खवाब...

baadloo se ubhartee gharondoo main,

aapna bhi kahin ek aashiyaan hoga;

dharti mahekegi sunhare rang main,

raat phighalte chaand ka saaya hoga;

-Tushar

life has so wondeful colors..

life has so wondeful colors..

a warmth of sun in winter
the shade of clouds in summer
snow capped mountain shining
orange leaves autumn lining
setting vermillion at ocean's end
golden glow spark in desert sand
soft cool breeze through leaves green
rain dreched road, a waterfall queen...

-Tushar

...मज़ा क्या है

सिली ज़िन्दगी उधरने भिखेरने में मज़ा क्या है ?
अपने ज़ख्म कुरेदने नोचने में मज़ा क्या है ?
दर्द अपने ही है, कुछ सूखे कुछ हरे भी
फिर भी देखो मुस्कान पालने में मज़ा क्या है ?
-तुषार

ज़िन्दगी ..धुप..छाव

ज़िन्दगी है अजब कुछ धुप-छाव

कभी खिलते रंग कभी धुलती शाम

पल पल बढते कदम कभी रुकते पाव

कभी सबके लिए कभी मेरे नाम

-कबीर

For a person who taught about life...

For a long association ( almost 5 years , taking concession for 15 days )..16th Nov 2008
...the parting words ...
may be a thank you note ...
may be just words ...
may be the feelings ....
May be I wish tears had color
May be that shade can get here ....
But they say tears have no shade...
May be might be ... (narayan's favourite dialogue)
but good time never fade ....
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एक मलमल उन्मुक्त सी प्यारी हंसी
सिखा गई रिश्ते ज़िन्दगी-ऐ-गम और खुशी

मुश्किल नहीं दर्द को, मेरे मुन्ना , सहना
हो अगर साथ मुस्कराहट का गहना
कुछ न कहकर बस उनके लिए वो करना
एक रिश्ता बेनाम सा बन यूँ बुनना

नाम नहीं शक्ल नहीं अंदाज़ नहीं जिसका
वक्त के हर मोड़ पर बस रूप बदलता उसका
कभी दोस्त कभी भाई कभी दीप बस मनका
एक तासुवर एक तबुस्सुम बस बीते दिनों का

ज़िन्दगी के पन्नो पर छप जाते है कुछ ऐसे
कुछ आईने बस यादों की तस्वीर जैसे
खुशी गम के कई रंग भरे है ऐसे
धुन्धालायेगा वक्त अब इन्हे कैसे

एक मलमल उन्मुक्त सी प्यारी हंसी
सिखा गई रिश्ते ज़िन्दगी-ऐ-गम और खुशी **********************************************************************
-मुन्ना

Home grown Or Own grown

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For 2 years I worked to be accepted,
Now I am asked to leave but not rejected,
No credit no love no reward, life is coiled
What I take from here is just plain void.

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I tried to live but failed,
No steps even the favorite music railed
No connection sparked, fun spoiled,
Seems the child, THE me is now forever jailed…

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Sitting outside the house waiting for keys,
I see my life as wait for dreams;
A want to be known, a wait for promotion;
A wish for appreciation, a wait for their passion;
A desire to spend, a wait to earn;
A look for the gone company, a wait for someone;
A hunger to smile, a wait for it to happen...
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-Tushar
(most people who know the reference will know what is this all about)

“Aapke paas mere liye time nahin ab” ...

Unse kehna to bahoot hai humme
Par waqt yuhi gujarta jaata hai
Nainoo ki woh sunte nahin ab
Zubaan se hum kahte nahin ab

Milte subah sham roz hai hum
Call bhi kam ke liye karte hai
Agar kuch kahe to kehte hai ab
“Aapke paas mere liye time nahin ab”
-Tushar

होता ...

तुझे भुलाना इतना मुश्किल तो न होता

अगर साथ दिल और ज़माना कुछ ऐसे देता

ना तेरे नाम से मेरा ज़िक्र उभरता

ना मेरे ज़िक्र से यू तू पशेमान होता

-तुषार

shaqhshiyat...

Meri is shaqhshiyat se roboroo nahin duniya
To hai dil main ya nahin janti nahin duniya
Par hum bhi to is kal bad chuke hai shayad aage
Tere bina bhi ab apni lagne lagi hai duniya

-Tushar

yuhi

Ek zarra-e-gam jee liya yuhi
Laboo pe gam see liya yuhi
Kadam bade kabhi ruke yuhi
Zindagi buni udheri humne yuhi

-Tushar

what is death?

What is death, who can tell
What is life, a mystery unsaid
Why desire moksha,
When I can do good to all here
Self-content, but true unpaid.

-Tushar

Is it worth ?

Is it worth ?
I don’t know…
I just care,
love it
and its my life’s share

Is it worth ?
I don’t know…
I just believe,
smile,
it gives me relief

Is it worth ?
I don’t know…
For me it’s the spark,
with drop (tear); Into the light
far from the dark

If I don’t care,
I don’t believe,
No drop no spark
I know then,
It isn’t worth it !!

-Tushar

Why can’t I live a silent life ?...

Why can’t I live a silent life ?
Soothed by moonlight
Awakened by sun bright
A walk by the river side
A nap in farm so wide
A chat with calm green
A meet at solace shrine
The shade of setting sun
Holding hands with love and fun
A life, may be with unknown
Not with just colleagues
But with faces and brotherhood grown
With the sitting laziness
Just simple smile no haziness
Why can’t I live there again
Away from the city hustle-bustle
Into my dreams
At a place which was mine
Is just far but still it shine

Why can’t I live a silent life ?...

-Tushar

ek indradhanush hai zindagi...

ek indradhanush hai zindagi
kuch boondein hai kuch rooshni
ek ajnabi ehsaas hai, kuch ankahi aas hai
saat raangoon ka saath hai...
-Tushar

...me...???

I want to write but my mind not with me
My soul has left me long back, life no longer trust me
Why I lie awake in dark searching for me ?
Why I can’t be normal and still be me ?

-Tushar

dreams...

I was walking on the street,
lost like a dried yellow leaf;
suddenly the wind was blowing,
taking the leaf as free flowing;
telling me that I can also fly,
to reach for the dreams left shy;
the one that I now only keep,
for some dreams when I sleep.

-Tushar

Hey man! when you walk...

Hey man! when you walk,
On mysterious life lane...

Keep your eyes open to see
colors and beauty of nature for free

Move with listening to musical sound
Ears open, natural ochestra around

Feel the fragrance of free flowing wind
Relax and chill as aroma just unwind

Move the lips for the smile and say some hi!
Make some new friends bid some goodbyes

Sit close to them when sad as sand
Get the warmth of the loving sweet hand

Hey man when you walk,
On mysterious life lane,
Just do this and talk,
Of love and life's pure gain.
-Tushar

...A person, whom I call my SISTER

The shadow of a friend’s fare,
The smile of utter care,
Partner in umpteen pillow fights,
Holding hands in childhood sights,
Argues for small chocolates store,
Making room to live from the chore,
My life secret book’s reader,
An all time pain healer,
That’s a reflection of my mother,
A person, whom I call my SISTER.

-Tushar

All is there but dark...

All is there but dark,
The life as the night;
No smile no little spark,
Stars lost with the light;

I have no one but not alone,
no love no inner struggling war;
no desires no smiling clone,
emptiness till the ended far;

afraid of the crawling me,
want to fly , no wings to be free;
frightened for new and to see,
the future , a failure to be;

All is there but dark,
The life as the night;
No smile no little spark,
Stars lost with the light;
-Tushar

the sky is not dark ...

the sky is not dark
not even in the night
this is the city you see
glowing with neon light
the stars are faded or gone
artificiality glowing bright
there is no sleep no dreams
drums and beats sounds right
no flowing leaves with wind
finding inner self fight
what we seek what we hope
just words may be or might
so much speed on highway
like life will end only tonight
vodka beer rum and whisky
all taken for the lost delight
days are sleepy, night is lost
life in fright, no peace in sight
the sky is not dark
not even in the night

-Tushar

...kuch yun hoti

Tum agar saath hote to baat kuch yun hoti
Jahan rangeen fiza bahar kuch yun hoti
(fiza : environment )

Dard-e-daman lahrayega to gazab hoga
Kabhi teri kabhie zamane ki inayat yun hoti

sham-e-zindagi ke sahil pe bas yun baitha hoga
Justuzu teri hijra-e-hiwda main kaid yun hoti
(Sham-e-zindagi : evening of life , sahil : shore ,Justuzu: desires , hijra-e-hiwda: heart with pain of separation )

Kabhie saath dostoon ka ronake mehfil hoga
Kabr par kuch duyaan saath bas yun hoti

Tum agar saath hote to baath kuch yun hoti
Jahan rangeen fiza bahar kuch yun hoti
-Tushar

For Goku...

This for Goku (my junior nephew, born on 24th Aug 2008, On janamasthmi , day celebrated as birth of Lord Krishna. For reference in context for this, Adee is Goku's elder brother)
These lines are based on famous folk song from Rajasthan, kesariya balma padharoo mhare desh ...
My love for Adee and Goku ...
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Kesariya Kanha padharoo mhare desh …

Sundar kaya komal maan paayoo Adee sa bhesh
…padharoo mhare desh
Maiya aanokkee daoo Adee, ladaloo aisa yeh parivesh
…padharoo mhare desh
Choota Goku bhaiya Adee pyaroo yeh sandesh
…padharoo mhare desh
Sang khelenge sang jhoomege adee-goku, desh ya videsh
…padharoo mhare desh
Pyaari muskaan layo sang, bholo sab jagat dwesh
…padharoo mhare desh
Kesariya Kanha padharoo mhare desh …
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-Tushar

vidaai...

Kuch dard hai tumhaare jaane se
Kuch haans rahe hai moti aakhon main
Dua ubharti hai har saans har pal se
Payo khusi zindagi ki har rah main
Waqt bahoot pyara bita hai tumse
Paya hai ek naya pariwar tum main

Kuch yaad ki tasveer saath le jate hoon
Ek pyaar ka bandhan baadhe jate hoon
Pal chootte hai kahke phir milta hoon
Arre oh ! yaar tumse kab bichadta hoon

-Tushar

khushi...?

dekhta hooon duniya main itne sadhu-saache hai log,
phir kyon aapne dard ko unki haansi main khoo nahin pata
kyon nahin khilta, kyon jaate nahin jalan ka yeh rog
har phool to khil raha hai bas ek indradhanush nahin bana pata
-Kabir

Khawab bhi yun hai haqueqat...

Version:2
Khawab bhi yun hai haqueqat
Tum bhi aur haseen saath bhi

Woh mehfil badi hai roonak
Jaam bhi saath madhoosi bhi


Woh shaam roomani tanha hai
Jaagti raat bhi lagti badi pyaari bhi

Woh khamoshi kuch hai kehti
Zulf khuli bhi simti baahen bhi

Lab surkh hai sahme sahme
Paas tu bhi , teri tishnagi bhi
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Version:1
Khawab bhi haqueqat hai
Tum hoon haseen saath hai

Woh mehfil bhi roonak hai
Jaam hai saath madhoosi hai

Woh shaam bhi roomani hai
Jaagti raat badi pyaari hai

Woh khamoshi bhi bolti hai
Zulf khuli simti baahen hai

Woh lab bhi sahme hai
Paas tu, teri tishnagi hai
-Tushar

Soocho Soocho...

Soocho soocho
Sooch ke dekho
Sapnoo ke shahar
Main ghar ko dekho
Neela hi gagan
Aapni hi dharti
Par udta
Bawre man ko dekho

Soocho soocho
Sooch ke dekho
Aapne liye bhi
Sawan hai barso
Khusi aayi
Saja ke rakho
Khilkhila ke
Bas hasdo
-Tushar

Unique

People always say that, " I am unique".
I know they just politely mean, 'we don't really understand you'.
Who cares ?
I too myself find uniqueness all around all the time.
-Tushar

I want to...

I am tired of my body
tired of my soul
I want to sleep
but no dreams of yours

I am tired of the talks
tired of the walks
I want to hold
but no thought of yours

I am tired of me
tired of the world
I want to love, all mine
but no condition of yours
-Tushar

tere liye

Tu khush hai wahan jahan hai tu,
Isse kuch to hota hai dil ka dard kam;
Kya yaad utna nahin aata mujhe ab tu,
Ya tere liye tujhe hi bhula baithe hum;
-Tushar

Is it so wrong...

Is it so wrong to feel,
Is it so bad to weep,
To say with water,
how broken you are,
To express how happy you were,
To just say how lonely you will be,
I don't want to hold past back,
but give me time to say final good-bye,
just little time to say this bye,
embraced in our smile...
-Tushar

Kuch khayal...

Aangdaaye le subhah ne yohi bas,
khawab ka parda hata haqueqat ka aaina dekh liya;
paya apna hi chehra phir aaj ek nayi jung ki tayari karta hua.
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Woh ja rahe hai nayi zindagi ke raaste,
kaash mud kar humse bhi pooche,
arre yaar tum bhi saath chalo...
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Tere jaane ko kaise kah do jaana
Tere na hone ko kaise kah do bhichadna
Tu nahin to kya hua
Teri in yaadoon ko bhala hum se kaun cheen payega
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-Tushar

प्यार की जुबां

कोई मुझे बताये प्यार की जुबां क्या है ?
जो ग़ालिब ने कहा या मिहिर ने लिखा
मुझ नादाँ शायर के लिए तो बस
मेरे यार के साथ की खामोशी ही कातिल है
-तुषार

एक रिश्ता था जो ...

एक रिश्ता था जो
पीछे छूटा है वो
कहाँ गई मंजीलें
खो गए रास्ते

एक सपना था जो
बुना मिलके था वो
छूटी बाहों की गली
मिली न कोई कलि

एक कहानी थी जो
चाहत से बुनी थी वो
लफ्ज़ का चेहरा नहीं
वादें खो गए यहीं

एक साथ था जो
हाथ थामता था वो
बाहें पास बुलाती है
अकेले अब घबराटी है

एक खुशी थी जो
पल पल हसाती थी वो
जागती रात है अब
सूने दिन है अब
-तुषार

From Son to Mother

You laugh with my laughter
You cry with my tear
You wait for my arrival
You sink with my fear
You walk with my steps
You feel the pain I bear
You sleep with my tiredness
You wake with my dreams so clear
You know the hunger of my stomach
You are satiated as I eat pear
You long for me when far
You are rejoiced when I come near
You hold me with your warmth
You always embrace, saying worries not for you dear
You are the soul I am the body
You are my MOTHER, I your son here
-Tushar

Intezaar...

kya khatam hoga yeh intezaar
tere aane ke baad?
phir aayega yeh hi intezaar
tere jaane ke baad!
kya jee payege phir is intezaar
ke saath...
tere chale jaane ke baad
tere hi intezaar ke saath
-Tushar

you sleep to be alone

To be lone in crowd of faces known,
to smile with tears heart sinking down,
To gather the broken you,
To crave that you are wanted,
before you sleep to be alone... (forever)
-Tushar

kuch pal tere saath aur bita lo to soocho

kuch pal tere saath aur bita lo to soocho
kal beechedge, aaj yahi beetha lo to soocho

tere sirhane ki malmal se haansi payi hai
baandh hootoon ki daastan bana lo to soocho

tere saath waqt hawa sa chalta hai
udti fiza ko apna bana lo to soocho

garm saansein ab bhi hai darmiyaan
sard aahoon ke dayre bana lo to sooscho

kuch pal tere saath aur bita lo to soocho
kal beechedge, aaj yahi beetha lo to soocho
-Tushar

for my sister...

A bond that just makes you think
Can there be love just without desire
Eyes speak about care with every wink
All I know we will always be there
To clap for all our achievements
To get smile when your eyes drop
May be we move distant physical apart
But this heart will be together
This immaculate, eternal, undemanding
Giving, caring, and sharing;
Defines a relation ALL ABOVE ALL
A root of un-selfish LOVE
A fact that we are
BROTHER and SISTER…
-Tushar

rook lo is chaand ke safar ko...

rook lo is chaand ke safar ko
baandh ke simtee saansoo main
ek nagma bana lo in lamhoo ko
tham jaye raat tere aagosh main
-Tushar

main tum aur tanhayee ka saath...

main tum aur tanhayee ka saath
khamosh chandni sulgate zazbaat
surkh hooth yeh gulab si baat
madhosh hum aur phighalte yeh raat
-Tushar

क्यों हुआ कब हुआ क्या ख़बर...

क्यों हुआ कब हुआ क्या ख़बर,
आखं खुली तू नहीं हम बेखबर,
सोचा उस ने कुछ भी नहीं मगर,
रह गए तनहा हुयी न सहर;

क्यों अचानक यह ख़बर आई,
गए तुम रह गया दिल दर्द तन्हाई,
एक खालीपन दूजा गम गहराई,
कैसे छूटे प्यार की परछाई;

तुम मुस्कुराते हो नयी जिन्दगीं में,
बैठे हम फिर भी झूटी आस में,
तोड़ गए सारे रिश्ते यूँ झटके में,
उलझे हम बिखरे वादों में;

एक फूल मेरे आगन का,
ले गया कोई सपना आखों का,
बैठी आखे हश्र दिल के चाहत का,
काला आकाश बिन तारओ का;
-तुषार

woh is baar chale gaye aise kahi...

woh is baar chale gaye aise kahi,
chotta peeche intezaar bhi nahin;
dil ko phir bhi yeh sabr hi sahi,
shayad mil jaye yuhi kabhie kahi;

din ka saath raat ka milna,
jaagti raat ab chaand ka jalna;
din khali hai aakh ka gahna,
moti se yaadoo ka bun-na;

bhara hai kamra beta samaan,
har deewar tasveero ka karvan;
haste chehre palkon ke darmiyaan,
soona ghar chala gaya dil ka mehmaan;

-Tushar

Shweta-Narayan wedding invitaion

Two lives and a story
Two names, a journey to glory
Two voices and a song
Two bodies, a lovely mate
Two destinies, a crowning fate
Two souls for the promise

By the blessing of the THOU, the time has come,
that we mark a bond of eternity
In the shower of glowing stars
With the blessing of ones and dear

Grace us with your presence as we,
Shweta and Narayan,
Start a new beginning of a life
Tying a knot for ageless time

-Tushar

First wish to Shweta-Narayan

Narayan ke kal-kal jal main,
khili jeevan moti sa Shweta;
bandhan atoot sapne anoop,
kehte dev, jag, phool har patta;

Narayan ghar aagan aayi main,
abhivadan chandni se karta;
man bhooje naye jeevan paheli,
apne saathi sang komal Shweta;

Meaning of
Narayan : abode of beings, flowing water of eternity
Shweta: White
-Tushar