaa rahe hai
Saaloo ke saath yaadoon ke samaan bad rahe hai
seeshe main safedi muskura rahe hai
peeche palat kar dekho too
raahoon main aapno ke saath chune moti jagmaga rahe hai
yeh heere hi shayad jeevan ka saar hoonge
hum to bas raahe yoon hi rooshan karte chalenge
-Tushar

to be sent on Nd's Birthday ...17th Dec'2006

Birthdays are special days
as they are a chance always
for those who are so far so near
but for those U are so dear
a day to express the unspoken all
that too without verbose fall
just short like morning rise
but sparkling as lotus by ur side
may be months gone without call
but here are we all
with vermillion sun,
with flowers bun
together with singing birds
walking with verdant trees
along are moving clouds
making the misty clout
just to say we care for U
though apart are we
but we are so near
close the eyes , find me dear
So as we remember U
U live with our wishes
which we send
no words no flowers
but just our own
"Smiling tears"

Happy B'day
-Tushar

Rista ...

ek seekh dee hai kuch beete ristoo ne ,
ristoo ke baare main
saaloo lagte hai ek ristee ko uska roop dene main
aur woh hota hai barf jaisa
varshoo ki laagat mahnat se
roz thoos hoota hua
par jahan kuch rook gaya
naye parat thamne lagi
woh khaamoshi woh doori chingaari se ho jaate hai
saaloo ke riste ke putle ko
dino main pighala jaate hai
aur kabhi ahankaar hi chir deta hai
us aapne kaya ko
bas kuch bahte paloo main

par aaj bhi yeh raaz nahin khool pa raha hoon
ki samay se kiya woh thoos bandhan
kya paaloo ke saath nazuk hoon jata hai
woh kuch lamhoon ki aag se
aapne ko yoonhi bhasam kar pata hai
phir us jali raakh aur jaalate hai , kachotati hai
Kyon diya itna ise
jo bas itne se toot gaya
kyon hoota hai rista barf ke dheer sa
tharta kam aur
bas jaise phighalte ehsaas sa
-Tushar

On Rohit and Mahek's Engagement ...

mausam thahar gaya hai kuch gungunanne ke liye
ki fiza main ehsaas bhene bhene se mahek ka hai
surkh hai gulaab rohit se phale hue
ki rista ab naya ek ubhar raha hai
-Tushar

Kyon ???

Kya uljhaan kya kulffaat leke jeeta hoon
kyon majhi ko pakad moothi main bandhta hoon
kyon sapnay aane wale paloo ke palta hoon
ek kal tha ,ek kal hai;
phir bhi aaj ko unke beech peesta hoon
-Tushar

maayne ...

meri ghazloo ko mukambal kiya hai tumhare lafzoo ne
nahin to zindagi ke maayne to bas log yoon hi nikala karte the
-Tushar

Akele ...

Waqt ka ehsaan kaho yaa taqdeer ki saajish
jo chalte kaadmoo ki dhool se teri yaadoo ke samaan kuch aise dakh gaya hai
ab jab tere jaane ka dard bhi tapis nahi deta
dil ke koone ka woh khaalipan bina ehsaas ke ji raha hai
us kamre par taala daal diya hai
jiske chabi khoone ka gham bhi nahin
kuch yaadein jo tadap rahi hai wahan
unhe aazad bhi to nahin kar sakta
na unke saath mud gujre waqt ko pa sakta hoon,
jee sakta hoon
kuch nahi koi nahin
koi bandhan koi nata nahin
phir bhi woh jagah bhaari hui to hai
us chookat ke andar kuch mera sa
jee raha hai mar raha hai , yeh bhi to pata nahin
par haan teri yaadoon ko
aapne se zamane se
kuch es tarah chipa diya hai
ki ab unme palte aapne chehre bhi anjaane hoon gaye hai
soocha na tha es doori se
mera roop kuch es tarah badal jayega
aapne saaye ke daman koo yoon jhatak
naya mokhota pahan main phir
haan ek baar phir
baas chal doonga
eese hi bas eese hi
ek aanant safar par
akele
bina tere bina aapne
bas akele
kuch yaad paaleta hue
kuch aur taale dalte hue
bas chal doonga
bas yoon hi
bas akele !!

sometimes...silence...

hum bayaan jo lafzoo se kar na sake
dastaan woh khaamoshi se likh gaye


sometimes I want to say so much
but ...their silence takes control
-Tushar

...???...

lafzoo se shikvoo ka tana bunte nahin ab
ki gila un cheroo se kya kare jin ke saath haansi ke woh pal bhi biatye hai
-Tushar

hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

tere jaane pe soocha nahin tha
hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge,
jahan jo tujh par lutana tha
us ko bas yoon lutate hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

guftgoo saath buni thi kabhi
humari ghazal ki woh juztuzoo hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

waqt jo gujare the milkar
woh pal humari saanse hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

teri peeshani par sahmi boonde
aakhoon ka humari bas noor hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

nishaan choode peeche jo saare
woh raastee yoon zindagi hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

aashiyaan banaya tha jo humne
teri yaadoo ke woh ghar hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

saapne paale the aankhoon main
taaroo je jahan main bas poore hoonge

tere jaane pe soocha nahin tha
hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

Intezar...

Intezaar main jiske humne raatein gini hai
woh aaj humare tasoovar ko dost kehte hai
-Tushar

Life with you

The days are warm
The nights so calm
With you life has its own charm
so much mine ,so like orchid farm
-Tushar

desire...facet

The days were dark
The nights so long
My desire had this facet
for what ,for years I long
-Tushar

chubhan ...

sapne gulaab ke kabhi saath dekhe the in aakhoon ne
unke kaantoo ki chubhan kyon humari palak hi bas bhigotee hai
-Tushar

...kyon hai

woh kahte hai ki mohabbat nahin
phir palak jhuka sharmate kyon hai
jab hum desh main nahin
phir sapnoo main roz bulate kyon hai
-Tushar

From Chakresh

Dil mian chhipe the jo chehere
Unko apne patal par ukerte hua chand
Sard raat main unke yadon se
Garmi se hahakar machata hua chand
Pighla deeya jisne dil par rakhe ke patthar ko jisne
Un ons kee boodon ko tejab sa banata hua chand
Dil ka khoon nikal deeya jin yadon ne
Us lal rang se chandani ko bhegota hua chand…

*********************************************
Sath jo hota tera to duniya se larh sakta tha
Tu sath nahin to khud se bhi darta hoon..
*********************************************

Dil main chhipa tha jo dard
woh aaj muskarahat bankar khil raha hian
Dil mian tha jo tufan
who aaj sannata bankar bol raha hain
Dil main tjha jo sagar
woh aaj ashq bankar bikhar raha hain
Dil main thee jo awaj
Woh aaj sahyari bankar nikal rahi hian
*********************************************

Ab to yeh bhia nahin keh sakta
Teri yaad main palken bhegota hoon
Asqon ke sagar sookh gaye hain
Tere becchoh ke gam se
Ab to yeh bhi nahin keh sakta
Tere bina jee nahin sakta hoon
Tune kasam jo dee hain
Tamam umra jeene kee
Ab to yeh bhi nahin keh sakta
Darde judayee se rota rehta hoon
Daal lee hain adat
Dard main muskarane kee…
*********************************************
-Chakresh

mausam ...

jab bete kadmoo ko dekha tha
zindagi ki tasveer ko badla paya hai
kal jo tere saath ka sawaan tha
aaj woh teri yaad ka mausam le aaya hai
-Tushar

sapnay ?

sapnoo ka bhi kya koi masal astitva hota hai
woh to bas khyaal, khwaish aur ehsaas ka bandhan hai

Do dreams have a physical existence ?
they are just bond of thoughts, desires and feelings
-Tushar

Kuch khaayal ...

Dil ke dard ki hoothoon tak laate to jal jaate woh
bas tabhi is tapis ko dil main baandh liya hai

Daastan jab suni ooroo ki bebas
dard aapna bas phir ek zarra sa laga hai

chehra kahie jo muskurahaat ka sabab tha
kyon aaj woh haasi ka roop badal gaya hai

phool-daali sa bandhan hi to bas chaha tha
dekho par taqdeer ne raat-din sa bana diya hai

daayre dard ke kar gaye hai kuch is tarah tanha
ehsaas bhi maano saath ab chod gaya hai

kaise baayan kare us nazar ke churane ko
woh nazar jo kabhi dil churatee the

chahat-e-deedar kuch tadapne eese laga hai
khawab main bhi chehra ab dil ko behlata nahin

daastan aapni chaahtoo ki kuch is kadar hoti hai bayan
chah din main chaand ki thi, par raat woh aamavas ki nikli

Jaise milte hai teri yaad har mod pe..
Kash un rahon tum hamsafar bhi hote

chalee the jab saare raaste tere ghar tak pahuchte the
doosh kise de jab tumne bataye bina hi aasiyaan badal liya

kash zindagi ek kavi ki sooch ki tarah hoti,bas muskuraate
aur pal main apne saathi ke pehloo main pahuch jaati

... kabhie

zindagi mukkarrar hai un paalo se
woh lamhe jo saath bunne the kabhie
mahkate hai gulaab aaj bhi kitaaboo se
woh paanne jo saath likhe the kabhi
muskurate hai baag pholloo se
woh gulmohar saath khilaye the kabhie
doohraana chahte hai un sabdoo ko zubaan se
woh khaayaal maan tak hi simte the kabhie
-tushar

shayyar

yesterday was talking to Rohit ( who writes but very rare) abt my writing style.he wants to know what pain I have that I can pen down so much as a "shaayar". I said I have none.He said to be a poet u needs to be in pain , as chakresh also said once in my room .So I just said to him

dard-e-dil sunaate to shayyad shayar kahlate
abhi to bas haal-e-dil sunaate hai
-Tushar

... chaand

roomani khayaaloo se chat pe sharma raha hai chand
tumhari haya ko chandni se barsa raha hai chand
mahkta ehsaaas hawa main rajnigandha ka hai ya
mere khaayal se tumhare labbo ko surkh bana raha hai chand

laharata hai aanchal yaa sitaroo se khawab bun raha hai chaand
chaa rahi hai ghaata yaa tumhari zulfoo main chup raha hai chaand
jhankati hai har aahaat pe patto ki kilkaari hi bas ya
tere paayal se haal-e-dil suna raha hai chaand
-Tushar

bas yu hi

roomaani khayaaloo se chat pe chand sharma raha hai
nazar ka dookha hai , yaa tumhari haya chandni se barsa raha hai
mahkta ehsaaas hawa main rajnigandha ka hi to hai ya mere khayaal ka
kaaptee laboo ko jo ghulab sa surkh bana raha hai
-Tushar

rohit's sms response : 27th Oct 2006

bayaan nahin kar sakte bekhaayali ka aalam
bas kahte hai
"mahak" us gulaboo ki ehsaaas aapka hai
-tushar

dua ibadat tab karte jab koi tammanna adhoori hoti
ab mannat kya maage jab fiza hi "mahakti" sirf "mahak" se hai
-tushar

roomani hoona

Bahar mausam ko nazar uttha kar to dekho
sard hawaoo se dhadkanee bada ke to dekho
roomani tum bhi hoo jaayooge
palkee baand kar humme yaad karke to dekho

happy "DIWALI and EID"

Roshan hai gaaliyaan deepoo ki ladi se
mahkti hai rasoi sewai ke mahak se
waqt phir se bachpan main ab latuega
meethai, pathake or eide ke saath ab khelega
-Tushar

Subh Deepawali

Roshan hai gaaliyaan deepoo ki ladi se
mahkti hai rasoi ghee ke mahak se
waqt phir se bachpan main ab latuega
meethai, pathake or kandeel ke saath ab khelega

zindagi main phir nayi aasha ki kiran aayege
Khusi ki devi andhkar ke datya phir harayege

Jeevan bas ab rooshan hoga
ummedo ki loo ka bas ab saath hoga

As the season of festivity is on its roll ,
Wishing U and Ur Family "Subh Deepawali"
-Tushar

Kuch...nahin

Kuch daayre baad jaate hai jab kuch kadam baadte nahin
Kuch riste choot jaate hai jab kuch sabdh ubharte nahin
zindagi chaalte hai pal-pal ko jinne se ,par
Kuch lamhe thahar jaate hai jab kuch chehre aankh se bahte nahin
-Tushar

kuch ...

kuch dyaare bad jaate hai jab kuch kadam badte nahin
kuch riste choot jaate hai jab kuch sabdh ubharte nahin
-Tushar

phoolo se milna...

gamgeen dil ki dhoon bhi madhoosh kar sakti hai
bas saaj badal naye sur bandhne hai tumko
aashk ki boond bhi badal sakti hai oos main
namkeen tasoovar chood sirf phoolo se milana hai unko
-Tushar

waqt badal gaya hai ...

Kuch jazbatoon ka khicaav tha
jisne us darwaaze par dastak dee thi

kiwaad khuuli, chehre muskuraaye bhi
par us chamak main jhijhak dhihklaaye bhi
aasan par aaraam se humare baithne se
hulchul aakhoon main khai khilkhilaye bhi

gazab ka tha woh saama jab
varsoo baad aapne doost ke saamne tha aaznabi tab

shaayad main hi saaloo ke aantraal laangh na paya tha
kahi yaadoo main jeeta, aaj ke pal main sama na paya tha

paaloo main hee pehchaani awaaz bhatkne lagi thi
kahi anjaane shahar main jaise ghootne lagi thi

tabhi aaj jaag utha, chahak utha
chai-naaste ke baad darwaaza niharne laga

ussne jheepthe se kaha
"zindagi kaise bhaagne lage hai, waqt ki kaami se jaise haarne lagi hai .
buraa na maano yaar, par ek 'party' main jaana hai,
kaam silsile mian 'socialize' karne hai "

samajh gaye the bhaagne ka matlab
nigaahoon se darwaze takne ka matlab

woh chookhat jisse aana hi yaad tha bas
dooara hi koi pahloo dikha rahi thi
bahaar dikhtee sooni gali meri zindagi thi bas
"aapni" is chookhat laangh kar kahi chaali ja rahi thi
-Tushar

change ...

Un laboo ka thathadana aaj bhi dil main toofaan thaamta hai,
pyaar ke na, par shikvoo ke charche humare naam se bunta hai,
mausam badalte hai shakhoo ke roop bhi
saawan ke baad machal, pattoo ke raang bhi ujadhtaa hai
-Tushar

Sometimes ...

Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to ...... step on rainbow side
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... dance in moonlit night
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... fly in bluest sky
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... sing with morning flight

But with you holding me,
so sure I am
the dreams are real
You standing beside,
I am bliss
I am Life

Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... coloring with sun rising
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... wetting in spring rain
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... smiling with cherry blossom
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... shedding with autumn green

But with You moving around
I am on joyous ride
want to sing, dance, laugh,
all You by my side

You make me feel What I am
How can I love
How can I smile
making me stop wondering
just, cherishing what all is in sight
You make me LIVE
You make me feel what is LIFE...
-Tushar

From Aman's blog

This is one piece that I wrote exemtpore in Aman's blog.Just felt like having in my collection .

jab tak hai chaand aasmaan main,
jab talak hai chaandni raatein,
aap muskuraage humare jahan main,
roboro na sahi par yaadoon main karge aap ki baatein
-Tushar

Friend ...

Kuch dena tha us saaye ko
raat main bhi jo ubhartaa hai mere saath
meri hi parchaiyoon ke khoone par
muskurata hai jo mere saath

naam de sakta hoon aapna usse
pratibimb (shadow) mera hi to hai woh
mere in nainoo pe paltee
sapnoo ka sutradhaar hi to hai woh

par naam na doonga aapna,
ki pehchaan uski mujhse nahi, meri usse hai
jeevan paath main sahayaak, disha nirdeshak mera wahi to hai

par kuch kehna too hai usse
pehchaan ek denne to hai usse
kya par hai sawal khada ?
jisse aaj ,
soocha bahoot, samjha bahoot
toola bahoot, jaana bahoot

uderhbun main sooch raha tha tab
mil gaya jawab usse-se aaj mujhe
muskuraa kar bheed main pukara jab
"DOST" kahkar ussne aaj mujhe
-Tushar

Gulzar : again

kuch saaaye kuch parchaiyaan
kuch chahat ke sajde
kuch badaloo pe rakhi ummeedein
barastee rahi tarastee rahee
chaand aasmaan main jaade suraakh ki tarah jhaakta raha
aur raat aandhe kuan ki taraf mooh khoole haaftee rahi

raaste paav tale se sarakte rahe
na ruke na thame
na rooka na poocha
zindagi kis talash main hai

zindagi jaise thakne lagi hai
aur yeh zindagi ka judwaa uski ungali thaame sahar ki nagi sadkoo par
abhi tak
kuch doondh raha hai
kuch bin raha hai
-Gulzar

Umrao jaan: revisited

to mujhe chahe na chahe yeh tere bas main to hain
main tujhe na chaho yeh mere bas main nahin
-Umraoo Jaan

nazuki

nazuki unke labbo ki kya kahiye
phakhuddi ek gulaab ki se ...
-Umraoo Jaan

a communication

I never thought this will go so long.staeted with anshul, this communication will have inputs from me and chakresh and unbelievablly from arun too.
So I am framing every phase of it.

1)Anshul gave me a frame of his

aarzoo hai ki saja le apna ashiyhaan
mukammal karle apna har armaan
dhoonda aur chaha to bahut usko
par chota pad raha hai ye jahan
banane ke liye wo ashiyhaan

2)I responded in my way

Khawaaishyoon ki koi seema nahin
vistaar hai aasmaan se bada unka
zarorat nahin jahan ki aashiyaan ke liye
muskuraana baas kaafi hai unka Tushar

3) Chakresh wrote in response , when asked by ND

Karte hue intzar tumhara ho gayee hian sham
Yeh kaala asman kahin kala hi na raha jaye
Na aye tum to kabhi na hoga savera…
Reh jayega aise hi meri jindagi main andhera…

4) I wrote to revive him

Bemaani na samjhoo intezaar ke paaloo ko
Ehsaas unka dil ke kareeb ,un paloo se bhi hai
baithye kyon ho maayush saavere ki chah main
shamaa ki loo bhi chehra jab dekha jaate hai
-Tushar

I also made a new version of the above couplet, just for the sake of it

Bemaani na samjhoo intezaar ke paaloo ko
Ehsaas unka dil ke kareeb ,un paloo se bhi hai
baithye kyon ho maayush saavere ki chah main
shamaa main jalte parwanoo sa sabab jab tumhara bhi hai
-Tushar

5)Chakresh was not ready to give his saturine mood and went further

Jab sham ka husn ud jata hian..
Din bhi kali raat lagne lagta hain..
Unka intjar us sham tak hain..
Jo kabhi takarayegi nahin…
Pata hain who nahin ayenge
Par unke intjar main hum palken to bicchayenge
Sath the jab who to wahi sham sundar thee..
Aaj who syah rang se rangi hui…
Darati hui..satati hui..
woh sham kab ayegi..jab sath hoga unko..
woh sham ka husn fir haseen hoga..
na kabhi khatm ho who sham aa jaye..
par filhaal to bas intjar hain us shaam ka…

6) Arun , I guess bored or frustrated with these long mails, said this

Kyion hawa dete ho buji hui aag ko
Kahi koi chingari aag na laga de es jahan ko !

7) But I was in synch with chakresh and wrote this, a bit not poetic , but just wanted to frame something , did it in office so a less ryhming but was expressing me

tanha shaam nahin
channd sitare badal hai sambahale usne apne acchaal main

tanha din nahin
paatte (leaves) panchi fiza hai pale usne aapni baahoo main

to us raat-din ke saath tanha main kaise ho sakta hoon
saathi saangi pyaare jab hai mile in rahoon main
kuch mile , kuch chote ,
kuch ruke , kuch bade
par yaadyoon ki mithi misri bani hai aafsanoo main

In sab ke saath agar akela darta hoon
apne ko agar doosh deta hoon
to sahi main main kahin soo raha hoon
kuch paane ki dhoon main sab khoo raha hoon

jagna to hoga
badna to hoga

sunane kuch beete lamhe aapne ko hoge
un mitthi yaadyoon se gham dhoone to hoge

jadtha ki barf aaj todke
kaantoo ki chuban choodke
sapney kuch aur paalte hai
lahraate fiza main gaate hai

pyaar hi bas batana aasaan duniya main hai
wapas usse pane main kahin woh hi ghata hai

sirf karna chotta ek kaam hai
kissi baache ko bas hasana hai

zindagi phir maasoom ho jayege
kilkari baahoon main kai goonj jayege

to bas chalo chalte hai
haste hai aur haasate hai
humsafar bahoot hai
chalo sabko aapne khayaal sunate hai
-Tushar

aapka hai ...

palkoon main muskuata khayaal aapka hai
aakhoon main basaa khawaab aapka hai
pal koi beetata nahin ek naam ke bina
us naam main tasoovaar aapka hai

hawaoon main lahraata aanchal aapka hai
raang gulaab main bhaara aapka hai
chalti nahin zindagi dhadkan ke bina
wo dhadkan sunata dil aapka hai

haathoon main ubhaarta saaya aapka hai
karta madhoosh sangeet aapka hai
saanseein simatate nahin fiza ke bina
un fizayoon main mahkata ehsaaas aapka hai

maay main bhikara shabab aapka hai
rijhaata bhavroon ko raas aapka hai
chaand khilta nahin chandni ke bina
us chandni se dhalta noor aapka hai

meri maauzoo ka saahil aapka hai
meri ashiqui ka saabab aapka hai
thahaar jaate hai raaste humsafar ke bina
us humsafar saa saath aapka hai
-Tushar

Umrao Jaan

Ab tum saamne hoon to kuch bhi nahin hai yaad,
warna aapse humko kuch kehna jaroor tha
-Umrao jaan

Na jiski shakal hai koi
Na jiska naam hai koi
Ek hai shah ka kyon humme hade dil se intezaar hai
-Umrao jaan

bekhaayaali

haaya un jhukti paalkoon ki hi to hai
chandni raat main jo dhadkan suna gaye
lehar un ghaanere julfoo ki hi to hai
laafzoo ko humare jo sargam bana gaye

pal intezaar ke saambhaalne hi lage the jab
jhalak ek phir naye muskuruhaat jaga gaye
deedar karte hai chaand ka din main bhi aab
mulaakaat woh bekhuudi itne bada gaye

-Tushar

ajanabii kaun ho tum: Song by Nida Fazli

ajanabii kaun ho tum, jabase tumhe.n dekhaa hai
saarii duniyaa merii aa.Nkho.n me.n simaT aaii hai...

tum to har giit me.n shaamil the, tarannum kii tarah
tum mile ho mujhe phuulo.n kaa tabassum banake
aisaa lagataa hai ke baraso.n se, shamaa aaj aaii hai
ajanabii kaun ho tum...

Kvaab kaa ra.Ng haqiiqat me.n nazar aayaa hai
dil me.n dha.Dakan kii tarah koii utar aayaa hai
aaj har saa.Ns me.n shahanaaiyo.n sii laharaaii hai
ajanabii kaun ho tum...

koii aahaT sii, a.ndhero.n me.n chamak jaatii hai
raat aatii hai, to tanahaaii mahak jaatii hai
tum mile ho yaa mohabbat ne Gazal gaaii hai
ajanabii kaun ho tum...

-Nida FAzli
JUst loved these lines !

jyada hai ...

tere jaane ka darr sab khoone se jyada hai
tujhe bhoolne ka gham teri yaad se jyada hai
kuch to bete pal hi bas sambhaalte rehte hai
nahin to yoon tanha jene ka ehsaas maut se jyada hai

-Tushar

bhikra gayi hai

bhoolne ki jid unhe aur pass le aaye hai
hansne ki jid aakhon main nami barsa gayi hai
bheed main aaj bhi tanha hi to khaade hai
sab sambhaalne ki jid humhe hi bhikra gayi hai

-Tushar + chakresh
(here I just reframed a couplet by chakresh.The thoughts were his only , I just re- wrote them as I liked them to be)
Here I am also pasting the original one by Chakresh

unke bhoolne ki jitni koshish kee woh utna pass aa gaye
khud ko jinttna khush rakhne kee koshish kee palkon par ansoon utne aa gaye
bheed main rehne ki jitni koshish kee utne tanhan ho gaye...
jitna khud ko sambhalne kee koshish kee utne jyada bikhar.. gaye

bhoole the ...

dard unhe de kar soocha marhaam aapna saaza lenge
bhoole the un palkoon se dhaltha saagar apna hi hai

jaala kar unhe soocha saawan main naha lenge
bhoole the baadal main khoota saaya apna hi hai

mazhdhaar main chod unhe soocha naiyaa aapne baacha lenge
bhoole the laahroon se bhigtha saahil apna hi hai

kaante de unhe soocha phool hi bas bichha lenge
bhoole the labbo pe banzar haansi apne hi hai

bheed main tanha kar unhe soocha karvaan apna bana lenge
bhoole the andhakaar main darta dil apna hi hai

Bhoola kar unhe soocha tha yaadein apni sawaar lenge
bhoole the wahan sooti zindagi apni hi hai
-Tushar

Don't wait

Mohabat hai to izhaar to karo
zazbaatoein ko dil main yuon kaid na karo
kya pata izhare-i-dil sunene ko woh bhi tareste hoon
tumhari yaad mein woh bhi raataoon ko karwateein hi badaltein hoo
-Tushar

darr

karwaatein badaltein-2 kati hai raatein
sapoonoo ke toote jaane se darte hai aakhein
tumhe paya na sahi , par tumhe khoone ke daar se
izhaar karne se darti hai aakhein.....
-Tushar

tanha nahin ...

Tanha jee lete agar tanha hote,
yahan tanhaayioon main bhi tanha nahin !
In tanhaayioon se tanha hona chate hain,
par yeh tanhayi tanha chodti hi nahin !!!
-Tushar

jal raha hoon main ...

badal tanhayioo ke chayee hai aise
aansoo bhi aaj saath chood rahe hoon jaise
aapni hi ikchaayoon ki chitaa main jaal raha hoon aise
maratuyaasayaa ke shool par jhool raha hoon jaise

aandhkaar ke gaarth main koo raha hoon main
marusthaal main aashayein dhoo raha hoon main
shukhi banzar dharti saa phaat raha hoon main
soonyaa (zero) saa aakhoon main baas hoon main

door akela dastee ees ekaanth main hoon
daarta phir bhi aapni parchayioon se hoon
khaada raakh aapnepan ki tapish pe hoon
jalta phir bhi sneh ki boondoon se hoon

saab paane ki ikchaa (desire) jaise khoo rahi hai
aage jivan nahin jadhtha aakheen khool rahi hai
gaaye geet ki dhoon maano aab bajtee nahin hai
laboo par tooti kaahani bhi aab sajti nahin hai

saaraansh kuch paane ka jaise likhna tha
saapnoo koo jeevanth hi to baas karna tha
par aapne aasoonyoon ki baadh main baah raha hoon main
sapne ke toote kaanchoon par hamesha ke liye aaj soo raha hoon main

Otaru Trip feel...

Yuhi chalet-chalte zindagi ki rahoon main,
Khoo gaye the hum apni hi pareshaniyoon main,
Par waqt ke is mod par khade hue,
Aaj jaana zindagi main yeh raang bhi ha bhare hue,
Paaya bahoot kuch,kuch khoya bhi, zindagi ki lahroon main,

Samay ka yeh lamhaat shayyad zannat hai ,
Bas gaya jo humari roho main.

Saagar ka vistaar
Barf ki sard masoomiyaat ,
Hain ek lambi chandni raat ki tarah
Jo roomani hai , pyaari hai , apni hai

In pallo ko hum bhoola to na payege,
Kyonki ye sab to hai bas humare liye
Tushar

Ek safar ...

woh door suraj dhal raha tha,
woh paas shama bhuj rahi thi,
woh sooch thi yaa haquekat
jo meri aakhoon se bah rahi thi .

mitti ke saqt farsh par lete hue , chandni ka intezaar hai ,
us door se aati bachoon ki sharaat bhari awaaz se bachpaan ka ehsaas hai .

aaj apni dhooti ke raang pe ,
jeevan ke saare saaye samete hai ,
yeh kuch tansveeryain hai ,
kuch pal ....ek humsafar se hai

baaithe hai mere saath meri tanhaiyoon main ,
jo carvaan banate hai chale mere is safar main (woh pal)

Tushar

Waqt ...Intezaar ...Ehsaas

kya jagah hai yeh zindagi jahan tabussum si khilli hai ,
barf se dhake parvatoon se ek purwaayi si chali hai.

Is sard mausam main dil khamoshi se kuch kah raha hai,
In haasiyein waadiyoon main jo afsanoon sa bah raha hai.

waqt yeh shayad ek saathi ke saath hone ka hai,
unke ghaaneri zulfoon main khood ko khoone ka hai.

Sukhe pattoo pe chalne ki sarsharahat unki aahat ban-ne ko hai,
kuch pal intezaar aur phir zindagi unki aagoosh main soone ko hai.

-Tushar

excerpt

Kaun hai jo ek saaye ki tarah mere dil ko chotta hua chala jata hai,
kabhi paas se kabhie door se.
Ek awaaz ek geet bankar mere rag-2 main uttar jata hia,
kabhi paas se kabhie door se.

kaun hai jo mujhe meri tanhaayioon ka ehsaas dila jata hai,
ek khaalipan ,soonapan chod jata hai.

Kaun hai jo mere paas reh kar bhi mujse door hai.

main usse janna chati hoon,dekhna chati hoon,
ungalioon se unke chere ko chona chati hoon,

Kadmaon ki ahaat sunti hoon, palati hoon,
usse dekht hoon , khud ko bhool jaat hoon,
tasveer ban jaati hoon ,Khod ko bhool jaat hoon.
Bekhud hoon jaati hoon ...
(from movie Bazaar)

Yaad

gujre waqt ke woh lamhaat, jinhe hum yaad kahte hai
tasveer unki hai jooo humare dil ke paas rehte hai
kabhi kassak kabhie hook se baan saamne se gujrete hai
beete pal phir phi bakhsoo main sajoye rakhe hai
zinadagi sawaari hai enhe se humari,yeh joo saaaman bachaye rakhe rai

-Tushar

ehsaas hai mujhe

Tooti chookhat par uss apni hi dastak se
mausam gujrne ka shayad ehsaaas hai mujhe ...
Is makaan ke har koone main khelte har saaye se
bachpan ke jaane ka shayad ehsaaas hai mujhe ...
mandir main rakhi rudraksh ki sithir(motionless) mala se
khatam hui daadi ki khaniyoon ka shayad ehsaaas hai mujhe ...
purani raadi ki dhool (dust) se jhakate neele dhabboo se
apni hi tasveeroo ke khoone ka shayad ehsaaas hai mujhe ...
barghad ke sukhe tooth se uterti beloo se
sawan ke beet jaane ka shayad ehsaaas hai mujhe ...
banjaar se khaat (cot) par letne se
maa ke aachal ke saaye ka shayad ehsaaas hai mujhe ...
vaarshoo baad in parchaiyoon ke ubharnee se
dhalti dhoop ka shayad ehsaaas hai mujhe ...
tahlte hue in sooni galiyoon se
apnepan ki baarish ka shayad ehsaaas hai mujhe ...

In bemaani kaagazoo par dasthakhat (signature ) jaadne se
aapne hi sharir ke kissi aang ke katne ke dard yakeenan aaj hai mujhe ...

-Tushar

on ND's UK valedictory ....

the way I see this event ...

sapna suhana ek aakhoon main samaya tha
roz unchee gagan main dosroo ke saaath joo udd jata tha
kabhi too hum bhi chooyege enn un uchaiyoon ko
yeh vishwaas maan main samaya tha
poora woh armaan aaj hoon jayega
jiwan ke safar main ek naya ashayaya jud jayega
chootege kuch saathi par dil yeh kuch anubhav naye payega
afsaanoo ko haqueekat bante bas suna tha
aaj woh manjar bhi aakhoon main sama jayega
suno ey door desh ke wasi
sunhari dharti ka rajkumar tumhe apna banane aayega .
-Tushar , 22/07/2006

unfulfilled-Desires

Hawa main lahrateein saaye si,
zindagi oojhaal hoon gaye
bahte aasoon se likhi kahani
saare dhool gaye
dhoop main udee oos ( dew) ki boondh se,
laboo se hansi khoo gaye
hoon na sake en sakheeyoon (friends) ke sapnay poore
palke yeh pahle hi soo gaye.
-Tushar

Khawaaish

Waqt tum aur hum
saath agar kabhi tahar to paate...

safar ki rahoon ko,
phir hum badal to paate

sajoyete sapnay baarish ki boondoon main,
patjhad sawaan main badal to paate

harilaali chawav ke saye main lahraate,
kaante gulab ban to paate

chandni yoovan main hoote madhoosh,
taare saang muskuraa to paate

kaano main kheltee masoom hansi,
aansoo moti ban to paate

bhar dete rang sab chitroo main,
kirnoo ke jhoole jhool to paate

badtee karvaan ke hoote saang hum bhi,
paanchi man ke geet gunguna to paate

sindoori shaamoon main khaamooshi se kahte kuch,
lahroon se saahil bhigoon to paate


Waqt tum aur hum
saath agar kabhi tahar to paate...

-Tushar

Evening

Day abandons it
Night disowns it

a poet picks it up
threads it
into a poem;
but sometimes
it is barren,
so impotent
it gives nothing,
not even to the poet

-gulzar

Thanks Orkut for this creations ...

6th Aug 2006, I happen to meet some old buddies Kanika and gaurav dhama from my '97 batch .....so in continuation of the tryst effect here comes it

pooraani kitaaboo ki dhool jhadhte hue
sukhe gulaboo ne pooche mahkte hue

kya en cheroo ko jaante hoo ?
In aawaazoo koo pehchannte hoo ?

un dhoondhaali tasveroo ko poocha jab,
aakhoon main saaye kuch lahraayeen tab

ye naam kuch jaane-pehchaane se hai
tehre joo aab kahi afsaanoo se hai

in phooloon main abhi jhuriyaan nahin hai
bandhaanoo ki door abhi tooti to nahin hai

rishta ghahra abhi bhi un muskaanoo se hai
parchaiyoon main beete pal ghooye se hai

mulakaat ye sirf yaad bhi rahe too gaam naahi
aandhi phir dhool jaade to gham nahin naahi

pata hai phir un kitaboo ko jhadege
unme soote tasveroo ko paalege
mile hai jo muskil se yeh kirdaar ,
inhe ab umarbhaar yoo hi sawarege ...
-Tushar