what if ...

हर सपने का आगाज़ है एक ‘अगर’,
‘अगर’ यह हो तो बस होगा क्या ?
पर उसी का अंत होता है एक ‘मगर’,
मगर उन सपनो से ज़िन्दगी चलती है क्या ?

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Every dream starts with “what if”
“what if “ it gets a form of being real
And then it concludes into being real
A reality that leaves only the “what if “ …
-Tushar

अगर...मगर...

जिंदगी ‘अगर’ में जी लेते तो सही,
जहाँ में ‘मगर ’ होगे बहूत ;
वो साथ तो होगे हर वक्त,
तनहा पल फिर भी होगे बहूत;

कहीं कोहरे को बदल समझ बैठे,
बहना चाहते थे साथ हम भी ‘मगर’;
छट गई धुंध और खड़े रह गए दरख्त,
सालो से जैसे किसी का इंतज़ार हो बहूत ;

जिंदगी खड़ी थी उस मोड़ पर वहां,
रास्ता सीधा पहूचता था ‘मगर’,
एक काफिर ने राह यूँ मोड़ दी है कि ,
मंजिल नज़र से दूर हुई है बहूत;

अपने होने का सबब पूछ बैठा आंसू,
कह न पाए हम उस लगी को ‘मगर’,
बहा है अपने ही लहू से वो भी,
दर्द भी है, और खुशी भी बहूत;
-तुषार

हमसफ़र...

वक्त हंसा , और देखो हम भी ...
वक्त ठहरा , और यारो हम भी ...
चला जो वक्त , तो मगन हम भी ...
ज़िन्दगी का सफर और कई मोड़ भी ...
कदम और वक्त एक हमसफ़र भी ...
-तुषार

रात...

कुछ अज़ब फैलाव है ,
कुछ अज़ब सा ठहराव,
कुछ रुकी खामोशी,
कुछ बस बहता अँधेरा ;

कुछ ऐसा है रात का आगोश ,
जैसे बस कोई ख्याल हों फैला ,
हर कुछ जैसे बस खो सा गया है ,
बस एक रंग में सर्द राख सा बना ;

इसी ठहराव में चलता है कोई,
इसी खामोशी में होती है कुछ बातें ,
इसी अंधेरे से मिलता है वो उजाला ,
जहाँ मिलता हूँ मैं
मुझसे
मेरे सपनो में...

-तुषार

पलछिन

ज़िन्दगी आइना है रूह का मेरी ,
सवारते रहते है लिबास कई ;
अनजान कोई हर सुबह मिलता है !

वो सडको पे बरसता है ,
रात में थके साए कई ;
चाँद तो दिन मैं सोता है !

कहीं कोई रुक गया है झरना ,
मोती फिर भी मिलते है वही ;
क्या कोई हार टूटा है !

किताब की धूल झाड़ दी हमने ,
नए फूल गुलदस्ते में सही;
क्या यादो को कबाडी लेता है !

रात में तनहा नहीं, दिन में है ,
कहो मिजाज़ यह क्या कहता है ;
रोशन तारे है , पर टिमटिमाते ही है !
-तुषार

याद..

कुछ भी तो याद नहीं
ना बीते पल, ना गुजरे लम्हे
क्या यादो को बक्से में बंद कर दिया है
या कुछ यादगार था ही नहीं ...
-तुषार

...दो

अगर खवाब है तो खवाब ही रहने दो,
जितनी मिलती है ज़िन्दगी, उससे मुझे मिलने दो ।

जाग कर भी अगर ना मिल सको तुमसे ,
मुझे मेरे फरिस्ते फिर बस सोने दो ।

रेत का एक ज़ज्बात है खड़ा साहिल पर ,
लहरों में डूब उसे भी मोती बनने दो ।

एक चाँद ने अकेले कई रात यू काटी है ,
अब तो 'कबिर' उसे भी एक सितारा होने दो ।

चला है साथ ज़माने से ज़माने तक,
शाम के संग उसे यूँ बेबाक आजाद मत होने दो ।

... Tired...

I am afraid of people, yet tired being alone,
Can’t see anything coming, forgotten all gone;
My mind is not awake, my body doesn’t sleep,
Tired of promises that I had and have to keep;
I work for days and days to reach there,
But the map seems to be left somewhere;
I am tired of being alive as fellow dead,
One who missed all to earn daily his bread;
I am tired of the love and hate by all,
Which is always lost to tears at nightfall … -Tushar

...देता हूँ

एक धुन्धलाये अक्स सा मुस्कुरा देता हूँ,
सब के लिए ख़ुद को भूला देता हूँ;

ज़र्रे-ज़र्रे बूटे में ढूँढा किए दिल,
तुझे अपने नाम की वजह देता हूँ;

वो भागते भूल गए चाँद से मिलना,
ए मुसाफिर तुझे तारो के रात देता हूँ;

मिल गए कभी जुदा हुए ए 'कबीर'
सपनो की कुछ ऐसे सच्चाई देता हूँ;

गिला नहीं, ढूँढा नहीं तुझे ए खुदा,
मालिक तुझे माँ का नाम देता हूँ;

राहगीर चलते गए, तलाश में कोई,
तुझे तेरा सा रहगुज़र देता हूँ;
-तुषार

I will fight destiny’s odds...

I have counted each precious drop
Of rain on my window-step
I will fight destiny’s odds
untill sunshine smiles at my doorstep

I have woken through past nights
Eager to embrace, as a friend, the day
I will fight destiny’s odds
Till moonlight and love are my pay

I have walked under sunny ways
Watched the grass turn to hay
I will fight the destiny’s odds
Till I get the promised pastures and sun-kissed bays

I have woven dreams in the clouds
Watched the white vows turn grey
I will fight destiny’s odds
Till life-perfect I have, I would say

-Tushar, edited by Nilanjan

ज़िन्दगी ...?

वो दर्द ही तो है, बस कहीं कहा तो नहीं ,
वो बहा नहीं, तो क्या उसका कोई नाम नहीं ?
वो लकीरें है हाथो में और कुछ भी तो नहीं ,
वो जिन्दगी, कहीं मौत का एक अंदाज़ तो नहीं ?
-कबीर

...खुशी...गम...

वो खुशी तेरी थी, तेरी हुई, चली गई,
वो अशक मेरे थे, बहे फिर ठहर गए;
अब क्यों खुशी को बुलाये जो हुई पराई?
क्यों गम को सताए जो है बस हमसाये ?
-तुषार

...गम...दिल ...

तू गया, तेरा गम भी एक दिन यूँ चला जाएगा,
कोई कहाँ रुका है जो यह मौसम ठहर जाएगा
वो बरसा तो दिल भी कहीं गीला भीगा हो जाएगा
वो सूख गया तो दिल भी बस पत्थर हो जाएगा .

-तुषार

ये रात अकेली लगती है ...

ये रात अकेली लगती है ,
वो चाँद तन्हा जगता है ;

न कोई अपना मिलता है ,
न कोई पराया दीखता है ;

वो दिन मैं चेहरे लड़ते है ,
और रात में डर सा लगता है ;

वो कहीं बिछडा जाता है ,
यह हाथ खाली रहता है ;

वो ऊचे मकान में जीता है ,
कहीं घर खाली बैठा है ;

यह आसमान को छुता है ,
बस तारो से बातें करता है ;

वो सर्द ईमारत में हँसता है ,
मौसम से अछुता रहता है ;

वोह दिनभर भागता रहता है ,
और बस इंतज़ार में जीता है ;

वो रोज़ कुछ पाता है ,
और ख़ुद खोता लगता है ;

कहाँ अब ख़ुद से मिलता है ,
कहाँ ख़ुद को जानता है ;

कुछ अधूरे सपनो को रोता है ,
और ज़िन्दगी से शिकायत करता है ;

ये रात अकेली लगती है ,
वो चाँद तन्हा जगता है ;
-तुषार

अन्त ...शुरुवात...

हर अन्त किसी शुरुवात से ही उपजा है,
वही शुरुवात जो उस अन्त के लिए जन्मी थी ...

Every end is a conclusion of a new start,
The start which commenced for that very end…

-Tushar

night & friend ...

I have befriended moon and stars,
Talking of love and daily little wars;
They are so far yet seen and felt so near,
They always listen with smile so clear;
With night they come, with me have a stay
Till I find my dreams, through goodnight way…

-Tushar

Light...

I can see the dark tree, through the door, lit by moon;
But I fail to see the thought inside my heart’s room,
Waiting for love’s light to enter and fill this room,
So my soul also will be the tree from other’s room;
Away from shadows, into the peace rain …
For light and love, for innocence to retain … -Tushar

...Sleepless..

Sleepless in room, but not at home
I walk under the starry sky, woken and lone;
Hope the night was dark, off were lights on the lane;
In dreams I was, for the reason that night came;
-Tushar

...पता ही नहीं

क्यों दिल को आज कोई एहसास ही नहीं,
न गम न खुशी कुछ भी जैसे साथ नहीं,
फिर भी क्यों अकेले बैठे यू ही कहीं,
मुस्कुराती कभी नम है आखें , पता ही नहीं ...
-तुषार

...पता ...

यू बरबस किसी ने पूछ लिया, "कहाँ रहते हूँ इस ज़माने में" ?
"दिल में रह न सके किसी के", कहाँ हमने ," बस सोते है मकानों में" ।
-तुषार

...acceptance...

Sitting for dinner with all faces unknown,
I am calm waiting for food to be shown,
has the known world strangely grown,
OR this strange world now is accepted as own.
-Tushar
PS: feeling while I was getting used to have dinner alone, post 232 .

...रिश्ता...

वो अल्फाज़ नहीं जो दिल से उतर जाए,
वो खामोशी नहीं जो दिल मैं बस जाए,
रिश्ता है वही, जो नम नज़र यूँ जान जाए,
गम है जो हसाए, या खुसी ही बस यूँ रुला जाए ।

-तुषार

पीला चाँद ...

वो चाँद दूर देखो सिन्दूरी रंग से,

कल-कल से उड़ चला, मिला आसमान के मन से;

कुछ पीले, कुछ नीले और बस एहसासों से,

कुछ मेरा खवाब है जैसे रंगा तेरे संग से ।

-तुषार

...जाएगा...

बादल बरसा तो , एहसास बदल जाएगा,
सूखी धरती पे फिर फूल खिल जाएगा ।

गम के दाग तो देख चलते सूख जायेगे ,
उसका नाम भी क्या दिल से भूल जाएगा।

वो रुके ठहरे और कहीं सो जाए , ऐ 'कबीर',
तू आया है तो बस तू चलता ही जाएगा ।

तू मांगे न मांगे , सोचे न सोचे, वो दुआ,
देख 'खुदा' काटो के साथ फूल भी दे जाएगा ।

दिल तेरा ज़िन्दगी की एक सराय ही तो है ,
नामो से भरेगा और फिर तनहा रह जाएगा ।
-तुषार

...पर...

वो ढलक गया अपने एक एहसास सा ,
न मेरा रहा, न ही हो सका पराया सा ,
पर जाना अब बादल क्यों बरसता है,
पर क्यों नहीं ये बादल ठहराता है ?

वो पत्ती सूख गई गुलदस्ते मैं,
वो ख़ुद न रहा, रहा बस कमरों मैं,
पर क्या कोई ऐसे ज़मीन से बिछडा है ?
पर क्या कुछ कही माँ से छूटा है ?

वो सपना आखों मैं ही रहा तो क्या ?
वो तस्वीर को तस्सुवर न मिला तो क्या ?
पर ज़िन्दगी की उससे एक चाह तो है ,
पर उससे मिलने, पाने ही राह तो है ।

वो रिश्ता तो है पर कुछ बदला सा है ,
वो मुस्कुरा के कुछ मचला तो है ,
पर चाह से पाना ही तो बस नहीं जीवन है ,
पर माना बदले रंगों मैं भी ज़िन्दगी होती है ।
-तुषार

...तेरे प्यार का ही तो है

वो रात सौंधी भीगी है,
वो चाँद हल्का पीला है ।
वो तेरी जुल्फ ही तो है ,
वो तेरा चेहरे का रूप ही तो है ।

वो हवा भीनी छू जाती है ,
वो बदली श्याम सी हो जाती है ।
वो तेरी हया सी हँसी ही तो है ,
वो तू शर्म से सिमटी सी तो है ।

वो पत्ती सुर्खसी मोतीहै ,
वो कोयल कुहुक जाती है ।
वो तेरे लबो की चोरी ही तो है ,
वो तेरी धड़कन की बोली ही तो है ।

वो रास्ता ढाका छाव सा है ,
वो मौसम प्यारा गाँव सा है ।
वो सफर तेरे साथ का ही तो है ,
वो घर तेरे प्यार का ही तो है ।
-तुषार

I am hungry...

I am hungry, for the mom’s food,
At times left in tantrums being rude;

I want to be woken up in morning by my father,
Wanting two more minutes, than waking up rather;

I miss the bus stop and the bus to school,
Which was skipped,to prove I am a dude cool;

I want to steal chocolates from my sister cupboard,
A lot I have, but no one to share them on board;

I wish to draw the bicycle ride along the railway line,
Just be free like growing years moving like beeline;

I yearn for those class tests which gave me shiver,
Having those goose-bumps and that naughty fever;

I long for intrusion in late eve game, the calling tone,
Which I now hear with same warmth over the phone;

I wish, I want; I yearn and long for the life gone,
When I wished to be here and now wish for gone;

I see ‘Adee’ doing some what I did and doing all this one day,
Moving ahead and growing, smiling and missing gone someday...

-Tushar
PS: Adee is my elder nephew

Those twenty minutes...

Those twenty minutes I remember,
When we held hand like feather;
In the unusual rain in September,
Cold outside, inside feeling warmer;

Those twenty minutes just now appear,
When I on your shoulders drop my tear;
The hug was tight and silence so clear,
All pain vanished you held so near;

Those twenty minutes of smiling fight,
When we argued not to be ‘us’ tonight;
And we laughed, said bye in moonlight,
I still feel that tender kiss of goodnight;

Those twenty minutes made my life way,
Threading all now from the past as I say;
Breeze blew my hair as memories spray,
The wait of those twenty minutes heyday;

Those twenty minutes, want to live more,
For the golden of my life gone, mine yore;
A selfish desire for your little eye-score,
Breathe “those twenty minutes”, out to life’s door

-Tushar

desire to move out ( this is not apt title but...)

The only face I see at room is mine,
When I reach mirror lost its shine;
Sometimes I feel to break solitude & talk,
Mark step on road with love as I walk;
Not with the loneliness and the only star,
But with warmth near, never to again go far…

-Tushar

The Caring Husband...

She left a life for a mystical different one,
For him, her husband, the very someone;

To support him as family for a house to home to shine,
What he can only think is car, sensex and sparkling wine;

My friends and family is all left behind, I unwind,
I share and say all; he does not utter his mind.

All shopping, household work goes off in complain catch,
“You clean too much”, says he, “I miss my Sunday match”;

I wait all long, for the evening, for him, for us to be,
He comes, a cup of tea and newspaper, is all he see;

She is thinking; want to say so much again,
About the life, choice, all small-big gain;

Smiles she, on buzz of phone, takes in hand,
“I will be late”, answers he,like a “caring husband”.
-Tushar

The loving wife...

He thought he will fill & complete his life,
So he got married with now his wife;

He thought they will walk hand-in-hand,
Now are shopping bags in “in-hand”;

He thought he will dream n sleep in peace,
“I will leave if you ...” left is the only menace;

Room was his abode, his kingdom for years,
Have new cleanliness rules, daily new fears;

“You don’t care, you don’t listen, I have done so much...”,
He is blank cannot get where he has lost so called touch;

He is sitting, telling me all like an old friend,
I said, “Dear there is a long said and followed trend…

Baby! Don’t be a greedy; you can either have a life
Or what is that you have now, a “loving wife “;

We all make out of a given choice,
You did and now you have no voice “;
-Tushar

last hug...

I always wish for that last final hug;
thinking to hold you back never to let go;
you come with your love, warmth and the hug;
Leaving again the pain and the want, when you go;.
-Tushar

life in city

I am trapped inside brick wall,
can't see moon, no stars at all,
I have it, they say, house, account, job, car after all;
but I want a home with mom warmth family love just standing tall;
-Tushar

rain aftereffect...

The cool breeze enters the door,
Touching my soul and something more;
Tough still the clouds, vision seems warming,
With wet scent I smell life coming.

-Tushar

good morning...

The slow moving air;
With her scent and charming flair;
The chirping sunshine, the greyish hills;
The start for me of days' lovely affair...

-Tushar

dream...monnlight...

By looking at the moon far away by mile;
I always get, my friend, this wonderful smile;
Like a distant dream, real yet fragile;
What if I can’t have it?
Just stand in moonlight showers for a while ….
I feel I have some of the dream
Not for daylight, but for silky white peace worthwhile...

-Tushar

तब...अब

उसके एक नज़र के दीदार के लिए
गली में आज भी जाते तो है
तब फूलो के चेहरे थे जिए
अब आंसू समेटे आते है
-कबीर

The..

I had my share of the
Its time to let the go
For the freedom of smile
For the reason called joy

The was for me
Its time to let the go
The will be with me
Its time to let the grow

The was greener than green
Its time to let the go
For the woods have season
Yellow, orange, brown and heaven

There is sapling in the ground
Its time to let the go
From the nourish of together past
For the future majestically not shown

I had my share of the
Its time to let the go
For the freedom of smile
For the reason called joy
-Tushar

...है हम

यहाँ से जाते रोते है हँसते भी है हम
अंजान बेखबर क्या पाया क्या खोते है हम

हर रिश्ता कुछ एहसासों का सिला ही तो है
कुछ लिखते कुछ मिटाते रहे है हम

वो आए मेरे यार फिर दर से विदा हुऐ भी
हर आहट से मिले, हर कदम से बिछडे है हम

हर एक रूप उसका बस इबादत है मेरी
कभी दूंढे कभी निहारते रहे है हम
-तुषार

Love for food...

Ever thought why so popular is mayonnaise burger?
arre yaar its to eat, rhymes so well with my hunger.

what is it which calls all us for the cheesy pizza ?
bhaiya its the sense, khao garam aur zindagi jeeza.

ab kyon jaate hoon for HOT CHOCOLATE FUDGE?
its for the , forbidden but like little Adam’s urge.

here is secret of my passion for Raj Khachodi,
miya pandit hoon main, nahin koi tapori.

plate pe plate aati jaati lazeez paav-bhaaji
For every buttery bite tongue says hanji-wawji

Now comes king of list, the Chole bhature,
Because no sharing here, its for me poore poore.
-Tushar

do rah ki bas zindagi si...

do rah ki bas zindagi si
kahin ruthi kahin manati si
kahin bheegi kahin hasti si
kahin dhadkan kahin khamoshi si
kahin mele kahin tanhahi si
kahin firaq kahin husn si
kahin gulab kahin chubhan si
-Chakresh & Tushar

...जीता है

यहाँ फिर लौटते अजब पशेमान है,
अपने यार कहाँ, बेगाने नाम सुनता है;

कुछ पत्ते भीगे कुछ मौसम पीला है,
वही जानी गलियाँ , बदला मकान लगता है;

'कबीर' शायद अभी बीत नहीं पाया है,
हर कोई बस दुनिया-ऐ-दस्तूर जीता है;

दिल मैं बहते सालो के लम्हे है,
आखों मैं अलग बस मंज़र दीखता है;

-तुषार

मोड़..

१
उस मोड़ पे मिले, इस मोड़ तक चले हमदम
ज़िन्दगी पा ली तेरे साथ से हर कदम !

२
उस मोड़ पे मिले, इस मोड़ तक चले हम
ज़िन्दगी की डगर मंजिल तू ए हमसफ़र
कभी बढे कभी रुके रह के कदम
तू साथ बस, चाहत और हम बेखबर ।

३
हर मोड़ मुढा है मंजिल-ऐ-जान के लिए,
बेखयाल के अदा-ऐ-पता बदल गया ।

-तुषार

...बिना ख़बर

शक्ल देख अपनी जीते हुए ऐ आदम,
कहीं सूरत बदल जाए बिना ख़बर !

ख्याल में खो गये मदहोश,
अस्ल छूट गया कहीं बिना ख़बर !

वोः दोस्तों के साथ हसते हर कदम,
बेईमान बन गया आशिक बिना ख़बर!

इंतज़ार मौत दस्तक पर बैठे-बैठे ,
ज़िन्दगी उड़ा दी यूही बिना ख़बर;

कल गुजरने पे रुका सोया,
आज बस बह गया बिना ख़बर;

पा लिया ताज-ओ-तख्त ऐ साहिब,
ज़मीनी हुआ 'कबीर' बिना ख़बर;

-तुषार/कबीर

wish for life's portrait...

Here comes a wishful gift,
As the year makes its shift;
A bag of colors and hue,
To paint you dreams and view;
Borrowed from the rain and cloud,
Mixed with sun a bit smiling bowed;

Violet comes for mystery unseen,
Indigo for spiritually serene,
Blue as sky, cool and calm,
Green for the spring charm,
Yellow making energy beam,
Orange for the autumn leaves,
Red, for love that believes;

Take the dream brush, mark some stroke,
For the life, let the happiness soak…
-Tushar

खवाब...

baadloo se ubhartee gharondoo main,

aapna bhi kahin ek aashiyaan hoga;

dharti mahekegi sunhare rang main,

raat phighalte chaand ka saaya hoga;

-Tushar

life has so wondeful colors..

life has so wondeful colors..

a warmth of sun in winter
the shade of clouds in summer
snow capped mountain shining
orange leaves autumn lining
setting vermillion at ocean's end
golden glow spark in desert sand
soft cool breeze through leaves green
rain dreched road, a waterfall queen...

-Tushar

...मज़ा क्या है

सिली ज़िन्दगी उधरने भिखेरने में मज़ा क्या है ?
अपने ज़ख्म कुरेदने नोचने में मज़ा क्या है ?
दर्द अपने ही है, कुछ सूखे कुछ हरे भी
फिर भी देखो मुस्कान पालने में मज़ा क्या है ?
-तुषार

ज़िन्दगी ..धुप..छाव

ज़िन्दगी है अजब कुछ धुप-छाव

कभी खिलते रंग कभी धुलती शाम

पल पल बढते कदम कभी रुकते पाव

कभी सबके लिए कभी मेरे नाम

-कबीर

For a person who taught about life...

For a long association ( almost 5 years , taking concession for 15 days )..16th Nov 2008
...the parting words ...
may be a thank you note ...
may be just words ...
may be the feelings ....
May be I wish tears had color
May be that shade can get here ....
But they say tears have no shade...
May be might be ... (narayan's favourite dialogue)
but good time never fade ....
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एक मलमल उन्मुक्त सी प्यारी हंसी
सिखा गई रिश्ते ज़िन्दगी-ऐ-गम और खुशी

मुश्किल नहीं दर्द को, मेरे मुन्ना , सहना
हो अगर साथ मुस्कराहट का गहना
कुछ न कहकर बस उनके लिए वो करना
एक रिश्ता बेनाम सा बन यूँ बुनना

नाम नहीं शक्ल नहीं अंदाज़ नहीं जिसका
वक्त के हर मोड़ पर बस रूप बदलता उसका
कभी दोस्त कभी भाई कभी दीप बस मनका
एक तासुवर एक तबुस्सुम बस बीते दिनों का

ज़िन्दगी के पन्नो पर छप जाते है कुछ ऐसे
कुछ आईने बस यादों की तस्वीर जैसे
खुशी गम के कई रंग भरे है ऐसे
धुन्धालायेगा वक्त अब इन्हे कैसे

एक मलमल उन्मुक्त सी प्यारी हंसी
सिखा गई रिश्ते ज़िन्दगी-ऐ-गम और खुशी **********************************************************************
-मुन्ना

Home grown Or Own grown

***************************************
For 2 years I worked to be accepted,
Now I am asked to leave but not rejected,
No credit no love no reward, life is coiled
What I take from here is just plain void.

***************************************
I tried to live but failed,
No steps even the favorite music railed
No connection sparked, fun spoiled,
Seems the child, THE me is now forever jailed…

***************************************
Sitting outside the house waiting for keys,
I see my life as wait for dreams;
A want to be known, a wait for promotion;
A wish for appreciation, a wait for their passion;
A desire to spend, a wait to earn;
A look for the gone company, a wait for someone;
A hunger to smile, a wait for it to happen...
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-Tushar
(most people who know the reference will know what is this all about)

“Aapke paas mere liye time nahin ab” ...

Unse kehna to bahoot hai humme
Par waqt yuhi gujarta jaata hai
Nainoo ki woh sunte nahin ab
Zubaan se hum kahte nahin ab

Milte subah sham roz hai hum
Call bhi kam ke liye karte hai
Agar kuch kahe to kehte hai ab
“Aapke paas mere liye time nahin ab”
-Tushar

होता ...

तुझे भुलाना इतना मुश्किल तो न होता

अगर साथ दिल और ज़माना कुछ ऐसे देता

ना तेरे नाम से मेरा ज़िक्र उभरता

ना मेरे ज़िक्र से यू तू पशेमान होता

-तुषार

shaqhshiyat...

Meri is shaqhshiyat se roboroo nahin duniya
To hai dil main ya nahin janti nahin duniya
Par hum bhi to is kal bad chuke hai shayad aage
Tere bina bhi ab apni lagne lagi hai duniya

-Tushar

yuhi

Ek zarra-e-gam jee liya yuhi
Laboo pe gam see liya yuhi
Kadam bade kabhi ruke yuhi
Zindagi buni udheri humne yuhi

-Tushar

what is death?

What is death, who can tell
What is life, a mystery unsaid
Why desire moksha,
When I can do good to all here
Self-content, but true unpaid.

-Tushar

Is it worth ?

Is it worth ?
I don’t know…
I just care,
love it
and its my life’s share

Is it worth ?
I don’t know…
I just believe,
smile,
it gives me relief

Is it worth ?
I don’t know…
For me it’s the spark,
with drop (tear); Into the light
far from the dark

If I don’t care,
I don’t believe,
No drop no spark
I know then,
It isn’t worth it !!

-Tushar

Why can’t I live a silent life ?...

Why can’t I live a silent life ?
Soothed by moonlight
Awakened by sun bright
A walk by the river side
A nap in farm so wide
A chat with calm green
A meet at solace shrine
The shade of setting sun
Holding hands with love and fun
A life, may be with unknown
Not with just colleagues
But with faces and brotherhood grown
With the sitting laziness
Just simple smile no haziness
Why can’t I live there again
Away from the city hustle-bustle
Into my dreams
At a place which was mine
Is just far but still it shine

Why can’t I live a silent life ?...

-Tushar

ek indradhanush hai zindagi...

ek indradhanush hai zindagi
kuch boondein hai kuch rooshni
ek ajnabi ehsaas hai, kuch ankahi aas hai
saat raangoon ka saath hai...
-Tushar

...me...???

I want to write but my mind not with me
My soul has left me long back, life no longer trust me
Why I lie awake in dark searching for me ?
Why I can’t be normal and still be me ?

-Tushar

dreams...

I was walking on the street,
lost like a dried yellow leaf;
suddenly the wind was blowing,
taking the leaf as free flowing;
telling me that I can also fly,
to reach for the dreams left shy;
the one that I now only keep,
for some dreams when I sleep.

-Tushar

Hey man! when you walk...

Hey man! when you walk,
On mysterious life lane...

Keep your eyes open to see
colors and beauty of nature for free

Move with listening to musical sound
Ears open, natural ochestra around

Feel the fragrance of free flowing wind
Relax and chill as aroma just unwind

Move the lips for the smile and say some hi!
Make some new friends bid some goodbyes

Sit close to them when sad as sand
Get the warmth of the loving sweet hand

Hey man when you walk,
On mysterious life lane,
Just do this and talk,
Of love and life's pure gain.
-Tushar

...A person, whom I call my SISTER

The shadow of a friend’s fare,
The smile of utter care,
Partner in umpteen pillow fights,
Holding hands in childhood sights,
Argues for small chocolates store,
Making room to live from the chore,
My life secret book’s reader,
An all time pain healer,
That’s a reflection of my mother,
A person, whom I call my SISTER.

-Tushar

All is there but dark...

All is there but dark,
The life as the night;
No smile no little spark,
Stars lost with the light;

I have no one but not alone,
no love no inner struggling war;
no desires no smiling clone,
emptiness till the ended far;

afraid of the crawling me,
want to fly , no wings to be free;
frightened for new and to see,
the future , a failure to be;

All is there but dark,
The life as the night;
No smile no little spark,
Stars lost with the light;
-Tushar

the sky is not dark ...

the sky is not dark
not even in the night
this is the city you see
glowing with neon light
the stars are faded or gone
artificiality glowing bright
there is no sleep no dreams
drums and beats sounds right
no flowing leaves with wind
finding inner self fight
what we seek what we hope
just words may be or might
so much speed on highway
like life will end only tonight
vodka beer rum and whisky
all taken for the lost delight
days are sleepy, night is lost
life in fright, no peace in sight
the sky is not dark
not even in the night

-Tushar

...kuch yun hoti

Tum agar saath hote to baat kuch yun hoti
Jahan rangeen fiza bahar kuch yun hoti
(fiza : environment )

Dard-e-daman lahrayega to gazab hoga
Kabhi teri kabhie zamane ki inayat yun hoti

sham-e-zindagi ke sahil pe bas yun baitha hoga
Justuzu teri hijra-e-hiwda main kaid yun hoti
(Sham-e-zindagi : evening of life , sahil : shore ,Justuzu: desires , hijra-e-hiwda: heart with pain of separation )

Kabhie saath dostoon ka ronake mehfil hoga
Kabr par kuch duyaan saath bas yun hoti

Tum agar saath hote to baath kuch yun hoti
Jahan rangeen fiza bahar kuch yun hoti
-Tushar

For Goku...

This for Goku (my junior nephew, born on 24th Aug 2008, On janamasthmi , day celebrated as birth of Lord Krishna. For reference in context for this, Adee is Goku's elder brother)
These lines are based on famous folk song from Rajasthan, kesariya balma padharoo mhare desh ...
My love for Adee and Goku ...
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Kesariya Kanha padharoo mhare desh …

Sundar kaya komal maan paayoo Adee sa bhesh
…padharoo mhare desh
Maiya aanokkee daoo Adee, ladaloo aisa yeh parivesh
…padharoo mhare desh
Choota Goku bhaiya Adee pyaroo yeh sandesh
…padharoo mhare desh
Sang khelenge sang jhoomege adee-goku, desh ya videsh
…padharoo mhare desh
Pyaari muskaan layo sang, bholo sab jagat dwesh
…padharoo mhare desh
Kesariya Kanha padharoo mhare desh …
*************************************************************************************
-Tushar

vidaai...

Kuch dard hai tumhaare jaane se
Kuch haans rahe hai moti aakhon main
Dua ubharti hai har saans har pal se
Payo khusi zindagi ki har rah main
Waqt bahoot pyara bita hai tumse
Paya hai ek naya pariwar tum main

Kuch yaad ki tasveer saath le jate hoon
Ek pyaar ka bandhan baadhe jate hoon
Pal chootte hai kahke phir milta hoon
Arre oh ! yaar tumse kab bichadta hoon

-Tushar

khushi...?

dekhta hooon duniya main itne sadhu-saache hai log,
phir kyon aapne dard ko unki haansi main khoo nahin pata
kyon nahin khilta, kyon jaate nahin jalan ka yeh rog
har phool to khil raha hai bas ek indradhanush nahin bana pata
-Kabir

Khawab bhi yun hai haqueqat...

Version:2
Khawab bhi yun hai haqueqat
Tum bhi aur haseen saath bhi

Woh mehfil badi hai roonak
Jaam bhi saath madhoosi bhi


Woh shaam roomani tanha hai
Jaagti raat bhi lagti badi pyaari bhi

Woh khamoshi kuch hai kehti
Zulf khuli bhi simti baahen bhi

Lab surkh hai sahme sahme
Paas tu bhi , teri tishnagi bhi
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Version:1
Khawab bhi haqueqat hai
Tum hoon haseen saath hai

Woh mehfil bhi roonak hai
Jaam hai saath madhoosi hai

Woh shaam bhi roomani hai
Jaagti raat badi pyaari hai

Woh khamoshi bhi bolti hai
Zulf khuli simti baahen hai

Woh lab bhi sahme hai
Paas tu, teri tishnagi hai
-Tushar

Soocho Soocho...

Soocho soocho
Sooch ke dekho
Sapnoo ke shahar
Main ghar ko dekho
Neela hi gagan
Aapni hi dharti
Par udta
Bawre man ko dekho

Soocho soocho
Sooch ke dekho
Aapne liye bhi
Sawan hai barso
Khusi aayi
Saja ke rakho
Khilkhila ke
Bas hasdo
-Tushar

Unique

People always say that, " I am unique".
I know they just politely mean, 'we don't really understand you'.
Who cares ?
I too myself find uniqueness all around all the time.
-Tushar

I want to...

I am tired of my body
tired of my soul
I want to sleep
but no dreams of yours

I am tired of the talks
tired of the walks
I want to hold
but no thought of yours

I am tired of me
tired of the world
I want to love, all mine
but no condition of yours
-Tushar

tere liye

Tu khush hai wahan jahan hai tu,
Isse kuch to hota hai dil ka dard kam;
Kya yaad utna nahin aata mujhe ab tu,
Ya tere liye tujhe hi bhula baithe hum;
-Tushar

Is it so wrong...

Is it so wrong to feel,
Is it so bad to weep,
To say with water,
how broken you are,
To express how happy you were,
To just say how lonely you will be,
I don't want to hold past back,
but give me time to say final good-bye,
just little time to say this bye,
embraced in our smile...
-Tushar

Kuch khayal...

Aangdaaye le subhah ne yohi bas,
khawab ka parda hata haqueqat ka aaina dekh liya;
paya apna hi chehra phir aaj ek nayi jung ki tayari karta hua.
********************************************************
Woh ja rahe hai nayi zindagi ke raaste,
kaash mud kar humse bhi pooche,
arre yaar tum bhi saath chalo...
**********************************************************
Tere jaane ko kaise kah do jaana
Tere na hone ko kaise kah do bhichadna
Tu nahin to kya hua
Teri in yaadoon ko bhala hum se kaun cheen payega
**********************************************************
-Tushar

प्यार की जुबां

कोई मुझे बताये प्यार की जुबां क्या है ?
जो ग़ालिब ने कहा या मिहिर ने लिखा
मुझ नादाँ शायर के लिए तो बस
मेरे यार के साथ की खामोशी ही कातिल है
-तुषार

एक रिश्ता था जो ...

एक रिश्ता था जो
पीछे छूटा है वो
कहाँ गई मंजीलें
खो गए रास्ते

एक सपना था जो
बुना मिलके था वो
छूटी बाहों की गली
मिली न कोई कलि

एक कहानी थी जो
चाहत से बुनी थी वो
लफ्ज़ का चेहरा नहीं
वादें खो गए यहीं

एक साथ था जो
हाथ थामता था वो
बाहें पास बुलाती है
अकेले अब घबराटी है

एक खुशी थी जो
पल पल हसाती थी वो
जागती रात है अब
सूने दिन है अब
-तुषार

From Son to Mother

You laugh with my laughter
You cry with my tear
You wait for my arrival
You sink with my fear
You walk with my steps
You feel the pain I bear
You sleep with my tiredness
You wake with my dreams so clear
You know the hunger of my stomach
You are satiated as I eat pear
You long for me when far
You are rejoiced when I come near
You hold me with your warmth
You always embrace, saying worries not for you dear
You are the soul I am the body
You are my MOTHER, I your son here
-Tushar

Intezaar...

kya khatam hoga yeh intezaar
tere aane ke baad?
phir aayega yeh hi intezaar
tere jaane ke baad!
kya jee payege phir is intezaar
ke saath...
tere chale jaane ke baad
tere hi intezaar ke saath
-Tushar

you sleep to be alone

To be lone in crowd of faces known,
to smile with tears heart sinking down,
To gather the broken you,
To crave that you are wanted,
before you sleep to be alone... (forever)
-Tushar

kuch pal tere saath aur bita lo to soocho

kuch pal tere saath aur bita lo to soocho
kal beechedge, aaj yahi beetha lo to soocho

tere sirhane ki malmal se haansi payi hai
baandh hootoon ki daastan bana lo to soocho

tere saath waqt hawa sa chalta hai
udti fiza ko apna bana lo to soocho

garm saansein ab bhi hai darmiyaan
sard aahoon ke dayre bana lo to sooscho

kuch pal tere saath aur bita lo to soocho
kal beechedge, aaj yahi beetha lo to soocho
-Tushar

for my sister...

A bond that just makes you think
Can there be love just without desire
Eyes speak about care with every wink
All I know we will always be there
To clap for all our achievements
To get smile when your eyes drop
May be we move distant physical apart
But this heart will be together
This immaculate, eternal, undemanding
Giving, caring, and sharing;
Defines a relation ALL ABOVE ALL
A root of un-selfish LOVE
A fact that we are
BROTHER and SISTER…
-Tushar

rook lo is chaand ke safar ko...

rook lo is chaand ke safar ko
baandh ke simtee saansoo main
ek nagma bana lo in lamhoo ko
tham jaye raat tere aagosh main
-Tushar

main tum aur tanhayee ka saath...

main tum aur tanhayee ka saath
khamosh chandni sulgate zazbaat
surkh hooth yeh gulab si baat
madhosh hum aur phighalte yeh raat
-Tushar

क्यों हुआ कब हुआ क्या ख़बर...

क्यों हुआ कब हुआ क्या ख़बर,
आखं खुली तू नहीं हम बेखबर,
सोचा उस ने कुछ भी नहीं मगर,
रह गए तनहा हुयी न सहर;

क्यों अचानक यह ख़बर आई,
गए तुम रह गया दिल दर्द तन्हाई,
एक खालीपन दूजा गम गहराई,
कैसे छूटे प्यार की परछाई;

तुम मुस्कुराते हो नयी जिन्दगीं में,
बैठे हम फिर भी झूटी आस में,
तोड़ गए सारे रिश्ते यूँ झटके में,
उलझे हम बिखरे वादों में;

एक फूल मेरे आगन का,
ले गया कोई सपना आखों का,
बैठी आखे हश्र दिल के चाहत का,
काला आकाश बिन तारओ का;
-तुषार

woh is baar chale gaye aise kahi...

woh is baar chale gaye aise kahi,
chotta peeche intezaar bhi nahin;
dil ko phir bhi yeh sabr hi sahi,
shayad mil jaye yuhi kabhie kahi;

din ka saath raat ka milna,
jaagti raat ab chaand ka jalna;
din khali hai aakh ka gahna,
moti se yaadoo ka bun-na;

bhara hai kamra beta samaan,
har deewar tasveero ka karvan;
haste chehre palkon ke darmiyaan,
soona ghar chala gaya dil ka mehmaan;

-Tushar

Shweta-Narayan wedding invitaion

Two lives and a story
Two names, a journey to glory
Two voices and a song
Two bodies, a lovely mate
Two destinies, a crowning fate
Two souls for the promise

By the blessing of the THOU, the time has come,
that we mark a bond of eternity
In the shower of glowing stars
With the blessing of ones and dear

Grace us with your presence as we,
Shweta and Narayan,
Start a new beginning of a life
Tying a knot for ageless time

-Tushar

First wish to Shweta-Narayan

Narayan ke kal-kal jal main,
khili jeevan moti sa Shweta;
bandhan atoot sapne anoop,
kehte dev, jag, phool har patta;

Narayan ghar aagan aayi main,
abhivadan chandni se karta;
man bhooje naye jeevan paheli,
apne saathi sang komal Shweta;

Meaning of
Narayan : abode of beings, flowing water of eternity
Shweta: White
-Tushar

…hai aaj

daayare kuch aise rukhsaat hue hai aaj
tum muskuraaye to jannat mile hai aaj

duniya ka dastoor kuch jaana hai aaj
mar ke khud zindagi jee rahe hai aaj

raang zamane ke dekhe hai aaj
ban ke aaina khade hai aaj

har sawal ke jawab dhoonde hai aaj
milke unse khud se mile hai aaj

khawab saare haqueqat se toote hai aaj
band aakh kar soone se darte hai aaj
-Tushar

B'day wish to Narayan : 17-12-2007

The wheel just turns to the point again,
over the period, I had some pain few gain;
standing on the day, of the very advent
to take more steps, to cherish what just went
its a journey each year of the wheel
living life as I want it to and feel
I have lot as a lot, my family and U my friend
and what I want more in prayer to send
Thank your GOD for a new turn
I will live as I am here, to love to learn

Happy B'day Narayan ...
-Tushar

4th Anniversary of 232

yaad hai mujhko who suhaani raat
when we flashed mobile saath-saath
captured some moments to remember
bana liya ek ristaa with all forever

wooh society ki lambi analysis
that dollar-rupee appreciation thesis
drawing room ka virtual cricket ground
kuch songs par roz subhah ek sound

Mall ke lagate chakar,kuch khaate, kuch chahte
Funny office gossips, kabhie sacha dukh sunate
Defining life in own its own fashion
Hum sab main badta ek passion

bhaiya ji ke mast chawal choley
life was moving just holay-holay
then came the period of recession
bidding valedictory was painful session

waqt ke chokhat se yaad ke saman le chaley
kuch naam kuch pehchaan bas chod chaley
are O mere dil ke bando, yaad hai ya nahin wooh makan
House se home banaya tha jisse, 232 aaj bhi hai uska naam
-Tushar

sharm aa gayi...

sharm aa gayi yo unse milke
ghata chaa gayi, main unke sadke
ab kah denge unse haske
rahe sada woh mere banke

ab ke aaye to jaaane na denge
is raat ko dhalne na denge
kuch kahyege kabhie chup rahege
yuhi saath bethe rahege

mogre ki mahek hi to hai
dil pe kuch dastak di hai
dhadkan ke geet ab gaate hai
hum tumhe bas chahte hai

nazro ke yoon milne sa
jhuki palke laboo ke khilne se
hum to bas khoo gaye aise
hai! tum pe mar gaye aise

barf se dhake pahadoo se
jharne girte nazaroo se
pati-pati chinaroo se
baat ki teri hazaroo se

sharm aa gayi yo unse milke
ghata chaa gayi, main unke sadke
-Tushar

Bas...

khawab ki zindagi itni thi bas
aakh khulte hi haqueqat se toot gaye
woh na mil sake hum se kabhie
bandh aakhon main jo rahte the bas

waqt ud raha hai dhuaa sa bas
koi chingari kahi jalti nahin
zarra-zarra sulag rahe hai aarmaan
yeh kahani aab rukti nahin bas

rukte hai dard ki mahfil main bas
har gazal main woh samaye hai
har jaam ki madhoosi un se hai
hum unhe bhula na paaye bas

chaand kahta hai dastaan-e-noor bas
sunte hum bhi hazaroo main rhai
raat ji rahe hai jaag ke hum bhi
badal ban saath chal na paaye bas

phool pe oos ki boondh thi bas
thari ruki phisal gayi
ashaq bhi phisalte hai gaaloo pe
thahrte to mere hote bas

rista apna ek shaam tha bas
aayi shaam ruki, raat hui
samjhe kaun samjaaye kyon
duniya phir bhi haas degi bas
-Tushar

Ek hai chaand…

Ek hai chaand Chere hazaar
Ek hi naam Afsaane besumaar

Din ke gusail dada se
Pyare chanda mama sa
Asmaan main sajta
Albhabet ‘C’ jaisa /* Thanks to Adee for this line */
Leader hai sitaaroo ka
Meeri katori ke batashe sa
Raat ke carom ke
Chamkte striker sa
Maa ke loori ka hero
Kabhie poore ka poora zero
Naani ki di chaavni sa
Pansaari se li taafi sa

Ek hai chaand Chere hazaar
Ek hi naam Afsaane besumaar

Tasveer mere pyaar ki
Pedh se jhaakte noor sa
Baadal main sahma khoota
Sharmati dulhan sa
Pardesh main dilata desh ki yaad
Khamooshi main karta baat
Saathi mahkati tanhayi ka
Pyaara mere yaar sa
Here ka pehna kangan
Kan ki jhoomti baali sa
Raat se uth, us-Ke khaayal jaisa
Jaagta saath mere, Mere intezaar jaisa

Ek hai chaand Chere hazaar
Ek hi naam Afsaane besumaar

Bhaagti bheed main
Gaadi ke pahiye sa
Roz thakte paate us-se
Do waqt ke roti sa
Gharaate andhere main
Jalte bulb jaisa
biscuit ka toota tukra
bhookh phir bhi badata sa
Hazaaroo main ladta
Mere ek naam jaisa
Zindagi ki aankh-michooli mian
Hamesha ghaatta bhadta sa
Meri thakaan se taar
Raat main gawah jaisa
Har pal chalta badhta
Meri kahani jaisa

Ek hai chaand Chere hazaar
Ek hi naam Afsaane besumaar
-Tushar

… duniya aise hoti hai…

Aakh se chal laboo tak jo pahoochi hai
khamoshi nahin, dard ki zubaa aise hoti hai

raaste jo bhikhre lambe tanha se hai
mera kasoor nahin, duniya aise hoti hai

tasveer basi aakhon main yaad ki hai
intezaar tera, raat aanchal bheegooti hai

mile nahin par kuch judwa aise hai
naam mera, ruswaaiye teri hoti hai

lamhe bun bewajah waqt thaama hai
bandh muthi khulte hi khaali hoti hai

dard ki zard safed chadar oode hai
maut kya, zindagi aise hoti hai

saath tum ho roomani mausam hai
khawab hai, haqueqat kahan aise hoti hai

After I wrote above and shared with few friends, they asked me why so much pain and darkness.So I came for the light with the flip version of above.

Aakhon se chal Aakhon tak jo pahoochi hai
khamoshi sahi, jhuki palkeein bhi izhaar hoti hai

raaste badte hai, modh thahar jaate hai
milte hai dil, duniya meri hoti hai

teri tasveer basi aakhon main hai
har manzil tujse bayaan hoti hai

mile hai kuch aise judwa se hai
naam tera, kahani humaari hoti hai

lamhe bun moti se waqt thaama hai
milte hai aur yaad jawa hoti hai

aanchal khawaboo ka yoon lahraya hai
aise main zindagi muskaan hooti hai

tum nahin, dekho chaand bhi tanha hai
tum aaye, tanhaaiyaan rukhsat hoti hai
-Tushar

kitne baatein kahni thi...

kitne baatein kahni thi
kitne raatein jaagi thi
tere intezaar main
tere aane ki rah main

woh chaand bhi chala gaya
raat safar ke baad bhi
dhoonda tumhe ujaloo main
shaam ke jalte chiraago main

kuch sapney tere saath ke
jeevan ki har raah ke
badte kadam teri aas main
jeete dua har saans main

dil kahi ab lagta nahin
tu nahin too kuch nahin
tanha khade hai bheed main
adhoore se door pyaar main

muskuraate hai pal sooche jab
hoga kya tum aayoge tab
paa lege tumhe har raang main
kooyi meera, shyam sang main

kitne baatein kahni thi
kitne raatein jaagi thi
tere intezaar main
tere aane ki rah main
-Tushar

aakh se lafz bolo na...

aakh se lafz bolo na
dil ke sahme raaz kholo na

un khaamosh lamhoon ke saaye main
mere saath ke rang gholo na

lambi tanha in raahoon pe
khawab ki manzil dhondho na

jo kahani tooti baithe hai
tukre wafa se joodo na

sitaare jahan main bahoot hai
unme apna chaand dekho na

raat ke gujraate andheroon main
kal ke sapnoo ki tasveer dekho na

woh jo darta hai tanhaiyoon se
khud ko khuda se mila ke dekho na

haafte bhaagte thakte duniya se
maa ke aanchal main soo-lo na

kaun aapna kaun paraya jahan main
pyaar baatate yeh socho na

aakh se lafz bolo na
dil ke sahme raaz kholo na
-Tushar

When they think that I hate...

When they think that I hate
What to say about my fate

When days here were dark
When stars in night lost spark
What all I did was to wait
Whining for long lost bait
When soaked tears in eyes
While a smile for byes
When I just lived hoping
While all was gone moping
When words just became flawed
When I was crowned a fraud

When they think that I hate
What to say about my fate
-Tushar

The night and me...

A walk on long road dark lying wide,
Steps moving slowly with silence inside;
Seeing the far light as dream to attain,
Together night & me determined to sustain;
-Tushar