…hai aaj

daayare kuch aise rukhsaat hue hai aaj
tum muskuraaye to jannat mile hai aaj

duniya ka dastoor kuch jaana hai aaj
mar ke khud zindagi jee rahe hai aaj

raang zamane ke dekhe hai aaj
ban ke aaina khade hai aaj

har sawal ke jawab dhoonde hai aaj
milke unse khud se mile hai aaj

khawab saare haqueqat se toote hai aaj
band aakh kar soone se darte hai aaj
-Tushar

B'day wish to Narayan : 17-12-2007

The wheel just turns to the point again,
over the period, I had some pain few gain;
standing on the day, of the very advent
to take more steps, to cherish what just went
its a journey each year of the wheel
living life as I want it to and feel
I have lot as a lot, my family and U my friend
and what I want more in prayer to send
Thank your GOD for a new turn
I will live as I am here, to love to learn

Happy B'day Narayan ...
-Tushar

4th Anniversary of 232

yaad hai mujhko who suhaani raat
when we flashed mobile saath-saath
captured some moments to remember
bana liya ek ristaa with all forever

wooh society ki lambi analysis
that dollar-rupee appreciation thesis
drawing room ka virtual cricket ground
kuch songs par roz subhah ek sound

Mall ke lagate chakar,kuch khaate, kuch chahte
Funny office gossips, kabhie sacha dukh sunate
Defining life in own its own fashion
Hum sab main badta ek passion

bhaiya ji ke mast chawal choley
life was moving just holay-holay
then came the period of recession
bidding valedictory was painful session

waqt ke chokhat se yaad ke saman le chaley
kuch naam kuch pehchaan bas chod chaley
are O mere dil ke bando, yaad hai ya nahin wooh makan
House se home banaya tha jisse, 232 aaj bhi hai uska naam
-Tushar

sharm aa gayi...

sharm aa gayi yo unse milke
ghata chaa gayi, main unke sadke
ab kah denge unse haske
rahe sada woh mere banke

ab ke aaye to jaaane na denge
is raat ko dhalne na denge
kuch kahyege kabhie chup rahege
yuhi saath bethe rahege

mogre ki mahek hi to hai
dil pe kuch dastak di hai
dhadkan ke geet ab gaate hai
hum tumhe bas chahte hai

nazro ke yoon milne sa
jhuki palke laboo ke khilne se
hum to bas khoo gaye aise
hai! tum pe mar gaye aise

barf se dhake pahadoo se
jharne girte nazaroo se
pati-pati chinaroo se
baat ki teri hazaroo se

sharm aa gayi yo unse milke
ghata chaa gayi, main unke sadke
-Tushar

Bas...

khawab ki zindagi itni thi bas
aakh khulte hi haqueqat se toot gaye
woh na mil sake hum se kabhie
bandh aakhon main jo rahte the bas

waqt ud raha hai dhuaa sa bas
koi chingari kahi jalti nahin
zarra-zarra sulag rahe hai aarmaan
yeh kahani aab rukti nahin bas

rukte hai dard ki mahfil main bas
har gazal main woh samaye hai
har jaam ki madhoosi un se hai
hum unhe bhula na paaye bas

chaand kahta hai dastaan-e-noor bas
sunte hum bhi hazaroo main rhai
raat ji rahe hai jaag ke hum bhi
badal ban saath chal na paaye bas

phool pe oos ki boondh thi bas
thari ruki phisal gayi
ashaq bhi phisalte hai gaaloo pe
thahrte to mere hote bas

rista apna ek shaam tha bas
aayi shaam ruki, raat hui
samjhe kaun samjaaye kyon
duniya phir bhi haas degi bas
-Tushar

Ek hai chaand…

Ek hai chaand Chere hazaar
Ek hi naam Afsaane besumaar

Din ke gusail dada se
Pyare chanda mama sa
Asmaan main sajta
Albhabet ‘C’ jaisa /* Thanks to Adee for this line */
Leader hai sitaaroo ka
Meeri katori ke batashe sa
Raat ke carom ke
Chamkte striker sa
Maa ke loori ka hero
Kabhie poore ka poora zero
Naani ki di chaavni sa
Pansaari se li taafi sa

Ek hai chaand Chere hazaar
Ek hi naam Afsaane besumaar

Tasveer mere pyaar ki
Pedh se jhaakte noor sa
Baadal main sahma khoota
Sharmati dulhan sa
Pardesh main dilata desh ki yaad
Khamooshi main karta baat
Saathi mahkati tanhayi ka
Pyaara mere yaar sa
Here ka pehna kangan
Kan ki jhoomti baali sa
Raat se uth, us-Ke khaayal jaisa
Jaagta saath mere, Mere intezaar jaisa

Ek hai chaand Chere hazaar
Ek hi naam Afsaane besumaar

Bhaagti bheed main
Gaadi ke pahiye sa
Roz thakte paate us-se
Do waqt ke roti sa
Gharaate andhere main
Jalte bulb jaisa
biscuit ka toota tukra
bhookh phir bhi badata sa
Hazaaroo main ladta
Mere ek naam jaisa
Zindagi ki aankh-michooli mian
Hamesha ghaatta bhadta sa
Meri thakaan se taar
Raat main gawah jaisa
Har pal chalta badhta
Meri kahani jaisa

Ek hai chaand Chere hazaar
Ek hi naam Afsaane besumaar
-Tushar

… duniya aise hoti hai…

Aakh se chal laboo tak jo pahoochi hai
khamoshi nahin, dard ki zubaa aise hoti hai

raaste jo bhikhre lambe tanha se hai
mera kasoor nahin, duniya aise hoti hai

tasveer basi aakhon main yaad ki hai
intezaar tera, raat aanchal bheegooti hai

mile nahin par kuch judwa aise hai
naam mera, ruswaaiye teri hoti hai

lamhe bun bewajah waqt thaama hai
bandh muthi khulte hi khaali hoti hai

dard ki zard safed chadar oode hai
maut kya, zindagi aise hoti hai

saath tum ho roomani mausam hai
khawab hai, haqueqat kahan aise hoti hai

After I wrote above and shared with few friends, they asked me why so much pain and darkness.So I came for the light with the flip version of above.

Aakhon se chal Aakhon tak jo pahoochi hai
khamoshi sahi, jhuki palkeein bhi izhaar hoti hai

raaste badte hai, modh thahar jaate hai
milte hai dil, duniya meri hoti hai

teri tasveer basi aakhon main hai
har manzil tujse bayaan hoti hai

mile hai kuch aise judwa se hai
naam tera, kahani humaari hoti hai

lamhe bun moti se waqt thaama hai
milte hai aur yaad jawa hoti hai

aanchal khawaboo ka yoon lahraya hai
aise main zindagi muskaan hooti hai

tum nahin, dekho chaand bhi tanha hai
tum aaye, tanhaaiyaan rukhsat hoti hai
-Tushar

kitne baatein kahni thi...

kitne baatein kahni thi
kitne raatein jaagi thi
tere intezaar main
tere aane ki rah main

woh chaand bhi chala gaya
raat safar ke baad bhi
dhoonda tumhe ujaloo main
shaam ke jalte chiraago main

kuch sapney tere saath ke
jeevan ki har raah ke
badte kadam teri aas main
jeete dua har saans main

dil kahi ab lagta nahin
tu nahin too kuch nahin
tanha khade hai bheed main
adhoore se door pyaar main

muskuraate hai pal sooche jab
hoga kya tum aayoge tab
paa lege tumhe har raang main
kooyi meera, shyam sang main

kitne baatein kahni thi
kitne raatein jaagi thi
tere intezaar main
tere aane ki rah main
-Tushar

aakh se lafz bolo na...

aakh se lafz bolo na
dil ke sahme raaz kholo na

un khaamosh lamhoon ke saaye main
mere saath ke rang gholo na

lambi tanha in raahoon pe
khawab ki manzil dhondho na

jo kahani tooti baithe hai
tukre wafa se joodo na

sitaare jahan main bahoot hai
unme apna chaand dekho na

raat ke gujraate andheroon main
kal ke sapnoo ki tasveer dekho na

woh jo darta hai tanhaiyoon se
khud ko khuda se mila ke dekho na

haafte bhaagte thakte duniya se
maa ke aanchal main soo-lo na

kaun aapna kaun paraya jahan main
pyaar baatate yeh socho na

aakh se lafz bolo na
dil ke sahme raaz kholo na
-Tushar

When they think that I hate...

When they think that I hate
What to say about my fate

When days here were dark
When stars in night lost spark
What all I did was to wait
Whining for long lost bait
When soaked tears in eyes
While a smile for byes
When I just lived hoping
While all was gone moping
When words just became flawed
When I was crowned a fraud

When they think that I hate
What to say about my fate
-Tushar

The night and me...

A walk on long road dark lying wide,
Steps moving slowly with silence inside;
Seeing the far light as dream to attain,
Together night & me determined to sustain;
-Tushar

title to be guessed ???

Goes with me at night to the bed,
Lives with me without being wed;
Is a part of my fondle and action,
Caresses me sweats my affection;
The game makes me playful ,
So high so spirit colorful;
Tasting as a hot chocolate sauce,
So serene in white solace;
With a high as I want ,
Framing per my thought;
Makes me the person I desire,
Revealing the hidden ardent fire;
I can mould I can twist give a race,
Experiencing all new kissing face;
The curve of the flowing river,
Hearts just thumps and shiver;
Undressing like mysterious mountain,
Being cozy in warm fountain;
Breaths get all the more warmer,
A walk in misty cloud charmer;
Sleeping on lap like a little kid,
Steam out with burning lid;
All just seems so mine,
Every frame like carved waistline;
Its all me in purple sight,
A journey of the night;
A walk of life not mainstream,
This is the story of a dream…

Dream…

Trust…

Just a matter of fact,
When feeling no more,
Is it on only one act?
Or the passage of yore;

When things don’t shine,
With blossoming rose,
To be true to be mine,
Like incomprehensible prose;

When parting hug is not tight,
Eyes don’t shower waterfall,
You just don’t wait till last sight,
Face manages a smile after-all;

Why they came why they went,
To make me happy or sad,
Took some life’s part without rent,
No voices when silence clad;

Its they say life moving,
Its has its different shade,
All the fun just fleeting,
Trust look like a spade;
-Tushar

Farewell…

A road to glorious future
With sparks from the past
Bidding good byes to friends
As you move and go apart
BUT…
Its also a sign to cherish the gone
With welcoming note to harbingers
A chance to say we will miss you
A hope to again meet you.
-Tushar

Moments…

Some moments are so cute,
Just the musical flow by flute;
Living with them is just to nurture,
Threading past, present and the future;
-Tushar

For my Mother...

Life’s first care,
The womb was yours;
My first worldly smile,
The hug was yours;
As tear turned to pearl,
With touch warmly yours;
I made the first step,
Holding hands were yours;
For all good night sleep,
The lap was yours;
The very first fall,
Catching support was yours;
When I got hurt,
The caress was yours;
Making those mistakes,
Rectifying advise was yours;
In those lonely hours,
The company was yours;
When all went away,
The shelter was yours;
Walking down the lane,
The shadow was yours;
In those dark confusion,
Enlightening was yours;
On the failing acts,
The courage was yours;
With winning facts,
Success was yours;

For me standing here,
The pain was yours;
For all love I have,
The blessings are yours;
For what I am ,
All credit is yours;
For all left unsaid,
Dear Mother, I am yours;

-Tushar-

Baarish : ke saath ke ehsaas…

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain

woh ek boondh bachpan ke jamoon ki
doosri oos geele dagamgaati naav ki
bheege pattoo ki rimjhim se chaav ki
bhaagte jhuund main khusi ke shoor ki

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain

sadak ki nami se saletee(grey) raang par
badate pagoo ke saath pagdandi ke mod par
beekharee zulf se hawa ke aanchal par
dil ke saath udte aasmaan par

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain

aagan main raakhi lakdi ke kursi se
payale main chai ke ubhartee khusboo se
garam garam pyaz-besan ke pakodi se
kuch sawad kuch armaan hai machalte se

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain

chatari main bhi bheegte saikal pe misra ji
tyartee gaadi ke boochaar se bachna ji
chootu ka paani main masti se chapkana ji
chat pe jhaarne main rom-rom bhigona ji

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain
-Tushar

Life…moments…feelings

Its all like a dew drop,
so pertinent not perpetual;
the pain of past,
the happiness growing so fast;

Its all like petal cluster,
nothing alone, together so live;
the tears of smile,
the moments woven for a while;

Its all like vermilion sunset,
on edge of glory yet the beginning;
the valedictory friends,
the welcoming hands;

Its all like desert sand,
so vast but so lone;
the indignation of betrayal,
the love for the gone;

Its all like rainy clouds,
so affable so thundering ;
the life of dreams,
the joy of screams;

Its all like little words,
so silent so unheard;
the dialogue of eyes,
the language of breaths;
-Tushar

zihaal-e-miskeen mukon ba-ranjish, bahaal-e-hijra bechara dil hai

zihaal-e-miskeen mukon ba-ranjish, bahaal-e-hijra bechara dil hai

zihaal = notice
miskeen = poor
mukon = do not
ba-ranjish = with ill will, with enimity
bahaal = fresh, recent
hijra = separation

In English:
Do not notice the poor heart with enemity...
It is still fresh with wounds of separation
In HinDi
Ye dil judaai ke gamo se abhi bhi taaza hai.
Iski bechaargi ko ba-ranjish (without enimity) dekho.
-Tushar

Happy Wedding Anniversary ...

A day to rejoice
Decisions of past
When you came together
For being each other's part

A day to celebrate
With the present
While you still hold hands
Sharing the love and affection

A day to believe
In roads to Future
To create precious memories
For marriage that is "forever"
-Tushar

Smile...may be not

When I smile to unknown,
bearing all what it take
with pleasure genuinely fake
don't know the smile across is real
OR like mine it is there
only just for the sake ...
-Tushar

Rain...

When clouds shed tears,
smiles the thirsty earth,
feeling peace in dark up,
with fallen crystal down,
a eternal bond of drops,
giving itself for her,
the sky pours,
the ground holds,
for the love unknown,
a wish for horizon to meet...
-Tushar

Agreement…of souls…

When the two just silently nodded
Smile and happiness just flooded
Came along warm holding hand
Dreams shining golden as sand
I am yours, you are mine
Are only words that shine,
Life is for a new journey as Ecstasy
Some lived in real some in Fantasy
-Tushar

The moment...(of achievement)

The moments just shine
so flashy to be mine
but they are there to stay
I want bar no words to say
just a smile with no cost
an effect in summer of frost
a new step just taken next
to prove I am the best ...
-Tushar

zindagi main mana hai

zindagi main mana hai
aage ka pal acha hoga
jo mod ab mude hai
unka raasta pakka hoga

har dard har lamhe ka jalna
aati sardi main tap hoga
aason se aakhon ka bahna
sukhe main thahrti bahar hoga

kuch choot jaane ka ehsaas
usse paane ki umeed hoga
jo na mila andhere main
jo paas hai uska ujala hoga

zindagi main mana hai
aage ka pal acha hoga
jo mod ab mude hai
unka raasta pakka hoga
-Tushar

A day just ...

A day just comes
A day just goes
Making weeks
Forming months
Then is 'IT'
Summing it all
Creating a year
A day so lovely
As special as you
For the days
As shiny as rays
A new journey begins
With happiness, with love
With smile, with hope
With you …
And the days
-Tushar

Can you be...?

When you float in doubt
From which you cannot come out
Just take a deep breath
Just a swirl when u takes
a judgment as a heart
With jury of nerves of mind
Ask to you simply the things
Which I can assure will give you wings
But leaving what, when how and then aside
Move to mirror when you relax stretching wide

Can u stand like a mountain?
A trust for the inner self
Can you sing like wind?
A freedom for your wealth
Can you smile like flowers?
A moment of the joy
Can you float like a cloud?
A push for moving ahead
Can you flow like a river?
A way to wash to get the way
Can you be the rainbow?
A mix of emotions to glow
Can you be the moon?
A light when all is dark
Can you be the dew?
A help just came and spark
Can you be the trees?
A shade in warming days
Can you be the snow?
A melt when others need to flow
Can you be the sunrise?
A ray of hope with all survive
Can you be the bird?
A determination to fly high
Can you be the ocean?
A desire to serve all

If you can be
If you think you can be
Just move away from mirror
With a smile
As now you have to move
There is journey ahead
Which you need to start...
-Tushar

The Moment is here…

The moment is here...
A moment so mottled
A moment of feelings
A moment together
A moment to part
A moment of wet smile
A moment to last
A moment to move
A moment to look
A moment to give
A moment to take
A moment of wishes
A moment of good-byes & kisses
A moment like gem
A moment to shine

A moment not just ‘A’ Moment
A moment is ‘THE’ Moment

A moment as step in the future
A moment musing the past

The moment is here...
-Tushar

A response to Fizz's poem

Vinay wrote his first poem as
******************************
YOU OWE ME YOU
*****************************
Your Eyes owe something to me
Let them see me........
Your Ears owe something to me
Let them hear my song........
Your Heart owe something to me
Let it beat little harder for me........
Your Touch owe something to me
Let it feel me........
Your Kiss owe something to me
Let it kill me........
Your Soul owe something to me
Let it love me........

********************************************
MY response...funny one( atleast I felt that ways )
**********************************************
Why I owe you something
Why I should hear you sing
Why my lips are your kiss
Why my heart does not miss
Why you feel you have a flick
Why can't u get "U are sick"
:-)
whatever...these would have been a reply to this...
but the fact ...U rock in poems also...I have a competitor ... :-)

-Tushar

A Tear...

A tear just came
a state I frame
it was same small drop
felt different at every stop

sometime was silent love
at times the hate I shove
in moments just fleet
for time not as sleek

In due when we part
when meet and spark
stepping in paused wait
falling with whispering fate

some in flash of rain
little went just in vain
few smiled for jiffy gain
couple dried for soothing pain

a pearl that is mine
a bit sour but not wine
a gem for unspoken all
a sign that just not fall

A tear just came
a state I frame
it was same small drop
felt different at every stop
-Tushar

Oh Lord !

Oh Lord !
Its tough to smile
with the very 'US'
when they have
a piece of cake
when you have
nothing to bake
when life just smile
from far in their eyes
when the holding hands
just slip and part away
when the dreams drop
lightning their way
when you are empty
cannot do a thing
not a task
u do not complete
the poem
leave it in its way
as lone as you
as screaming silently
but wishes that u hope
to be true...
You wait
as your poem
to get something
to be added
to be complete
to get a form...
but again
they go
but again
no words just flow...
a news to break
just breaks you
they smile and leave...happy
you smile and stand ...hoping... ... ... ... ... ...
-Tushar

when u want to say so much ...

when u want to say so much
when words will not utter
when the feelings are all there
when the silence just suffer
when u lone crave for company
when the sight seems tougher
when moments are nostalgic
when present does not buffer
when all shared is not common
when u again feel to be stranger

Just move to the one
Just move with the love
Just the smile on the face
Just a hiccup but the pace
Just a normal generic chat
Just a warm hand on head
Just plan to shed the past
Just remember the went laugh

U will be fine
all will again shine

just a simple act
break the silence and react
same will be the world again
a new life with U no bargain
-Tushar

Birthday afterall...

days after days, months after months
moving ahead on life road,
making years as those cherished milestones
Am again to create one more and planning for more
advent of life is past , but journey is on
but today is special as epoch back
gave me chance to move fast on the current track.
voyage has been a waterfall,
so I'll enjoy the flow
asIt's B'day afterall
-Tushar

drop..A...drop...

A drop is a drop till its not dropped
when it drops on the cheeks
its more than just words so meek
it is the drop of faith
it is the drop of love
it is the drop of trust
it is the drop ...
so let not make that drop
so that we will also not drop
the exists a drop in eyes
but there drop seems so wise
-Tushar

random mind...

I always felt I could write
all feelings in words I can recite
have done it many times in past
sentences turning to story was fast
those were when I wanted to
create something to be looked to
some thoughts random as wave
few moments I cared to save
there was smile, there was light
there were tears , there was fight
some stories of friends I tried
with my art, added spice, they were fried
little of desired in tacit were framed
some sparks in eyes I always craved
all came out so fluently as rain
felt like new friends in life gain
all were mine, whether poetry or prose
they all shine, felt calm getting them close
but there was a frame a sequence in all
something felt something cared and recalled
but now sitting in silence just typing
stating vacuum mind's prototyping
just wanted to capture the zero state
to kill time and not to get frustrate
don't know how much I succussed
who cares ! got an answer to be processed
I always felt I could write
yes, I just wrote something not to recite
But I did , without the view
got a picture to preview
a story of random sleepy mind
a state which is closed, nothing to find
time to time to a state we travel
time just time, with nothing to unravel
-Tushar

A year...

A new day
A new voice
A molding clay
A new choice

The laughter of past
The road to future
The joys so fast
The memories to nurture

A new milestone
A new walk
Some diamonds some stones
Some gone talk

More years are gone
More enough to come
So many to wish now
So many more to come

Just a wish from my side
To make your smile more wide
The happiness whether large or small
Be yours from start to all
-Tushar

Why ? ...

why sleeping alone is no pain
why sitting with you is no gain

why lonely office looks mine
why gathering feels rotten wine

why I don't crave to seek laughter
why the voice just is to shatter

why I feel I rolled down tears
why words just choke and fear

why I devoted and waited
why the smile have faded

why the world makes me shame
why my loneliness only tame

why the HCF was left is middle
why life seems an unsolved riddle

why I burden ur guilt and my act
why u silent, no words to react

why is U are here and U are not
why I want to hug but can not
-Tushar

Solitude...

Solitude is so lonely
Solitude is so lovely

it is the time for me
it is the time to see

to wander and look
to read my own book

a long silence talk
a cool yet warm walk

making the sky your limit
making the horizon to summit

moving at serene pace
moving to meet your face

taking steps to path you choose
taking out worries as no time to loose

the breeze so smooth to flow
the eyes just blink and glow

are no thoughts to share
are just hands to care

an odyssey in its way
an opera sung at bay

U see it all and none
U meet U the only one

Solitude is so lonely
Solitude is so lovely
-Tushar

sometime I stop ...

sometime I stop
wait and wonder
to be a person
I just ponder
then I fly
to farthest sky
breaking the limits
leaving the burden
and the sand
taking the smile
all in my hand
I find free
to be me
to be joy
not the very coy
light all over
mind so calm
no chain's pain
no soothing balm
just floating in air
with laughter's flair
a feeling so mine
as a twin
without a wine
I just love
I just smile
to meet the real I
as I always tried
I just sigh
with so much high
but this is sometimes
when I am me
this is sometimes
when I am free

sometime I stop
wait and wonder
to be a person
I just ponder
-Tushar

zindagi jee raha hoon do pehlu main ...

zindagi jee raha hoon do pehlu main

kabhie saath tere haqeqat main
kabhie saath tere khayaloo main

zindagi jee raha hoon yoon bekhaayli main

kabhie lamhoon ke rukne main
kabhie paloo ke bahne main

zindagi jee raha hoon anjaane main

kabhie pheghalte saanjh main
kabhie mahkte raag main

zindagi jee raha hoon is suroor main

kabhie chaand ki chaav main
Kabhie aanchal ke muskaan main

zindagi jee raha hoon do pehlu main
-Tushar

Just...

Just a fine drop of rain
Just a tiny leaf beauty
Just a small floating cloud
Just a cute bird chirping
Just a orange sun rising
Just a shooting star
Just a flute so far
Just a desert night-fall
Just a musical water fall
Just a moon blink
Just a child's wink
Just a mountain shade
Just a view so fade
Just a warming winter
Just a new as spring
Just a autumn devotion
Just a summer motion
Just a river turn
Just a tickling run
Just a holding hand
Just a friend
Just a little smile
Just a walk mile after mile

Just these small steps
Just these few moments
Just these unaccounted counts
Just these fleeting happiness

Just they make my day
Just they stand as LIFE
Just to live them all
Just to have you by my side
-Tushar

A parting time…

moments ago I was going
packing my bags for the Boeing
life was high, waiting for good-byes
on verge to fly, breathing the sighs
smile all over, hustle bustle here & there
hugs so warm friends so calm
trolleys moving like a train
bags like their passenger frame
so thrilled so excited so nervous so shy
for the ride which I always wanted to fly
counting the minutes to be second
leaving mine for fairy land
pushing the luggage to the GATE-2
with only dreams, parting the only few

tears roll down when I feel
can only meet them in reel
turn back I, for final good-bye
knowing, Is this for what I cry ?
moments now I will be gone
moments now I will be lone
in a large huge Boeing
just patting myself, saying let life going

moments now I will be gone
moments now I will be lone
-Tushar

Life takes a turn...

Life takes a turn
ice is what you feel
frozen are the feeling
words just cry
silence not speaking
tears just dry
sun sets never to rise
moon awake albeit all tries
birds stop singing
eyes stop blinking
trees just barren
no laugh no terrain

Life takes a turn
warmth in hands
feelings flying high
words never stop
as silence will speak
tears are happy
sun holding its charm
moon smiling shyly
birds with fun
dreams in eyes
love all around
world is mine
-Tushar

...hoon chala

Kuch khawab ki taabir dhoondhta hoon chala
nayi rahein nayi manzeloon ko paane hoon chala

jiya hoon tere saath, tere bina jeene hoon chala
us yaad ko samaan bana saath liye hoon chala

bahoot mara hoon teri yaad main,teri khusi paane hoon chala
tere lafz teri haansi se muskurata hoon chala

kaun saath hai kaun nahi, sab bhoolta hoon chala
to nahi to zamane ko thukrata hoon chala

dil roota hai, usse manata hoon chala
apne kal ko pyaar se sulaata hoon chala

khoya tha tujhme, khud se milne hoon chala
waqt ke mod pe bas kadam badata hoon chala

Kuch khawab ki taabir dhoondhta hoon chala
nayi rahein nayi manzeloon ko paane hoon chala
-Tushar

Can I ? Yes, I can...

Can I fly?
With no wings
Just a wish
That is too high

Can I sing?
With no words
But a bumping orchestra
Beating with heart

Can I dance?
With no steps
Just shaking legs
With joy and fun

Can I laugh?
With no jokes
Just mirror in front
Making faces as clown

Yes I can
Yes I can fly, sing, dance and laugh
With dreams in eyes and power inside
All can be done
All will be fine
With determination insight
With no inner fight
Smile on face
Bidding fear goodbye
I can, yes I can...
-Tushar

Losing ...

Lie down I
With wide open eyes
Roll down are dreams
Within silence screams
all hope just tear
loneliness only and all near
staring in vacuum
searching a thing to succumb
ahead is a road long
no steps nothing to long
rose and leaves are dry
desert heat left to cry
all night awake is moon
sun waiting for cloudless boon
land is brittle and broken
love has left and pain sunken
past is dead but talking
present is still but walking
future is distant not moving
threesome moment all but weeping

calling from far is the only one
dying inside is me, the left one
-Tushar

Who I am ?

Who I am ?
What I am ?
Is it what mirror says, or
Is it what world plays;
Is it holding one's flute, or
Is it dancing on theirs tune;
Is it what I write, or
Is it what they recite;
Is it what I set free, or
Is it what rules they agree;
Is it the sweet pink smile, or
Is it loads of burden that pile;
Is it the first drop of rain, or
Is it standing in shower in pain ;
Is it making dream come true, or
Is it living in world, virtually true;
Is it what I feel, or
Is it what they steal;
Is it who live moment slow, or
Is it who accelerate for a show;
Is it what I love, or
Is it what I am made to love ;

Who I am , What I am ?
as ME, which is I,
as ME, in world's eyes;
A puppet just shaking,
all strings tied and world mocking;
A wish lights,
to break the links,
making me, the I
with my own definition
neglecting all world's consideration
fly high as ME
as high as it can be
on a journey
to find I
on a journey
to meet ME;
-Tushar

La pila se saakiya ... a fav gazal by pankaj udhas

See every coulpet...they are so deep...
Patti Patti gulab ho jati har kali meharkhwab ho jati
tune dali na mehfisha nazaren varna shabanam sharab ho jati

Patti Patti gulab kya hogi har kali meharkhwab ho jati
Jisane laakhon haseen dekhen ho usaki niyat kharaab kya hoti

La pila de saakiya - 2 paimana paimane ke baad
hosh ki baate karunga - 2 hosh me aane ke baad
La pila de saakiya

Dil mera lene ki khaatir minnate kya kya na ki - 2
Kaise nazaren pher li - 2 matlab nikal jaane ke baad

Waqt saari zindaji me dohi guzare hai kathin - 2
ek tere aane se pahele - 2 ek tere jaane ke baad

Surkh suru hota hai insaan thokare khaane ke baad - 2
rang lati hai heena - 2 patthar pe pis jane ke baad

bakhwaas ...

bas pehlu hai zeevan ke
badalte waqt ki taabir hi hai ;
woh jo lamhe rukhte nahin the unke saath,
saath waqt unke ab katta nahin ;
un baatoon ka aaina ,
jo hardam hasta tha bas;
un chehroo ke hoone se ,
dard ab ghatta nahin ab ;
bina seer-pair kee baithak ,
thahake bas khaali lafzoo pe;
dimaag se samjhte hai,
dil se ubharte nahin;
kyon sab bune kahani,
bas lagti "bakhwaas" se hai ;;
-Tushar

pal...kal

samay ko gale mat lagao
bada nagawar hai yeh
bulbula pani ka samjho isse
kabhie badta ,kabhi bahta
kabhi thahrta ,kabhi bahkta
par hamesha choot-tta
jo paas nahin woh kal hai
jo gujar gaya woh pal hai
aaj bhi kahin jee ke
soo jayega aagan main man ke
phir aayega kal ek aur pal ban ke
phir jayega pal ek aur kal ban ke
kuch nahin pakad payoge
tum bhi bas bahte jaoyge
kabhi ek pal main
kabhi bete kal main
saath na hoga kuch
zeevan hoga ek pul sa kuch
kal se pal tak
pal se kal tak
-Tushar

zindagi aur tum ...

Sooraj dhal raha hai sindoori rang se shaam ban ke
zindagi ban raha hai chehra tera kuch haans kuch muskura ke
shama rooshan hai phighalkar andhere mahka ke
raaste manzil hai saath chalkar tere haath thaam ke
dhalte badal hai boondh se bhini dharti se mil ke
sapne haqueqat hai teri palkoo se chal meri akhoon main baske ke
chandni humaari hai taaro ke jhoole jhul chand ke phelu se nikal ke
lafz dastaan hai tere laboo ke meri sooch ke
-Tushar

Baarish --- Mausam

sanware raang se raancha rasta mausam
dhoodhlata aur boondon se kaapta mausam
patto se bhigota hawa sa ithlata mausam
chatree se bachta sadak pe bheegta mausam
pakhudi pe tharta oos sa muskutata mausam
ghaas par ghirta ehsasoon ko jagata mausam
koyal ki kook aarmaan sa udhta mausam
bijle ke dahak laboo se lipat-tta mausam
badal ke sawan dharti pe jharnoon ka mausam
aanchal udata palkeein jhukata sharir mausam
takraati boondh gharmaati saansoon ka mausam
haath thaame humaare roomaani rahoon ka mausam
baarish hai aur ghazab unke saath ka mausam
-Tushar

On occasion of Rohit's wedding with "Mehak"....

Chale hoo saath too zindagi tumhaari hai
khaaboo khayaalo ki haqueeqat tumhari hai

chandni main nahate pal
bhoor se sajte kal
kangan ki chahak
payal si "mahak" tumhaari hai

sawan ki baarish
mausam ki saajish
choodi ki khanak
phoolo ki "mahak" tumhaari hai

humsafar mile hai to badti raahe tumhaari hai
khusiyoon se jhoomti kilkaari tumhaari hai

dharti aasmaan phoolo ke "mahak" tumhaari hai
hum hai aur humhaari saari duyaaien tumhaari hai
-Tushar

Leaving Gb-Team

Change is the only constant
Living with them is Present
Looking apprehensively at advent of future
Admiring the footsteps marked as past
Yesterday was an experience
Tomorrow is just reflections
Today is a bridge, A tunnel, a context
Whose QoS needs to be negotiated?
The flow of past
This routing area update is
Just a transfer to
Lossless High speed future
Some contacts to be reset
Some to be provisioned
Few names as critical to be kept
To be deleted
Meeting together may be suspended
But sitting will soon be resumed
World is a router
So packet will again collide
As IP address are there
Eye contact just blocked, not down dear
Smile is inevitable, a static memory
Moving with loving contexts
Dumping all the leaks behind
‘Am on a journey
Just changing cell, just TLLI’s
Not the IMSI

U all have entered in memory’s Rb-tree
Your search will be a return, GPRS_SUCCESS always
As some tunnels are not just created, but stays
Keeping Life’s Stack UP running with them
Always GREEN LIGHT ON
Always as FUN
-Tushar

woh hai to...

woh khooye aapne main hi bas rahte hai
humaare paas hoone ke ehsaas se bhi bekhabar rahte hai

hum aapni kya kahe

woh saath humaare nahin, aisa to hoota nahin
kabhie saamne baithe rahte hai
kabhie hum unke khaayaaloo main rahte hai

paloo main mahkte hai ,
ehsaaso koo bahkate hai
hum unke saath jeete hai
hum unhi pe marte hai
patoo ke saath lahraate hai
gulmohar humare ban jate hai
unhi ke saath chalte hai
zindagi woh humaari thamte hai
peele saarsoo se chahkte hai
basanti shaam se bahte hai
woh hai to aandhere jagmagate hai
woh nahin to taare humare saathi ban jaate hai

Woh hai to hum hai
humaari sooch, humaari haqueqat hai
humaari saanse, humaari aahe hai

wohi to hai jo humme

Ek roh se utha
Ek jaan bana jaate hai

woh saath humaare nahin, aisa to hoota nahin
kabhie saamne baithe rahte hai
kabhie hum unke khaayaaloo main rahte hai
-Tushar

chehre...

Zindagi ke chehre maut ke saath yoon robaroo hoonge
khawab humaare un chehroo se takra bas bhikhre hoonge
soocha na tha un mukhootoo ke bheed main yoon tanha hoonge
aapni laash par phele aansoo bhi roodaali ke hoonge
-Tushar

Kuch baatein ...

Humaari ashko ki nami ataa unki hai
samjhe aab unhe chaana khata humari hai

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Dard chubhta nahi duniya ke safed sawaloo se
sharmshaar hai unke likhe jawaboo ki shahayai se

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phighaltee nahi laboo par thahrti maayush hansi se
jalte hai beraang nazar ke darpan se

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aapni dastaan tanhaayioon ki zabaan sunate nahin
mausamoo main agar unki yaadoon ke sawan hoote nahin

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sawari hai zindagi doostoon ne hi kuch aise
begaanoo main bhi chehre aapnoo ke khiltee hoo jaise

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Thahr paate ye badte raastee manzil tak pahuchke
tham lete humme woh bas thoda badke bas thoda muskurake
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-Tushar

Lata ji

I had a collection of songs, a pack of 5 cassettes, for Lata ji.IN that there were lot many persons who said something abt Lataji after which the songs followed.Here is one of them
Smita patil
Didi ki main bhakt hoon, har waqt unki Awaaz sunti hoon to mere Rongte khade ho jate hain.Didi ko main un Logon mein se Manti hoon jinhone is Duniya mein bahut bade kam kiye hain. Jinki awaaz ne is duniya ke logon ko dukh ke Mauken per Shanti di hai. Didi ke samne bus yahi kah sakhti hoon ki jahan Devatv ki Prachti hoti hain Uske Samne sirf apne Haath judte hain.
The song which followed this was "Saware ke raan ranchi rana ji" , a bhajan by Meerabai...still in serach of this song again

NARGIS DUTT (actress):
Lata kisi tareef ki nahin, balki parastish ke kabil hain. Unki awaaz sunne ke baad kuch aisa aalam-tari ho jata hai jise bayaan karna bada mushkil hain. Yun samajhiye jaise koi dargah ya mandir main jaye, to vahan pahunch kar ibadat ke liye khud-ba-khud sar jhuk jaata hain aur aankhon se besakhta aasoon behne lagte hain.

NOORJEHAN (singer/actress):
Log kahte hain ki Lataji tumhe Itna Manti hain, Lataji tumhe Ustad samjhti hain, tumhe Pyar karti hain. Yeh sab Main samajhti hoon unka Badapan hain kyonki Lata to Lata hain. Lataji ki tarah meri nazar mein to koi aaj tak Paida nahin hua.,
Lataji ko Allah ne awaaz di hain, Ilm unhe unke Wallid Saab se mila, Khuda ki taraf se unpar Karam hain.

REKHA (actress)
Lata Mangeshkar ek Ehsaas hain jo Mehsoos kiya jata hain Baiyan nahi.Yeh ek Naam hain jisse Sun kar mere Man mein Sukoon aur Chehre par Muskurahat aa jati hain. To me she is etherial someone from another world, larger than life, no less than a Godess a 'Devi'.
This one Name evokes a million feelings inside me. I have cold feet, weak knees, a knot in my stomach, a smile on my lips & tears in my eyes. In other words I feel 'Alive' when I hear this name Lata Mangeshkar.

For Priyanka's Wedding site

Woh saath chale to zindagi humari hai
khawaish khwaboo ki haqueqat humari hai ...
-Tushar

Intezaar...

woh saath hai to waqt ki raftaar mano thamte nahin
woh pass nahin to pal mano jaise badte hi nahin
intezaar ke lamhoon main sapney hai haqueet nahin
ab zindagi khawahish ke khaboo main katte nahin
-Tushar

Aadat-2 ...

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
kabhi saaath jeene ki aadat thi
aaj khawaboo main milne ki aadat hai

Aadat bhi ajab hai
roop badal peeghalti-peeghlaati hai
kabhi haansti, kabhi roothti manati hai

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
kabhie saath kadam badane ki aadat thi
aaj un nisaanoo ko thaamne ki aadat hai

aadat bhi ghajab hai
laboo ke ghulab aakhoon ki nami hai
palkoon par khelti, roolati satati hai
kabhi yoon hi muskuraati hai

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
Kabhi har lamha tujhe paane aadat thi
aaj har pal tujhe khoone ki aadat hai

Aadat bhi aadat hai
kabhi banati kabhi bigadti hai
har saans se ban jaate hai meri
par yaad teri kahlati hai

aadat to aadat hai
dil ki dhakan main meri bajti hai
par dhun teri sunate hai
haathoon ki lakeroon main to sajti nahin
aur taqdeer meri kahlati hai

Aadat to aadat hai
aakhoon se chalakti hai meri
par tanhaayee teri ban jaati hai


Aadat to bas aadat hai
mujhe aadat ki aadat hai
aadat jo meri hai
aadat jo tujhe mera banate hai

aadat bas aadat hai
Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
-Tushar

aadat-1 ...

Kitne mere woh hai kareeb
ehsaas jaane se unke yeh eise hua
rukhsat hoote bheege lamhoon se bas itna kaha
"humme aapki AADAT se hoon gaye hai"
-Tushar

... hoon aaj

baandh kar aakhoon main aapna hi sapna
duniya se kuch parda kar raha hoon aaj
teri yaaad, tere gham teri aarzoo aur khudko
kahi tanhayioon main zee raha hoon aaj
un andheroo main jisme to aaj bhi meri hai
tere khatoon ko jala rooshan kar rah hoon aaj
-Tushar