When they think that I hate...

When they think that I hate
What to say about my fate

When days here were dark
When stars in night lost spark
What all I did was to wait
Whining for long lost bait
When soaked tears in eyes
While a smile for byes
When I just lived hoping
While all was gone moping
When words just became flawed
When I was crowned a fraud

When they think that I hate
What to say about my fate
-Tushar

The night and me...

A walk on long road dark lying wide,
Steps moving slowly with silence inside;
Seeing the far light as dream to attain,
Together night & me determined to sustain;
-Tushar

title to be guessed ???

Goes with me at night to the bed,
Lives with me without being wed;
Is a part of my fondle and action,
Caresses me sweats my affection;
The game makes me playful ,
So high so spirit colorful;
Tasting as a hot chocolate sauce,
So serene in white solace;
With a high as I want ,
Framing per my thought;
Makes me the person I desire,
Revealing the hidden ardent fire;
I can mould I can twist give a race,
Experiencing all new kissing face;
The curve of the flowing river,
Hearts just thumps and shiver;
Undressing like mysterious mountain,
Being cozy in warm fountain;
Breaths get all the more warmer,
A walk in misty cloud charmer;
Sleeping on lap like a little kid,
Steam out with burning lid;
All just seems so mine,
Every frame like carved waistline;
Its all me in purple sight,
A journey of the night;
A walk of life not mainstream,
This is the story of a dream…

Dream…

Trust…

Just a matter of fact,
When feeling no more,
Is it on only one act?
Or the passage of yore;

When things don’t shine,
With blossoming rose,
To be true to be mine,
Like incomprehensible prose;

When parting hug is not tight,
Eyes don’t shower waterfall,
You just don’t wait till last sight,
Face manages a smile after-all;

Why they came why they went,
To make me happy or sad,
Took some life’s part without rent,
No voices when silence clad;

Its they say life moving,
Its has its different shade,
All the fun just fleeting,
Trust look like a spade;
-Tushar

Farewell…

A road to glorious future
With sparks from the past
Bidding good byes to friends
As you move and go apart
BUT…
Its also a sign to cherish the gone
With welcoming note to harbingers
A chance to say we will miss you
A hope to again meet you.
-Tushar

Moments…

Some moments are so cute,
Just the musical flow by flute;
Living with them is just to nurture,
Threading past, present and the future;
-Tushar

For my Mother...

Life’s first care,
The womb was yours;
My first worldly smile,
The hug was yours;
As tear turned to pearl,
With touch warmly yours;
I made the first step,
Holding hands were yours;
For all good night sleep,
The lap was yours;
The very first fall,
Catching support was yours;
When I got hurt,
The caress was yours;
Making those mistakes,
Rectifying advise was yours;
In those lonely hours,
The company was yours;
When all went away,
The shelter was yours;
Walking down the lane,
The shadow was yours;
In those dark confusion,
Enlightening was yours;
On the failing acts,
The courage was yours;
With winning facts,
Success was yours;

For me standing here,
The pain was yours;
For all love I have,
The blessings are yours;
For what I am ,
All credit is yours;
For all left unsaid,
Dear Mother, I am yours;

-Tushar-

Baarish : ke saath ke ehsaas…

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain

woh ek boondh bachpan ke jamoon ki
doosri oos geele dagamgaati naav ki
bheege pattoo ki rimjhim se chaav ki
bhaagte jhuund main khusi ke shoor ki

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain

sadak ki nami se saletee(grey) raang par
badate pagoo ke saath pagdandi ke mod par
beekharee zulf se hawa ke aanchal par
dil ke saath udte aasmaan par

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain

aagan main raakhi lakdi ke kursi se
payale main chai ke ubhartee khusboo se
garam garam pyaz-besan ke pakodi se
kuch sawad kuch armaan hai machalte se

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain

chatari main bhi bheegte saikal pe misra ji
tyartee gaadi ke boochaar se bachna ji
chootu ka paani main masti se chapkana ji
chat pe jhaarne main rom-rom bhigona ji

baarish ke mausam yoon mahekte hai
har boondh main thare waqt sawarte hain
-Tushar

Life…moments…feelings

Its all like a dew drop,
so pertinent not perpetual;
the pain of past,
the happiness growing so fast;

Its all like petal cluster,
nothing alone, together so live;
the tears of smile,
the moments woven for a while;

Its all like vermilion sunset,
on edge of glory yet the beginning;
the valedictory friends,
the welcoming hands;

Its all like desert sand,
so vast but so lone;
the indignation of betrayal,
the love for the gone;

Its all like rainy clouds,
so affable so thundering ;
the life of dreams,
the joy of screams;

Its all like little words,
so silent so unheard;
the dialogue of eyes,
the language of breaths;
-Tushar

zihaal-e-miskeen mukon ba-ranjish, bahaal-e-hijra bechara dil hai

zihaal-e-miskeen mukon ba-ranjish, bahaal-e-hijra bechara dil hai

zihaal = notice
miskeen = poor
mukon = do not
ba-ranjish = with ill will, with enimity
bahaal = fresh, recent
hijra = separation

In English:
Do not notice the poor heart with enemity...
It is still fresh with wounds of separation
In HinDi
Ye dil judaai ke gamo se abhi bhi taaza hai.
Iski bechaargi ko ba-ranjish (without enimity) dekho.
-Tushar

Happy Wedding Anniversary ...

A day to rejoice
Decisions of past
When you came together
For being each other's part

A day to celebrate
With the present
While you still hold hands
Sharing the love and affection

A day to believe
In roads to Future
To create precious memories
For marriage that is "forever"
-Tushar

Smile...may be not

When I smile to unknown,
bearing all what it take
with pleasure genuinely fake
don't know the smile across is real
OR like mine it is there
only just for the sake ...
-Tushar

Rain...

When clouds shed tears,
smiles the thirsty earth,
feeling peace in dark up,
with fallen crystal down,
a eternal bond of drops,
giving itself for her,
the sky pours,
the ground holds,
for the love unknown,
a wish for horizon to meet...
-Tushar

Agreement…of souls…

When the two just silently nodded
Smile and happiness just flooded
Came along warm holding hand
Dreams shining golden as sand
I am yours, you are mine
Are only words that shine,
Life is for a new journey as Ecstasy
Some lived in real some in Fantasy
-Tushar

The moment...(of achievement)

The moments just shine
so flashy to be mine
but they are there to stay
I want bar no words to say
just a smile with no cost
an effect in summer of frost
a new step just taken next
to prove I am the best ...
-Tushar

zindagi main mana hai

zindagi main mana hai
aage ka pal acha hoga
jo mod ab mude hai
unka raasta pakka hoga

har dard har lamhe ka jalna
aati sardi main tap hoga
aason se aakhon ka bahna
sukhe main thahrti bahar hoga

kuch choot jaane ka ehsaas
usse paane ki umeed hoga
jo na mila andhere main
jo paas hai uska ujala hoga

zindagi main mana hai
aage ka pal acha hoga
jo mod ab mude hai
unka raasta pakka hoga
-Tushar

A day just ...

A day just comes
A day just goes
Making weeks
Forming months
Then is 'IT'
Summing it all
Creating a year
A day so lovely
As special as you
For the days
As shiny as rays
A new journey begins
With happiness, with love
With smile, with hope
With you …
And the days
-Tushar

Can you be...?

When you float in doubt
From which you cannot come out
Just take a deep breath
Just a swirl when u takes
a judgment as a heart
With jury of nerves of mind
Ask to you simply the things
Which I can assure will give you wings
But leaving what, when how and then aside
Move to mirror when you relax stretching wide

Can u stand like a mountain?
A trust for the inner self
Can you sing like wind?
A freedom for your wealth
Can you smile like flowers?
A moment of the joy
Can you float like a cloud?
A push for moving ahead
Can you flow like a river?
A way to wash to get the way
Can you be the rainbow?
A mix of emotions to glow
Can you be the moon?
A light when all is dark
Can you be the dew?
A help just came and spark
Can you be the trees?
A shade in warming days
Can you be the snow?
A melt when others need to flow
Can you be the sunrise?
A ray of hope with all survive
Can you be the bird?
A determination to fly high
Can you be the ocean?
A desire to serve all

If you can be
If you think you can be
Just move away from mirror
With a smile
As now you have to move
There is journey ahead
Which you need to start...
-Tushar

The Moment is here…

The moment is here...
A moment so mottled
A moment of feelings
A moment together
A moment to part
A moment of wet smile
A moment to last
A moment to move
A moment to look
A moment to give
A moment to take
A moment of wishes
A moment of good-byes & kisses
A moment like gem
A moment to shine

A moment not just ‘A’ Moment
A moment is ‘THE’ Moment

A moment as step in the future
A moment musing the past

The moment is here...
-Tushar

A response to Fizz's poem

Vinay wrote his first poem as
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YOU OWE ME YOU
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Your Eyes owe something to me
Let them see me........
Your Ears owe something to me
Let them hear my song........
Your Heart owe something to me
Let it beat little harder for me........
Your Touch owe something to me
Let it feel me........
Your Kiss owe something to me
Let it kill me........
Your Soul owe something to me
Let it love me........

********************************************
MY response...funny one( atleast I felt that ways )
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Why I owe you something
Why I should hear you sing
Why my lips are your kiss
Why my heart does not miss
Why you feel you have a flick
Why can't u get "U are sick"
:-)
whatever...these would have been a reply to this...
but the fact ...U rock in poems also...I have a competitor ... :-)

-Tushar

A Tear...

A tear just came
a state I frame
it was same small drop
felt different at every stop

sometime was silent love
at times the hate I shove
in moments just fleet
for time not as sleek

In due when we part
when meet and spark
stepping in paused wait
falling with whispering fate

some in flash of rain
little went just in vain
few smiled for jiffy gain
couple dried for soothing pain

a pearl that is mine
a bit sour but not wine
a gem for unspoken all
a sign that just not fall

A tear just came
a state I frame
it was same small drop
felt different at every stop
-Tushar

Oh Lord !

Oh Lord !
Its tough to smile
with the very 'US'
when they have
a piece of cake
when you have
nothing to bake
when life just smile
from far in their eyes
when the holding hands
just slip and part away
when the dreams drop
lightning their way
when you are empty
cannot do a thing
not a task
u do not complete
the poem
leave it in its way
as lone as you
as screaming silently
but wishes that u hope
to be true...
You wait
as your poem
to get something
to be added
to be complete
to get a form...
but again
they go
but again
no words just flow...
a news to break
just breaks you
they smile and leave...happy
you smile and stand ...hoping... ... ... ... ... ...
-Tushar

when u want to say so much ...

when u want to say so much
when words will not utter
when the feelings are all there
when the silence just suffer
when u lone crave for company
when the sight seems tougher
when moments are nostalgic
when present does not buffer
when all shared is not common
when u again feel to be stranger

Just move to the one
Just move with the love
Just the smile on the face
Just a hiccup but the pace
Just a normal generic chat
Just a warm hand on head
Just plan to shed the past
Just remember the went laugh

U will be fine
all will again shine

just a simple act
break the silence and react
same will be the world again
a new life with U no bargain
-Tushar

Birthday afterall...

days after days, months after months
moving ahead on life road,
making years as those cherished milestones
Am again to create one more and planning for more
advent of life is past , but journey is on
but today is special as epoch back
gave me chance to move fast on the current track.
voyage has been a waterfall,
so I'll enjoy the flow
asIt's B'day afterall
-Tushar

drop..A...drop...

A drop is a drop till its not dropped
when it drops on the cheeks
its more than just words so meek
it is the drop of faith
it is the drop of love
it is the drop of trust
it is the drop ...
so let not make that drop
so that we will also not drop
the exists a drop in eyes
but there drop seems so wise
-Tushar

random mind...

I always felt I could write
all feelings in words I can recite
have done it many times in past
sentences turning to story was fast
those were when I wanted to
create something to be looked to
some thoughts random as wave
few moments I cared to save
there was smile, there was light
there were tears , there was fight
some stories of friends I tried
with my art, added spice, they were fried
little of desired in tacit were framed
some sparks in eyes I always craved
all came out so fluently as rain
felt like new friends in life gain
all were mine, whether poetry or prose
they all shine, felt calm getting them close
but there was a frame a sequence in all
something felt something cared and recalled
but now sitting in silence just typing
stating vacuum mind's prototyping
just wanted to capture the zero state
to kill time and not to get frustrate
don't know how much I succussed
who cares ! got an answer to be processed
I always felt I could write
yes, I just wrote something not to recite
But I did , without the view
got a picture to preview
a story of random sleepy mind
a state which is closed, nothing to find
time to time to a state we travel
time just time, with nothing to unravel
-Tushar

A year...

A new day
A new voice
A molding clay
A new choice

The laughter of past
The road to future
The joys so fast
The memories to nurture

A new milestone
A new walk
Some diamonds some stones
Some gone talk

More years are gone
More enough to come
So many to wish now
So many more to come

Just a wish from my side
To make your smile more wide
The happiness whether large or small
Be yours from start to all
-Tushar

Why ? ...

why sleeping alone is no pain
why sitting with you is no gain

why lonely office looks mine
why gathering feels rotten wine

why I don't crave to seek laughter
why the voice just is to shatter

why I feel I rolled down tears
why words just choke and fear

why I devoted and waited
why the smile have faded

why the world makes me shame
why my loneliness only tame

why the HCF was left is middle
why life seems an unsolved riddle

why I burden ur guilt and my act
why u silent, no words to react

why is U are here and U are not
why I want to hug but can not
-Tushar

Solitude...

Solitude is so lonely
Solitude is so lovely

it is the time for me
it is the time to see

to wander and look
to read my own book

a long silence talk
a cool yet warm walk

making the sky your limit
making the horizon to summit

moving at serene pace
moving to meet your face

taking steps to path you choose
taking out worries as no time to loose

the breeze so smooth to flow
the eyes just blink and glow

are no thoughts to share
are just hands to care

an odyssey in its way
an opera sung at bay

U see it all and none
U meet U the only one

Solitude is so lonely
Solitude is so lovely
-Tushar

sometime I stop ...

sometime I stop
wait and wonder
to be a person
I just ponder
then I fly
to farthest sky
breaking the limits
leaving the burden
and the sand
taking the smile
all in my hand
I find free
to be me
to be joy
not the very coy
light all over
mind so calm
no chain's pain
no soothing balm
just floating in air
with laughter's flair
a feeling so mine
as a twin
without a wine
I just love
I just smile
to meet the real I
as I always tried
I just sigh
with so much high
but this is sometimes
when I am me
this is sometimes
when I am free

sometime I stop
wait and wonder
to be a person
I just ponder
-Tushar

zindagi jee raha hoon do pehlu main ...

zindagi jee raha hoon do pehlu main

kabhie saath tere haqeqat main
kabhie saath tere khayaloo main

zindagi jee raha hoon yoon bekhaayli main

kabhie lamhoon ke rukne main
kabhie paloo ke bahne main

zindagi jee raha hoon anjaane main

kabhie pheghalte saanjh main
kabhie mahkte raag main

zindagi jee raha hoon is suroor main

kabhie chaand ki chaav main
Kabhie aanchal ke muskaan main

zindagi jee raha hoon do pehlu main
-Tushar

Just...

Just a fine drop of rain
Just a tiny leaf beauty
Just a small floating cloud
Just a cute bird chirping
Just a orange sun rising
Just a shooting star
Just a flute so far
Just a desert night-fall
Just a musical water fall
Just a moon blink
Just a child's wink
Just a mountain shade
Just a view so fade
Just a warming winter
Just a new as spring
Just a autumn devotion
Just a summer motion
Just a river turn
Just a tickling run
Just a holding hand
Just a friend
Just a little smile
Just a walk mile after mile

Just these small steps
Just these few moments
Just these unaccounted counts
Just these fleeting happiness

Just they make my day
Just they stand as LIFE
Just to live them all
Just to have you by my side
-Tushar

A parting time…

moments ago I was going
packing my bags for the Boeing
life was high, waiting for good-byes
on verge to fly, breathing the sighs
smile all over, hustle bustle here & there
hugs so warm friends so calm
trolleys moving like a train
bags like their passenger frame
so thrilled so excited so nervous so shy
for the ride which I always wanted to fly
counting the minutes to be second
leaving mine for fairy land
pushing the luggage to the GATE-2
with only dreams, parting the only few

tears roll down when I feel
can only meet them in reel
turn back I, for final good-bye
knowing, Is this for what I cry ?
moments now I will be gone
moments now I will be lone
in a large huge Boeing
just patting myself, saying let life going

moments now I will be gone
moments now I will be lone
-Tushar

Life takes a turn...

Life takes a turn
ice is what you feel
frozen are the feeling
words just cry
silence not speaking
tears just dry
sun sets never to rise
moon awake albeit all tries
birds stop singing
eyes stop blinking
trees just barren
no laugh no terrain

Life takes a turn
warmth in hands
feelings flying high
words never stop
as silence will speak
tears are happy
sun holding its charm
moon smiling shyly
birds with fun
dreams in eyes
love all around
world is mine
-Tushar

...hoon chala

Kuch khawab ki taabir dhoondhta hoon chala
nayi rahein nayi manzeloon ko paane hoon chala

jiya hoon tere saath, tere bina jeene hoon chala
us yaad ko samaan bana saath liye hoon chala

bahoot mara hoon teri yaad main,teri khusi paane hoon chala
tere lafz teri haansi se muskurata hoon chala

kaun saath hai kaun nahi, sab bhoolta hoon chala
to nahi to zamane ko thukrata hoon chala

dil roota hai, usse manata hoon chala
apne kal ko pyaar se sulaata hoon chala

khoya tha tujhme, khud se milne hoon chala
waqt ke mod pe bas kadam badata hoon chala

Kuch khawab ki taabir dhoondhta hoon chala
nayi rahein nayi manzeloon ko paane hoon chala
-Tushar

Can I ? Yes, I can...

Can I fly?
With no wings
Just a wish
That is too high

Can I sing?
With no words
But a bumping orchestra
Beating with heart

Can I dance?
With no steps
Just shaking legs
With joy and fun

Can I laugh?
With no jokes
Just mirror in front
Making faces as clown

Yes I can
Yes I can fly, sing, dance and laugh
With dreams in eyes and power inside
All can be done
All will be fine
With determination insight
With no inner fight
Smile on face
Bidding fear goodbye
I can, yes I can...
-Tushar

Losing ...

Lie down I
With wide open eyes
Roll down are dreams
Within silence screams
all hope just tear
loneliness only and all near
staring in vacuum
searching a thing to succumb
ahead is a road long
no steps nothing to long
rose and leaves are dry
desert heat left to cry
all night awake is moon
sun waiting for cloudless boon
land is brittle and broken
love has left and pain sunken
past is dead but talking
present is still but walking
future is distant not moving
threesome moment all but weeping

calling from far is the only one
dying inside is me, the left one
-Tushar

Who I am ?

Who I am ?
What I am ?
Is it what mirror says, or
Is it what world plays;
Is it holding one's flute, or
Is it dancing on theirs tune;
Is it what I write, or
Is it what they recite;
Is it what I set free, or
Is it what rules they agree;
Is it the sweet pink smile, or
Is it loads of burden that pile;
Is it the first drop of rain, or
Is it standing in shower in pain ;
Is it making dream come true, or
Is it living in world, virtually true;
Is it what I feel, or
Is it what they steal;
Is it who live moment slow, or
Is it who accelerate for a show;
Is it what I love, or
Is it what I am made to love ;

Who I am , What I am ?
as ME, which is I,
as ME, in world's eyes;
A puppet just shaking,
all strings tied and world mocking;
A wish lights,
to break the links,
making me, the I
with my own definition
neglecting all world's consideration
fly high as ME
as high as it can be
on a journey
to find I
on a journey
to meet ME;
-Tushar

La pila se saakiya ... a fav gazal by pankaj udhas

See every coulpet...they are so deep...
Patti Patti gulab ho jati har kali meharkhwab ho jati
tune dali na mehfisha nazaren varna shabanam sharab ho jati

Patti Patti gulab kya hogi har kali meharkhwab ho jati
Jisane laakhon haseen dekhen ho usaki niyat kharaab kya hoti

La pila de saakiya - 2 paimana paimane ke baad
hosh ki baate karunga - 2 hosh me aane ke baad
La pila de saakiya

Dil mera lene ki khaatir minnate kya kya na ki - 2
Kaise nazaren pher li - 2 matlab nikal jaane ke baad

Waqt saari zindaji me dohi guzare hai kathin - 2
ek tere aane se pahele - 2 ek tere jaane ke baad

Surkh suru hota hai insaan thokare khaane ke baad - 2
rang lati hai heena - 2 patthar pe pis jane ke baad

bakhwaas ...

bas pehlu hai zeevan ke
badalte waqt ki taabir hi hai ;
woh jo lamhe rukhte nahin the unke saath,
saath waqt unke ab katta nahin ;
un baatoon ka aaina ,
jo hardam hasta tha bas;
un chehroo ke hoone se ,
dard ab ghatta nahin ab ;
bina seer-pair kee baithak ,
thahake bas khaali lafzoo pe;
dimaag se samjhte hai,
dil se ubharte nahin;
kyon sab bune kahani,
bas lagti "bakhwaas" se hai ;;
-Tushar

pal...kal

samay ko gale mat lagao
bada nagawar hai yeh
bulbula pani ka samjho isse
kabhie badta ,kabhi bahta
kabhi thahrta ,kabhi bahkta
par hamesha choot-tta
jo paas nahin woh kal hai
jo gujar gaya woh pal hai
aaj bhi kahin jee ke
soo jayega aagan main man ke
phir aayega kal ek aur pal ban ke
phir jayega pal ek aur kal ban ke
kuch nahin pakad payoge
tum bhi bas bahte jaoyge
kabhi ek pal main
kabhi bete kal main
saath na hoga kuch
zeevan hoga ek pul sa kuch
kal se pal tak
pal se kal tak
-Tushar

zindagi aur tum ...

Sooraj dhal raha hai sindoori rang se shaam ban ke
zindagi ban raha hai chehra tera kuch haans kuch muskura ke
shama rooshan hai phighalkar andhere mahka ke
raaste manzil hai saath chalkar tere haath thaam ke
dhalte badal hai boondh se bhini dharti se mil ke
sapne haqueqat hai teri palkoo se chal meri akhoon main baske ke
chandni humaari hai taaro ke jhoole jhul chand ke phelu se nikal ke
lafz dastaan hai tere laboo ke meri sooch ke
-Tushar

Baarish --- Mausam

sanware raang se raancha rasta mausam
dhoodhlata aur boondon se kaapta mausam
patto se bhigota hawa sa ithlata mausam
chatree se bachta sadak pe bheegta mausam
pakhudi pe tharta oos sa muskutata mausam
ghaas par ghirta ehsasoon ko jagata mausam
koyal ki kook aarmaan sa udhta mausam
bijle ke dahak laboo se lipat-tta mausam
badal ke sawan dharti pe jharnoon ka mausam
aanchal udata palkeein jhukata sharir mausam
takraati boondh gharmaati saansoon ka mausam
haath thaame humaare roomaani rahoon ka mausam
baarish hai aur ghazab unke saath ka mausam
-Tushar

On occasion of Rohit's wedding with "Mehak"....

Chale hoo saath too zindagi tumhaari hai
khaaboo khayaalo ki haqueeqat tumhari hai

chandni main nahate pal
bhoor se sajte kal
kangan ki chahak
payal si "mahak" tumhaari hai

sawan ki baarish
mausam ki saajish
choodi ki khanak
phoolo ki "mahak" tumhaari hai

humsafar mile hai to badti raahe tumhaari hai
khusiyoon se jhoomti kilkaari tumhaari hai

dharti aasmaan phoolo ke "mahak" tumhaari hai
hum hai aur humhaari saari duyaaien tumhaari hai
-Tushar

Leaving Gb-Team

Change is the only constant
Living with them is Present
Looking apprehensively at advent of future
Admiring the footsteps marked as past
Yesterday was an experience
Tomorrow is just reflections
Today is a bridge, A tunnel, a context
Whose QoS needs to be negotiated?
The flow of past
This routing area update is
Just a transfer to
Lossless High speed future
Some contacts to be reset
Some to be provisioned
Few names as critical to be kept
To be deleted
Meeting together may be suspended
But sitting will soon be resumed
World is a router
So packet will again collide
As IP address are there
Eye contact just blocked, not down dear
Smile is inevitable, a static memory
Moving with loving contexts
Dumping all the leaks behind
‘Am on a journey
Just changing cell, just TLLI’s
Not the IMSI

U all have entered in memory’s Rb-tree
Your search will be a return, GPRS_SUCCESS always
As some tunnels are not just created, but stays
Keeping Life’s Stack UP running with them
Always GREEN LIGHT ON
Always as FUN
-Tushar

woh hai to...

woh khooye aapne main hi bas rahte hai
humaare paas hoone ke ehsaas se bhi bekhabar rahte hai

hum aapni kya kahe

woh saath humaare nahin, aisa to hoota nahin
kabhie saamne baithe rahte hai
kabhie hum unke khaayaaloo main rahte hai

paloo main mahkte hai ,
ehsaaso koo bahkate hai
hum unke saath jeete hai
hum unhi pe marte hai
patoo ke saath lahraate hai
gulmohar humare ban jate hai
unhi ke saath chalte hai
zindagi woh humaari thamte hai
peele saarsoo se chahkte hai
basanti shaam se bahte hai
woh hai to aandhere jagmagate hai
woh nahin to taare humare saathi ban jaate hai

Woh hai to hum hai
humaari sooch, humaari haqueqat hai
humaari saanse, humaari aahe hai

wohi to hai jo humme

Ek roh se utha
Ek jaan bana jaate hai

woh saath humaare nahin, aisa to hoota nahin
kabhie saamne baithe rahte hai
kabhie hum unke khaayaaloo main rahte hai
-Tushar

chehre...

Zindagi ke chehre maut ke saath yoon robaroo hoonge
khawab humaare un chehroo se takra bas bhikhre hoonge
soocha na tha un mukhootoo ke bheed main yoon tanha hoonge
aapni laash par phele aansoo bhi roodaali ke hoonge
-Tushar

Kuch baatein ...

Humaari ashko ki nami ataa unki hai
samjhe aab unhe chaana khata humari hai

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Dard chubhta nahi duniya ke safed sawaloo se
sharmshaar hai unke likhe jawaboo ki shahayai se

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phighaltee nahi laboo par thahrti maayush hansi se
jalte hai beraang nazar ke darpan se

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aapni dastaan tanhaayioon ki zabaan sunate nahin
mausamoo main agar unki yaadoon ke sawan hoote nahin

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sawari hai zindagi doostoon ne hi kuch aise
begaanoo main bhi chehre aapnoo ke khiltee hoo jaise

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Thahr paate ye badte raastee manzil tak pahuchke
tham lete humme woh bas thoda badke bas thoda muskurake
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-Tushar

Lata ji

I had a collection of songs, a pack of 5 cassettes, for Lata ji.IN that there were lot many persons who said something abt Lataji after which the songs followed.Here is one of them
Smita patil
Didi ki main bhakt hoon, har waqt unki Awaaz sunti hoon to mere Rongte khade ho jate hain.Didi ko main un Logon mein se Manti hoon jinhone is Duniya mein bahut bade kam kiye hain. Jinki awaaz ne is duniya ke logon ko dukh ke Mauken per Shanti di hai. Didi ke samne bus yahi kah sakhti hoon ki jahan Devatv ki Prachti hoti hain Uske Samne sirf apne Haath judte hain.
The song which followed this was "Saware ke raan ranchi rana ji" , a bhajan by Meerabai...still in serach of this song again

NARGIS DUTT (actress):
Lata kisi tareef ki nahin, balki parastish ke kabil hain. Unki awaaz sunne ke baad kuch aisa aalam-tari ho jata hai jise bayaan karna bada mushkil hain. Yun samajhiye jaise koi dargah ya mandir main jaye, to vahan pahunch kar ibadat ke liye khud-ba-khud sar jhuk jaata hain aur aankhon se besakhta aasoon behne lagte hain.

NOORJEHAN (singer/actress):
Log kahte hain ki Lataji tumhe Itna Manti hain, Lataji tumhe Ustad samjhti hain, tumhe Pyar karti hain. Yeh sab Main samajhti hoon unka Badapan hain kyonki Lata to Lata hain. Lataji ki tarah meri nazar mein to koi aaj tak Paida nahin hua.,
Lataji ko Allah ne awaaz di hain, Ilm unhe unke Wallid Saab se mila, Khuda ki taraf se unpar Karam hain.

REKHA (actress)
Lata Mangeshkar ek Ehsaas hain jo Mehsoos kiya jata hain Baiyan nahi.Yeh ek Naam hain jisse Sun kar mere Man mein Sukoon aur Chehre par Muskurahat aa jati hain. To me she is etherial someone from another world, larger than life, no less than a Godess a 'Devi'.
This one Name evokes a million feelings inside me. I have cold feet, weak knees, a knot in my stomach, a smile on my lips & tears in my eyes. In other words I feel 'Alive' when I hear this name Lata Mangeshkar.

For Priyanka's Wedding site

Woh saath chale to zindagi humari hai
khawaish khwaboo ki haqueqat humari hai ...
-Tushar

Intezaar...

woh saath hai to waqt ki raftaar mano thamte nahin
woh pass nahin to pal mano jaise badte hi nahin
intezaar ke lamhoon main sapney hai haqueet nahin
ab zindagi khawahish ke khaboo main katte nahin
-Tushar

Aadat-2 ...

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
kabhi saaath jeene ki aadat thi
aaj khawaboo main milne ki aadat hai

Aadat bhi ajab hai
roop badal peeghalti-peeghlaati hai
kabhi haansti, kabhi roothti manati hai

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
kabhie saath kadam badane ki aadat thi
aaj un nisaanoo ko thaamne ki aadat hai

aadat bhi ghajab hai
laboo ke ghulab aakhoon ki nami hai
palkoon par khelti, roolati satati hai
kabhi yoon hi muskuraati hai

Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
Kabhi har lamha tujhe paane aadat thi
aaj har pal tujhe khoone ki aadat hai

Aadat bhi aadat hai
kabhi banati kabhi bigadti hai
har saans se ban jaate hai meri
par yaad teri kahlati hai

aadat to aadat hai
dil ki dhakan main meri bajti hai
par dhun teri sunate hai
haathoon ki lakeroon main to sajti nahin
aur taqdeer meri kahlati hai

Aadat to aadat hai
aakhoon se chalakti hai meri
par tanhaayee teri ban jaati hai


Aadat to bas aadat hai
mujhe aadat ki aadat hai
aadat jo meri hai
aadat jo tujhe mera banate hai

aadat bas aadat hai
Aadat woh meri hai, par,
Aadat mujhe teri hai
-Tushar

aadat-1 ...

Kitne mere woh hai kareeb
ehsaas jaane se unke yeh eise hua
rukhsat hoote bheege lamhoon se bas itna kaha
"humme aapki AADAT se hoon gaye hai"
-Tushar

... hoon aaj

baandh kar aakhoon main aapna hi sapna
duniya se kuch parda kar raha hoon aaj
teri yaaad, tere gham teri aarzoo aur khudko
kahi tanhayioon main zee raha hoon aaj
un andheroo main jisme to aaj bhi meri hai
tere khatoon ko jala rooshan kar rah hoon aaj
-Tushar

Kyon...

Jinse milne ki hi ek aarzoo se
zindagi ka har pal jiya hai
jinhe ek aapni manzil maan
aapne raastoon ka safar buna hai
kyon aaj unse mulakat
sirf ek aur lamhe se hai
kyon usse pa ke,dil khamosh sa hai
kahi kuch mahka nahin
sard mausam main hawa ka rukh bahka nahin
kyon aaj "hum" "main" nahin
kyon aaj woh beete waqt se thahre nahin
aarzoo woh poori to hui hai
saath hum tum hai, par tanha nahin
khade hai saat beete woh saare pal
jinse humne har saans se kuch kaha hai
jo en badte faasloo main
tumne kabhi suna nahin
daayre tay kuch aise hai kiye
ki humaare lafzoo main ab
aapni hi kahani nahin
-Tushar

khayaal...

1. Unka khayaal hi kya kam qatil tha
Rukhsaar se parda bhi jo dhalka diya

2. Woh kahte hai hum bekhaayal rehta hai
Koi unhe bataiye hum unhi ke khaayalo main khoye rahte hai

-Tushar

...raang...pehlu...

zindagi ke kuch rang aise hai dekhe
kuch gulaabi saath gujari shaam thi
baki teri ankahe din beete hai
baki meri ansuni raatein kati hai

chaand-suraj saath pehlu main kam hai dekhe
kuch mahke kohre ki woh chaadar hi thi
baki jaith main jalti dharti teri hai
baki tushar se pheghalti zameen meri hai

indradhanush ke saat chehre haanste hai dekhe
kuch oos ki kirnoo ke mel se thi
baki saawan ki baarish teri hai
baki pathjhad ke mausam mere hai

wahan door aasmaan-zammen milte hai dekhe
kuch unki mohabat ki tamanaa se thi
baki bhaagte woh raatse tere hai
baki thartee yee raahein meri hai

pyaar ke kuch pehlu aise hai dekhe
kuch humaari wafa ki chaav se thi
baki meri bewafai teri hai
baki tere gunaah mere hai
-Tushar

...Kya

Pooch rahe hai mehfil main woh mohabat hai kya
humne tera naam liya aur hum phir kehte kya
Jaan rahe hai yoon aaina ibaadat hai kya
aapni rooh main paya tujhe aur hum isse batate kya

band aakhon se khuli palkoon tak ek chah hai kya
dedar-e-chehra bas warna yoon aashiq kahlate kya
har pal har ghadi har lamha har saans se kahte hai kya
intezaar main jeete hai tere yoon hi rooswa hum hoote kya

baatoon-baatoon main har baat ka bas roop hai kya
tere naam se shuru mere khayaloo se gujarata hai kya
saath hai chalte to raastoon ka raahi hai kya
chand lafz tere kuch haansi meri , mausam hai aur kya

sindoori sham main fiza yoon gungunati hai kya
sooch hai yaa tum sapne dharti par laye hoon kya

tum paas hoo itne saansoo ki agan jalati hai kya
UFF !! agar ye haqueqat hai to phir khawaab hai kya
-Tushar

Memoirs of GEISHA....

Wonderful lines from the movie "Memoirs of GEISHA"

The heart dies a slow death,
Shedding all hopes like leaves,
Until one day there are none,
No hopes
Nothing remains
She paints her face to hide her face
It is not for a Geisha to want
It is not for a Geisha to feel
Geisha is an artist of a flaunting world
She dances, she sings, she entertains you
What ever you want
And rest is secret
rest is SHADOWS...

A story like mine should never be told
For my world is as bitten as it is fragile
I certainly was not born to the life of a GEISHA
But as so much in my strange world
I was carried there by the current …


Remember Chiyo Geisha’s are not goddess
We are not wives
We sell our skill not our body
We create another secret world
Of beauty only
The very word Geisha means “artist”
And to be a Geisha is to be judged as moving work of art
….
Beatty and agony, for us, lives side by side
Your feet will suffer
Your fingers will bleed
Even sitting and sleeping will be pain

Ashkoo ke dastaan …

tere jaane se zindagi ka kinara kuch aise khooya hai
ashko ke saillab ne saahil humara doboya hai
bichoo ke us bebas agan ko bhujaana chahte hai
par dekho aakhoon ke moti chehra tera hi dikhate hai
-Tushar

on Chakresh's B'day ( 30th nov 2006)

Din aa rahe hai ,mahine jaa rahe hai
Saaloo ke saath yaadoon ke samaan bad rahe hai
seeshe main safedi muskura rahe hai
peeche palat kar dekho too
raahoon main aapno ke saath chune moti jagmaga rahe hai
yeh heere hi shayad jeevan ka saar hoonge
hum to bas raahe yoon hi rooshan karte chalenge
-Tushar

to be sent on Nd's Birthday ...17th Dec'2006

Birthdays are special days
as they are a chance always
for those who are so far so near
but for those U are so dear
a day to express the unspoken all
that too without verbose fall
just short like morning rise
but sparkling as lotus by ur side
may be months gone without call
but here are we all
with vermillion sun,
with flowers bun
together with singing birds
walking with verdant trees
along are moving clouds
making the misty clout
just to say we care for U
though apart are we
but we are so near
close the eyes , find me dear
So as we remember U
U live with our wishes
which we send
no words no flowers
but just our own
"Smiling tears"

Happy B'day
-Tushar

Rista ...

ek seekh dee hai kuch beete ristoo ne ,
ristoo ke baare main
saaloo lagte hai ek ristee ko uska roop dene main
aur woh hota hai barf jaisa
varshoo ki laagat mahnat se
roz thoos hoota hua
par jahan kuch rook gaya
naye parat thamne lagi
woh khaamoshi woh doori chingaari se ho jaate hai
saaloo ke riste ke putle ko
dino main pighala jaate hai
aur kabhi ahankaar hi chir deta hai
us aapne kaya ko
bas kuch bahte paloo main

par aaj bhi yeh raaz nahin khool pa raha hoon
ki samay se kiya woh thoos bandhan
kya paaloo ke saath nazuk hoon jata hai
woh kuch lamhoon ki aag se
aapne ko yoonhi bhasam kar pata hai
phir us jali raakh aur jaalate hai , kachotati hai
Kyon diya itna ise
jo bas itne se toot gaya
kyon hoota hai rista barf ke dheer sa
tharta kam aur
bas jaise phighalte ehsaas sa
-Tushar

On Rohit and Mahek's Engagement ...

mausam thahar gaya hai kuch gungunanne ke liye
ki fiza main ehsaas bhene bhene se mahek ka hai
surkh hai gulaab rohit se phale hue
ki rista ab naya ek ubhar raha hai
-Tushar

Kyon ???

Kya uljhaan kya kulffaat leke jeeta hoon
kyon majhi ko pakad moothi main bandhta hoon
kyon sapnay aane wale paloo ke palta hoon
ek kal tha ,ek kal hai;
phir bhi aaj ko unke beech peesta hoon
-Tushar

maayne ...

meri ghazloo ko mukambal kiya hai tumhare lafzoo ne
nahin to zindagi ke maayne to bas log yoon hi nikala karte the
-Tushar

Akele ...

Waqt ka ehsaan kaho yaa taqdeer ki saajish
jo chalte kaadmoo ki dhool se teri yaadoo ke samaan kuch aise dakh gaya hai
ab jab tere jaane ka dard bhi tapis nahi deta
dil ke koone ka woh khaalipan bina ehsaas ke ji raha hai
us kamre par taala daal diya hai
jiske chabi khoone ka gham bhi nahin
kuch yaadein jo tadap rahi hai wahan
unhe aazad bhi to nahin kar sakta
na unke saath mud gujre waqt ko pa sakta hoon,
jee sakta hoon
kuch nahi koi nahin
koi bandhan koi nata nahin
phir bhi woh jagah bhaari hui to hai
us chookat ke andar kuch mera sa
jee raha hai mar raha hai , yeh bhi to pata nahin
par haan teri yaadoon ko
aapne se zamane se
kuch es tarah chipa diya hai
ki ab unme palte aapne chehre bhi anjaane hoon gaye hai
soocha na tha es doori se
mera roop kuch es tarah badal jayega
aapne saaye ke daman koo yoon jhatak
naya mokhota pahan main phir
haan ek baar phir
baas chal doonga
eese hi bas eese hi
ek aanant safar par
akele
bina tere bina aapne
bas akele
kuch yaad paaleta hue
kuch aur taale dalte hue
bas chal doonga
bas yoon hi
bas akele !!

sometimes...silence...

hum bayaan jo lafzoo se kar na sake
dastaan woh khaamoshi se likh gaye


sometimes I want to say so much
but ...their silence takes control
-Tushar

...???...

lafzoo se shikvoo ka tana bunte nahin ab
ki gila un cheroo se kya kare jin ke saath haansi ke woh pal bhi biatye hai
-Tushar

hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

tere jaane pe soocha nahin tha
hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge,
jahan jo tujh par lutana tha
us ko bas yoon lutate hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

guftgoo saath buni thi kabhi
humari ghazal ki woh juztuzoo hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

waqt jo gujare the milkar
woh pal humari saanse hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

teri peeshani par sahmi boonde
aakhoon ka humari bas noor hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

nishaan choode peeche jo saare
woh raastee yoon zindagi hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

aashiyaan banaya tha jo humne
teri yaadoo ke woh ghar hoonge

...hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

saapne paale the aankhoon main
taaroo je jahan main bas poore hoonge

tere jaane pe soocha nahin tha
hum apne ghar main ajnabi hoonge

Intezar...

Intezaar main jiske humne raatein gini hai
woh aaj humare tasoovar ko dost kehte hai
-Tushar

Life with you

The days are warm
The nights so calm
With you life has its own charm
so much mine ,so like orchid farm
-Tushar

desire...facet

The days were dark
The nights so long
My desire had this facet
for what ,for years I long
-Tushar

chubhan ...

sapne gulaab ke kabhi saath dekhe the in aakhoon ne
unke kaantoo ki chubhan kyon humari palak hi bas bhigotee hai
-Tushar

...kyon hai

woh kahte hai ki mohabbat nahin
phir palak jhuka sharmate kyon hai
jab hum desh main nahin
phir sapnoo main roz bulate kyon hai
-Tushar

From Chakresh

Dil mian chhipe the jo chehere
Unko apne patal par ukerte hua chand
Sard raat main unke yadon se
Garmi se hahakar machata hua chand
Pighla deeya jisne dil par rakhe ke patthar ko jisne
Un ons kee boodon ko tejab sa banata hua chand
Dil ka khoon nikal deeya jin yadon ne
Us lal rang se chandani ko bhegota hua chand…

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Sath jo hota tera to duniya se larh sakta tha
Tu sath nahin to khud se bhi darta hoon..
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Dil main chhipa tha jo dard
woh aaj muskarahat bankar khil raha hian
Dil mian tha jo tufan
who aaj sannata bankar bol raha hain
Dil main tjha jo sagar
woh aaj ashq bankar bikhar raha hain
Dil main thee jo awaj
Woh aaj sahyari bankar nikal rahi hian
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Ab to yeh bhia nahin keh sakta
Teri yaad main palken bhegota hoon
Asqon ke sagar sookh gaye hain
Tere becchoh ke gam se
Ab to yeh bhi nahin keh sakta
Tere bina jee nahin sakta hoon
Tune kasam jo dee hain
Tamam umra jeene kee
Ab to yeh bhi nahin keh sakta
Darde judayee se rota rehta hoon
Daal lee hain adat
Dard main muskarane kee…
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-Chakresh

mausam ...

jab bete kadmoo ko dekha tha
zindagi ki tasveer ko badla paya hai
kal jo tere saath ka sawaan tha
aaj woh teri yaad ka mausam le aaya hai
-Tushar

sapnay ?

sapnoo ka bhi kya koi masal astitva hota hai
woh to bas khyaal, khwaish aur ehsaas ka bandhan hai

Do dreams have a physical existence ?
they are just bond of thoughts, desires and feelings
-Tushar

Kuch khaayal ...

Dil ke dard ki hoothoon tak laate to jal jaate woh
bas tabhi is tapis ko dil main baandh liya hai

Daastan jab suni ooroo ki bebas
dard aapna bas phir ek zarra sa laga hai

chehra kahie jo muskurahaat ka sabab tha
kyon aaj woh haasi ka roop badal gaya hai

phool-daali sa bandhan hi to bas chaha tha
dekho par taqdeer ne raat-din sa bana diya hai

daayre dard ke kar gaye hai kuch is tarah tanha
ehsaas bhi maano saath ab chod gaya hai

kaise baayan kare us nazar ke churane ko
woh nazar jo kabhi dil churatee the

chahat-e-deedar kuch tadapne eese laga hai
khawab main bhi chehra ab dil ko behlata nahin

daastan aapni chaahtoo ki kuch is kadar hoti hai bayan
chah din main chaand ki thi, par raat woh aamavas ki nikli

Jaise milte hai teri yaad har mod pe..
Kash un rahon tum hamsafar bhi hote

chalee the jab saare raaste tere ghar tak pahuchte the
doosh kise de jab tumne bataye bina hi aasiyaan badal liya

kash zindagi ek kavi ki sooch ki tarah hoti,bas muskuraate
aur pal main apne saathi ke pehloo main pahuch jaati

... kabhie

zindagi mukkarrar hai un paalo se
woh lamhe jo saath bunne the kabhie
mahkate hai gulaab aaj bhi kitaaboo se
woh paanne jo saath likhe the kabhi
muskurate hai baag pholloo se
woh gulmohar saath khilaye the kabhie
doohraana chahte hai un sabdoo ko zubaan se
woh khaayaal maan tak hi simte the kabhie
-tushar

shayyar

yesterday was talking to Rohit ( who writes but very rare) abt my writing style.he wants to know what pain I have that I can pen down so much as a "shaayar". I said I have none.He said to be a poet u needs to be in pain , as chakresh also said once in my room .So I just said to him

dard-e-dil sunaate to shayyad shayar kahlate
abhi to bas haal-e-dil sunaate hai
-Tushar

... chaand

roomani khayaaloo se chat pe sharma raha hai chand
tumhari haya ko chandni se barsa raha hai chand
mahkta ehsaaas hawa main rajnigandha ka hai ya
mere khaayal se tumhare labbo ko surkh bana raha hai chand

laharata hai aanchal yaa sitaroo se khawab bun raha hai chaand
chaa rahi hai ghaata yaa tumhari zulfoo main chup raha hai chaand
jhankati hai har aahaat pe patto ki kilkaari hi bas ya
tere paayal se haal-e-dil suna raha hai chaand
-Tushar

bas yu hi

roomaani khayaaloo se chat pe chand sharma raha hai
nazar ka dookha hai , yaa tumhari haya chandni se barsa raha hai
mahkta ehsaaas hawa main rajnigandha ka hi to hai ya mere khayaal ka
kaaptee laboo ko jo ghulab sa surkh bana raha hai
-Tushar

rohit's sms response : 27th Oct 2006

bayaan nahin kar sakte bekhaayali ka aalam
bas kahte hai
"mahak" us gulaboo ki ehsaaas aapka hai
-tushar

dua ibadat tab karte jab koi tammanna adhoori hoti
ab mannat kya maage jab fiza hi "mahakti" sirf "mahak" se hai
-tushar

roomani hoona

Bahar mausam ko nazar uttha kar to dekho
sard hawaoo se dhadkanee bada ke to dekho
roomani tum bhi hoo jaayooge
palkee baand kar humme yaad karke to dekho

happy "DIWALI and EID"

Roshan hai gaaliyaan deepoo ki ladi se
mahkti hai rasoi sewai ke mahak se
waqt phir se bachpan main ab latuega
meethai, pathake or eide ke saath ab khelega
-Tushar

Subh Deepawali

Roshan hai gaaliyaan deepoo ki ladi se
mahkti hai rasoi ghee ke mahak se
waqt phir se bachpan main ab latuega
meethai, pathake or kandeel ke saath ab khelega

zindagi main phir nayi aasha ki kiran aayege
Khusi ki devi andhkar ke datya phir harayege

Jeevan bas ab rooshan hoga
ummedo ki loo ka bas ab saath hoga

As the season of festivity is on its roll ,
Wishing U and Ur Family "Subh Deepawali"
-Tushar

Kuch...nahin

Kuch daayre baad jaate hai jab kuch kadam baadte nahin
Kuch riste choot jaate hai jab kuch sabdh ubharte nahin
zindagi chaalte hai pal-pal ko jinne se ,par
Kuch lamhe thahar jaate hai jab kuch chehre aankh se bahte nahin
-Tushar

kuch ...

kuch dyaare bad jaate hai jab kuch kadam badte nahin
kuch riste choot jaate hai jab kuch sabdh ubharte nahin
-Tushar

phoolo se milna...

gamgeen dil ki dhoon bhi madhoosh kar sakti hai
bas saaj badal naye sur bandhne hai tumko
aashk ki boond bhi badal sakti hai oos main
namkeen tasoovar chood sirf phoolo se milana hai unko
-Tushar

waqt badal gaya hai ...

Kuch jazbatoon ka khicaav tha
jisne us darwaaze par dastak dee thi

kiwaad khuuli, chehre muskuraaye bhi
par us chamak main jhijhak dhihklaaye bhi
aasan par aaraam se humare baithne se
hulchul aakhoon main khai khilkhilaye bhi

gazab ka tha woh saama jab
varsoo baad aapne doost ke saamne tha aaznabi tab

shaayad main hi saaloo ke aantraal laangh na paya tha
kahi yaadoo main jeeta, aaj ke pal main sama na paya tha

paaloo main hee pehchaani awaaz bhatkne lagi thi
kahi anjaane shahar main jaise ghootne lagi thi

tabhi aaj jaag utha, chahak utha
chai-naaste ke baad darwaaza niharne laga

ussne jheepthe se kaha
"zindagi kaise bhaagne lage hai, waqt ki kaami se jaise haarne lagi hai .
buraa na maano yaar, par ek 'party' main jaana hai,
kaam silsile mian 'socialize' karne hai "

samajh gaye the bhaagne ka matlab
nigaahoon se darwaze takne ka matlab

woh chookhat jisse aana hi yaad tha bas
dooara hi koi pahloo dikha rahi thi
bahaar dikhtee sooni gali meri zindagi thi bas
"aapni" is chookhat laangh kar kahi chaali ja rahi thi
-Tushar

change ...

Un laboo ka thathadana aaj bhi dil main toofaan thaamta hai,
pyaar ke na, par shikvoo ke charche humare naam se bunta hai,
mausam badalte hai shakhoo ke roop bhi
saawan ke baad machal, pattoo ke raang bhi ujadhtaa hai
-Tushar

Sometimes ...

Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to ...... step on rainbow side
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... dance in moonlit night
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... fly in bluest sky
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... sing with morning flight

But with you holding me,
so sure I am
the dreams are real
You standing beside,
I am bliss
I am Life

Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... coloring with sun rising
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... wetting in spring rain
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... smiling with cherry blossom
Sometimes I quiz I wonder how it feel like to... shedding with autumn green

But with You moving around
I am on joyous ride
want to sing, dance, laugh,
all You by my side

You make me feel What I am
How can I love
How can I smile
making me stop wondering
just, cherishing what all is in sight
You make me LIVE
You make me feel what is LIFE...
-Tushar

From Aman's blog

This is one piece that I wrote exemtpore in Aman's blog.Just felt like having in my collection .

jab tak hai chaand aasmaan main,
jab talak hai chaandni raatein,
aap muskuraage humare jahan main,
roboro na sahi par yaadoon main karge aap ki baatein
-Tushar

Friend ...

Kuch dena tha us saaye ko
raat main bhi jo ubhartaa hai mere saath
meri hi parchaiyoon ke khoone par
muskurata hai jo mere saath

naam de sakta hoon aapna usse
pratibimb (shadow) mera hi to hai woh
mere in nainoo pe paltee
sapnoo ka sutradhaar hi to hai woh

par naam na doonga aapna,
ki pehchaan uski mujhse nahi, meri usse hai
jeevan paath main sahayaak, disha nirdeshak mera wahi to hai

par kuch kehna too hai usse
pehchaan ek denne to hai usse
kya par hai sawal khada ?
jisse aaj ,
soocha bahoot, samjha bahoot
toola bahoot, jaana bahoot

uderhbun main sooch raha tha tab
mil gaya jawab usse-se aaj mujhe
muskuraa kar bheed main pukara jab
"DOST" kahkar ussne aaj mujhe
-Tushar

Gulzar : again

kuch saaaye kuch parchaiyaan
kuch chahat ke sajde
kuch badaloo pe rakhi ummeedein
barastee rahi tarastee rahee
chaand aasmaan main jaade suraakh ki tarah jhaakta raha
aur raat aandhe kuan ki taraf mooh khoole haaftee rahi

raaste paav tale se sarakte rahe
na ruke na thame
na rooka na poocha
zindagi kis talash main hai

zindagi jaise thakne lagi hai
aur yeh zindagi ka judwaa uski ungali thaame sahar ki nagi sadkoo par
abhi tak
kuch doondh raha hai
kuch bin raha hai
-Gulzar

Umrao jaan: revisited

to mujhe chahe na chahe yeh tere bas main to hain
main tujhe na chaho yeh mere bas main nahin
-Umraoo Jaan

nazuki

nazuki unke labbo ki kya kahiye
phakhuddi ek gulaab ki se ...
-Umraoo Jaan

a communication

I never thought this will go so long.staeted with anshul, this communication will have inputs from me and chakresh and unbelievablly from arun too.
So I am framing every phase of it.

1)Anshul gave me a frame of his

aarzoo hai ki saja le apna ashiyhaan
mukammal karle apna har armaan
dhoonda aur chaha to bahut usko
par chota pad raha hai ye jahan
banane ke liye wo ashiyhaan

2)I responded in my way

Khawaaishyoon ki koi seema nahin
vistaar hai aasmaan se bada unka
zarorat nahin jahan ki aashiyaan ke liye
muskuraana baas kaafi hai unka Tushar

3) Chakresh wrote in response , when asked by ND

Karte hue intzar tumhara ho gayee hian sham
Yeh kaala asman kahin kala hi na raha jaye
Na aye tum to kabhi na hoga savera…
Reh jayega aise hi meri jindagi main andhera…

4) I wrote to revive him

Bemaani na samjhoo intezaar ke paaloo ko
Ehsaas unka dil ke kareeb ,un paloo se bhi hai
baithye kyon ho maayush saavere ki chah main
shamaa ki loo bhi chehra jab dekha jaate hai
-Tushar

I also made a new version of the above couplet, just for the sake of it

Bemaani na samjhoo intezaar ke paaloo ko
Ehsaas unka dil ke kareeb ,un paloo se bhi hai
baithye kyon ho maayush saavere ki chah main
shamaa main jalte parwanoo sa sabab jab tumhara bhi hai
-Tushar

5)Chakresh was not ready to give his saturine mood and went further

Jab sham ka husn ud jata hian..
Din bhi kali raat lagne lagta hain..
Unka intjar us sham tak hain..
Jo kabhi takarayegi nahin…
Pata hain who nahin ayenge
Par unke intjar main hum palken to bicchayenge
Sath the jab who to wahi sham sundar thee..
Aaj who syah rang se rangi hui…
Darati hui..satati hui..
woh sham kab ayegi..jab sath hoga unko..
woh sham ka husn fir haseen hoga..
na kabhi khatm ho who sham aa jaye..
par filhaal to bas intjar hain us shaam ka…

6) Arun , I guess bored or frustrated with these long mails, said this

Kyion hawa dete ho buji hui aag ko
Kahi koi chingari aag na laga de es jahan ko !

7) But I was in synch with chakresh and wrote this, a bit not poetic , but just wanted to frame something , did it in office so a less ryhming but was expressing me

tanha shaam nahin
channd sitare badal hai sambahale usne apne acchaal main

tanha din nahin
paatte (leaves) panchi fiza hai pale usne aapni baahoo main

to us raat-din ke saath tanha main kaise ho sakta hoon
saathi saangi pyaare jab hai mile in rahoon main
kuch mile , kuch chote ,
kuch ruke , kuch bade
par yaadyoon ki mithi misri bani hai aafsanoo main

In sab ke saath agar akela darta hoon
apne ko agar doosh deta hoon
to sahi main main kahin soo raha hoon
kuch paane ki dhoon main sab khoo raha hoon

jagna to hoga
badna to hoga

sunane kuch beete lamhe aapne ko hoge
un mitthi yaadyoon se gham dhoone to hoge

jadtha ki barf aaj todke
kaantoo ki chuban choodke
sapney kuch aur paalte hai
lahraate fiza main gaate hai

pyaar hi bas batana aasaan duniya main hai
wapas usse pane main kahin woh hi ghata hai

sirf karna chotta ek kaam hai
kissi baache ko bas hasana hai

zindagi phir maasoom ho jayege
kilkari baahoon main kai goonj jayege

to bas chalo chalte hai
haste hai aur haasate hai
humsafar bahoot hai
chalo sabko aapne khayaal sunate hai
-Tushar

aapka hai ...

palkoon main muskuata khayaal aapka hai
aakhoon main basaa khawaab aapka hai
pal koi beetata nahin ek naam ke bina
us naam main tasoovaar aapka hai

hawaoon main lahraata aanchal aapka hai
raang gulaab main bhaara aapka hai
chalti nahin zindagi dhadkan ke bina
wo dhadkan sunata dil aapka hai

haathoon main ubhaarta saaya aapka hai
karta madhoosh sangeet aapka hai
saanseein simatate nahin fiza ke bina
un fizayoon main mahkata ehsaaas aapka hai

maay main bhikara shabab aapka hai
rijhaata bhavroon ko raas aapka hai
chaand khilta nahin chandni ke bina
us chandni se dhalta noor aapka hai

meri maauzoo ka saahil aapka hai
meri ashiqui ka saabab aapka hai
thahaar jaate hai raaste humsafar ke bina
us humsafar saa saath aapka hai
-Tushar